ON TODAY FØØD EPISODE 🐰

DAY 7

At the time, it was for the attention of other, I was craving validation. I wanted to stop people jokes about the way I looked and getting some kind of revenge I guess (I wasn’t fat nor skinny they were just mean + bød¥ d¥smørph!@ didn’t help) Now it’s more like an obsession helping to stop overthinking and numbing my feelings. I don’t do that for people, actually I don’t want them to notice nor asking questions, the “looking” part is just additional motivation because it’s just not the main purpose this time And actually it’s working, I’m feeling less miserable than 2~3 weeks ago so happy 🧚✨

i am soo back and so motivated

My life is full of challenges Imputed by myself

The next one is to not have my p3r!ød next month HAHAHAAAAA

Wish me luck ✌️

FØ0D DAIRY

Last 3 days

Add more coffee and u good ☕️☕️

Sat≈ 1800

Sun≈ 1200

M≈ 1800

Tuesday coming soon..

TW: fck3d up 3d thoughs

Every single month, when the cramps hit, I dream about the early menopause I can create with 4n4 and I whisper “maybe next month I’ll be s!ck enough”

This is not very “mentally stable” of me

Little thing that can help (eventually?) First of all this is a daily reminder that one day that you consider bad will not mess everything up, don’t give up just for one day IT’S OKAY 💚💚

Tonight I indulged myself to have a snack, 3/4 of an apple and 15 vegetables crackers with a little bit of chickpeas left from my dinner.. right after I started to freak out, saying to myself that it was way too much and that I ruined everything I was genuinely scared and felling like a 🐖 I tried to take a step back after some time and decided to see how my bødy would react to this (NOT AT ALL) b!nge I just had. Like wtf girl 300 is not that bad when you only had no more and probably less than 1300 during the day CALM THE FCK DOWN And you know what? Turns out my bødy was just hungry haha :) I feel good, satisfied and not bloated at all So to anyone out there that is starting to feel really bad because you choose to 3@t something more than what you planned for the day it’s gonna be okay <33 + if you’re like me you probably over counting/estmating anyway haha It’s okay to have a little snack once in a while even if you already had a m3t@bday, maybe you were just hungry and this snack won’t make you bloated

except if you stressed it out to much or you let yourself have an B episode because of it… it will only make things worse

Hope it reassured the people who needed to hear it 🧚🐞

DAY 23

Idk anymore haha, I sure act like I am on a daily basis but overall I don’t think I’m happy, more like grateful about the events in my life and my surroundings, friends and family

I started this journey to numb my feelings.. well I think it’s working pretty well lmao

ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE ✨

I didn’t take pictures but ate around 2000 I think

M3@b@b dayyyyy!! Finally!

I feel sooo heavy tho😭

DAY 1

I know that this is pretty much the same as the other but it really motivated me in my journey to do this kind of challenge every day so here we go again lol

Stats: CW≈ 53 • H~ 150 • BM!≈ 23,6 • Wa!st~ 65 • Arms~ 26-27

Expectations: To reach my GW and løøse at least 3 before coming back home.. løøsing my p3r!of would be great too

Everything is m3@sur3d and cøunt3d in cm and kg but I’ll be extra careful cause i don’t want to be str!k3 again so I’m not using them a lot

ON TODAY FØØD EPISODE 🦎

Breakfast~ 1 ice Americano Lunch~ Salmon wrap Snack~ 1 ice tea + 1 ice Americano + 2 lowc@l lychee candy Dinner~ Japanese Soba salad and 2 pcs of tofu filled with meat + 1 serving of shirataki + 2 apples and 1 matcha ice cream

Total:~ 1200

Love the people around me, they gave those 2 pcs of tofu out of nowhere, it was delicious 🌺They are so nice <333

I almost fck up my day with a craving but I found apples and lowc@l ice cream so it’s okay I’m at my limit tho