Things Are Gonna Start Getting Tight Around Here-

Stats for today

Breakfast-

Water - 0 calories

3 cups of vegetable soup - 321 calories with added salt absolutely delicious 😋

1 sandwich (2 slices of wheat bread 110 + 3 baloney slices at 80 calories each) 460

Total- 781

Lunch- pumpkin spice ice coffee - 120 calories

Puts me at 901 calories

Liquid Fast for 15hrs untill 12:45am midnight ✨️

10:21pm - vanilla chai tea with 3 spoonfulls of splenda 0 calories

I feel like a fat pig. My ex just confirmed that he eats 350-500 to 1000 calories perday and he's so skinny and beautiful. I NEED to catch up and get better at loosing weight. I don't want to be the fat freind. It wil be so worth the hunger when I get to wear cute clothes and have smaller boobs

My coworker said it looks like I'm loosing weight!! She said my tummy and back are looking a little smaller. I didn't know 7lbs was enough for people to start noticing. Then again me and them work like 10 and half hours with each other in a small room. But I'm proud never the less.

Things are gonna start getting tight around here. I'm gonna really restrict my food intake as I really want to keep losing weight. I donot care how I get there. All I know if I have to lose 40lbs as fast as possible.

I wish I could survive on as little calories as possible. I long to punish myself for the wrong I've done to my ex, my mother or just anyone really that I have displeased with my presence. I need to punish myself. Only then I'll be a good girl inside and out. I'd say a good number for myself would be 500 calories. I need to punish myself. I CANNOT exists on food. My suffering will be atonement for all my sins.

1 mug of vanilla chai tea with splenda 0 cal

Today I am going to fast once again for 24 hrs. All I will allow myself to have is water, some vitamins and a nice hot shower. And I get to binge watch YouTube!

My fast will start at 7am and ends at 7am tomorrow morning. When I go home tomorrow morning I'll have soup and some veggies.

The clock starts now!!!!

24 Oz cup of decaf lipton tea - 2 tea bags, 8 splendas and zero sugar coffee creamer

16oz water