MTF Here.

Hello!

I like dms :) i'm a loser fake girl (a normal boy) potentially detransitioning

I think the reason being a guy appeals to me is that when I have sexual fantasies I always picture myself in a male role partnered with a cis woman and i dont have fun any other way. In order to get in a situation like that long term I would have to be a guy, and I’m so confused about my identity just in general that that sounds extremely appealing…

Question 24, 26 and 30 💖

24. Not only do I pee standing up, I often do it into the bathtub out of laziness.

26. Blue or Green? I usually prefer green.

30. I am a confused boy! Well not even that confused anymore. The reason why is complicated and I don’t want to be the type of man that’s introspective.

love freckles + braces 😍

Whats the most stalkery shit you secretly got off on during your time as a content creator

Well it was other people stalking me, and people were definitely very creepy towards me, even recently someone from back then found my insta and slid in my dms and tried to dom me. I told him I don’t really like guys but he insisted. There was a LOT of that in 2022.

Nah take the pills anyway, it’ll be funny (Or give them to a fakeboy)

Maybe I should start taking prog just to see what effect it has on me lol

I don’t really know how realistic it is for me to not shave for months, or maybe even forever… I need someone to hold me accountable I guess. I’ve been getting a lot of doubts about detrans lately and that’s unacceptable. That’s why it needs to be forced on me to some extent. I might never stick to it on my own.

I’m actively hurting myself and making bad decisions in order to hurt myself and I have literally no one to talk to and I’m just losing it and I made so so so many bad decisions last night and this just feels like a breaking point for me idk I just can’t keep doing this I can’t even function. I have literally no one I feel like I can talk to about this and I’m just losing it. I don’t know if I’ve ever been this bad before and the idea of that alone really sucks.

this is a cry for help please help me

This was kind of a lie ig lol

I’m definitely a girl right now and I am actively sabotaging any possible boyification.

I can’t wait for your guy self to win. Do you think it’ll be long before it happens?

At the moment I’m the girl self so I can say something from kind of a different angle.

When I want to be a guy I take a lot of steps towards masculinization and try to sabotage my “girl self”

When I’m a girl I never really get more feminine. I never try to fix things. In fact I still engage in this detrans stuff.

It’s like… I’m just genuinely not in the mindset of BEING a girl ever anymore. A lot of the time I WANT to be a girl, like I used to be, but I’m just… not one. If I try to be all feminine it feels like I’m faking it. Like I’m crossdressing. I want so badly to go back to feeling comfortable as a girl, I just can’t seem to anymore.

So to answer your question, I’m not sure it will be long.