You Are A Man

Question 24, 26 and 30 💖

24. Not only do I pee standing up, I often do it into the bathtub out of laziness.

26. Blue or Green? I usually prefer green.

30. I am a confused boy! Well not even that confused anymore. The reason why is complicated and I don’t want to be the type of man that’s introspective.

Have you told anyone in your life you're a guy again?

I have not really. At most I’ve told a few friends I’m questioning if I may be gender fluid.

thenn i will

totally not a little fantasy of mine to take advantage of someone, despite being a sub

I love that kind of thing, it is very welcome for me.

Just realized I refilled my pill organizer for the week and it didn’t even occur to me to put hrt in there. I’m used to being off of it now, it didn’t even register as an option. I have a huge stockpile of spiro and estradiol pills piling up.

Huge points to anyone willing to try to convince me to poor water in those pill bottles and ruin them <3

Seriously come in my dms and manipulate me into doing that pleeeease. that sounds so hot.

reblog if you're an mtf boy who wants people to come into your DMs / inbox and tell you how masculine and manly you are

Welp, today is the last day I’m allowed to shave before the limits on the detrans notes game kick in.

I’ll make myself pretty one last time before throwing away my femininity forever.

I would just not shave today either but I have some final business to take care of where I need to be a girl.

I also reached 100 notes so I do need to get a haircut soon.

I haven't shaved in over a week at this point. There still isn't really that much facial hair. I started hrt young, and actually the reason I was so eager to start hrt when i did was because of the slight facial hair growth I started getting. Since I stopped taking hrt I have noticed a bit of new hair growth on my left cheek but strangely none on my right cheek yet. Something I've started to wonder (and I wonder this every time I've tried to grow my facial hair out) is whether it's even a good idea to do this. It looks kinda bad and scraggly and it just makes me less confident when I go out. It's barely noticeable from a distance but up close it makes me look kinda bad. That being said I did promise in my notes game that I wouldn't shave so for now I won't :)

The “gender roles and sexism are hot but queer people are valid” to “conversion kink is hot, but you can still be whatever gender you want” to “trans people are their birth gender and should follow traditional gender roles” pipeline

maybe you could get something semi androgynous, a haircut you can style either feminine or masculine depending on the day. i know you said you wanna commit to one permanently but for now you can just do that maybe?

Yeah so, I’m maybe a bit more clear headed about this than usual right now so I can give a very genuine answer: That’s probably a good idea, and realistically I probably am gender fluid. I think the reason I’m so hesitant to identify with gender fluidity is because I’d have to give up my “one of the good ones” sticker, which like I know is not good motivation but idk when someone tells me “You’re the first trans person I’ve seen that I think actually looks and sounds good” I’m kind of like “ew that’s transphobic but also an incredibly strong compliment i think???”

My concern about this is less about randos on the Internet and more about how some of my extended family sees me. It might complicate my life if I started openly saying “Yeah I’m fine with being a boy sometimes”

Having an androgynous haircut would probably be good! Something where I can pass as either cis male or cis female (which is probably achievable for me!)

That being said, and I’m at risk of hinting at my identity here a little bit, I’m going to in an indie film production later this year and I play a male character (it’s a sequel to something from before I transitioned) so really I just need to have a haircut that fits that role and then after we wrap I’ll probably get it styled in a feminine way.

Most likely I won’t do anything with my hair at all until we start filming in order to maximize the options for how my character’s hair can look because we haven’t 100% decided yet. My plan for after we’re done is actually basically the Gwenpool or Enid Sinclair haircut lol so, blonde, around shoulder length or a little shorter with the ends dyed pink or something similar.

That being said we might not finish filming this for quite a while, so actually I’m trapped in boyness whether I like it or not (which is part of why I’ve been so into this kink lately) but I was the one who decided we should just keep the character male anyway so whose fault is it really?

(He really wouldn’t have worked as a trans character at all)