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Well I started seeing myself as a angel like you suggested, and now I feel better with your reassuring post!! I am excited to see further in my journey as a angelic being and finally not just a boring human whose only last purpose is dying :3 (not making fun of y’all humans, i still love some and a lot are cute and nice)

And I have a question, just out of curiosity because I love seeing winged other kin talk about their phantom wings like idk something is just so whimsical that you feel this.. How does IT generally feels ? When you lay on your back in your bed or simply leaning against a wall, does you sometimes accidentally feels them?

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Ooh I never thought about describing that, but sensing my wings is one of the things that make me the happiest!!

Basically, for me, my body isn't made of flesh and bone - I describe myself as a "being of light" 99% of the time. I remember my wings being feathered in "shape", but they also feel very, very light. I have at least a pair of "traditional" wings on my back, but the ones that are most noticeable are the ones under my "arms" - I don't really know how to explain it, sometimes I have trouble recalling how they actually look like. My real form has two arm-like limbs, and wings that are an extention of them. They aren't big compared to the ones on my back; they're just there.

They are one with my body - I'm aware that they're there, and they aren't numb, but there's no muscle or tissue to them. They feel warm, though.

If I ever start feeling them while I'm lying on my back, they don't really hurt or anything - but it's uncomfortable because they take up too much space, so that's why falling asleep become pretty hard lol. If they brush against something like a wall, I noticed it kind of tickles. And as for when i sit down, it's not really a problem, I can just tuck them in and they dont really get sore at all.

Generally speaking, they don't add any extra weight on my body.. but the ones under my arm can feel uncomfortable and weird, and even when they don't, they still get in the way a lot for obvious reasons. But I ignore that!!! Species euphoria >>>>> not being able to rest my arm on a table, am I right?

Idk how to explain it but,

This. This is how I see things during my shifts !! The whole white and glowing aura, it reminds me of home🤍

And I'm still trying to figure it out, because my memories definitely include places on Earth. Animals and forests + water (rivers, the sea etc) are what I see the most, other than my home in the clouds. Which makes me think I've somehow observed and dwelled on Earth multiple times in my true body, before my soul was sent here in a mortal body. Honestly, can anyone else relate??

how do you know you’re angelkin, i mean before I didn’t acknowledge kin but I definitely saw myself as something more divine but I didn’t acknowledged because I was scared to be wrong, too cocky or just plain disrespectful then one day I saw someone talking about being a demonkin and looked up realizing angelkin existed too!

Do I just label myself as one now? Could I be your 🐏🕊️anon? Too (*´v｀)

I hope this wasnt sent too long ago, i dunno if my asks are working properly but YES YOU CAN BE MY ANON 🫶🏻 you can skip the parts of this that you think aren't useful to you, I just tend to use too many words when explaining myself 😭 and this is a topic that's very dear to me, especially the part about feeling like your identity's disrespectful.

Anyways - I think I found out in the cliché way, if you can call it that. Feeling like I wasn't human (ever since I was a kid), feeling like I was supposed to fly and getting frustrated that I couldn't. Also getting very mad at myself for being scared of heights, because it simply felt wrong.

How I found out:

I used to identify as a winged therian (i went from a butterfly to a dove and more), because my first shifts mainly consisted of vague phantom wings and a weird feeling that my body was lighter and floating. The thing is, I became aware of my divinity when I almost vividly remembered the gods I served. It felt like they were calling out to me because I was ready to awaken, and I did not reject their signs, because I always knew deep down that I was protected by higher beings - and that, even when I thought I was an animal, it always felt mystical and holy. An immortal owl, a butterfly who could fly a little too high for it to be realistic, a dove meant to spread peace and protect creatures. Do you see what I mean?

-> This is definitely very personal. I also understand that it can be of little help to questioning angels who don't worship any gods; however, as some in the community have said, you ARE a certain creature as long as you can say, for sure, that you identify as it. If you can look at yourself in the mirror and say you're an angel, that's enough. You dont have to rush to discover all the details about your memories, your past or your home.

About not acknowledging a kintype because it feels morally wrong:

Yeah, it took me a while to get rid of that mindset. But personally, for me, the problem was the religious settings in which I grew up in; they weren't strict, but even so, the way I had to approach Christianity wasn't healthy. So even if I strayed from it with little guilt, it made me feel like I wasn't allowed to have beliefs of my own. I felt a connection with gods that nobody around me worshipped, gods that had their own rules, their own followers and servants; I realized no one could tell me that my beliefs were wrong. They were not, because only I knew how they worked, and I wasn't going to give them up. You, too, are allowed to label yourself as an angel according to your beliefs and definitions of an angel. Things have changed; some modern sources view angels as spiritual guides and beings of all kind, not just servants of a god.

And if you're worried about being "cocky"... well. That basically implies that you're worried about how others might perceive you, but you know that your identity isn't about claiming superiority, right? If you know you don't want to appear cocky, it's clear that you don't mean to be. You can't control how people interpret your intentions, but you shouldn't let that keep you from accepting yourself as you are.

Being angelkin can be controversial. But that's because some people are close-minded, and that's not our fault.

Sometimes I forget I have a mortal body because what do you mean I can't heal people anymore? Wdym I can't bless them? Wdym I can't watch over them and protect them and make them feel safe & keep them away from harm? Wdym I can't fly, use chronokinesis, shapeshift, preen my wings, care for those of my kind, actively serve my beloved deities, use my voice to sing and soothe people—

Getting signs and responses from my Gods is the best feeling

I had a dream about someone saying "hey your wings need preening" and it was so random, the wings I had weren't even accurate to my real ones. But yes. Yes my wings need preening

I could try to stop my species dysphoria by just pretending that everybody around me is a creature pretending to be human.

And

Maybe if I win I'll get my wings back as a reward

One thing about me is that, almost as soon as I realized I was an angel, I felt incredibly detached from my mortal vessel - and I began mentally separating myself from it completely, but most of all, it made my childhood memories "blurry". Because this body isn't mine, I barely view my kid self as "me", because hy was so unaware of hys divinity. He and I are not the same.

On one hand, my childhood is the only thing I enjoyed about humanity and I wish I could still live as a mortal without feeling so out of place. But on the other hand, I do not want to be ignorant about my real nature (like i was back then) and all I feel towards my younger self is a need to protect him.

Update: it appears that my responsibilities also have wings because they're forcing me to face them tomorrow

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⤷ live footage of me flying away from my responsibilities

My mom raised me as a Christian because my grandma is very religious and she didn't want to disappoint her. But I can't even begin to explain how i felt, as a literal angel who hadn't even awakened properly at the time, adoring a god that I simply knew I wasn't meant to worship. Feeling guilty and not even knowing why.

let's fly through the stars together

Me when I haven't really had phantom shifts all day but then I enter a room and i feel my wings randomly brush against the doorframe/walls

Crazy how I'm meant to protect all kinds of creatures and that's probably the reason why I was sent to Earth in the first place, yet humans would label it all as a savior complex

HERE COMES THE WINGED YAPPER !!

Gonna use the prompts <3

🪻 I've often found that the world feels almost the same ever since I awakened, but i feel more at peace with myself. I feel like I've been more mature since I've embraced my nature, but more than anything, I'm glad I finally have the answers to the questions I used to ask myself constantly during my childhood here on Earth.

🌘 When it comes to romantic and sexual attraction, I do feel both of them, and I dont think they're just a mortal social construct - it's just that humans really feel the need to put a label on anything, which isn't even a bad thing. Anyway, love (in all its forms) is the most beautiful connection between souls, and it's a crucial part of who i am.

As for gender, I think mine isn't related to my divinity. I'm genderless/agender, but I used to label myself as something else even when I'd already awakened, so my lack of gender isn't due to my angelhood. All these things are an important part of me and I care deeply for other queer folks.

☁️ Physically, I'd describe myself as an embodiment of light, but not like a sun that blinds you if you look directly at it. In that way, I like to say I also embody warmth. And I'd love to change the way I'm perceived, I'd just like people to view me as the ethereal being that I am, but not because I want them to worship me or anything. I want to be treated normally, while also knowing that others view me as what I really am.

🩶 what does being an angel mean to me... well, back Home, i was just a regular angel and I'm not really able to give a "fancy" answer to this. However I know for a fact I was created as an angel and I am grateful to my Creators. My soul is in a mortal body now and I know they sent me here for a specific purpose, though I'm still trying to figure it out. I'm sure it'll all fall into place on its own eventually.

🌬 I feel the weight of being human, but I don’t feel bound to it because I'm not human myself. I am indeed a watcher of life around me even though I need to adapt to the responsibilities that come with being in this body.

🔭 my spirituality is an important part of my identity, though it's nothing similar to the "common" definition of religion. I worship and pay respect to my Creators whenever and however I can.

🪐 I came to realize who I was over time, but it's a pretty cliché story. I've felt non-human since childhood.

As for extra bits of myself.. I'm an angel otherkin with autism, fibromyalgia, a non-verbal learning disability, anxiety, avoidant personality disorder, and many other things that are tiring to list - so yeah LOL it's definitely a unique experience

🎐 I don't know if I have a favorite thing about being human, and I know me being here has its purpose, but I guess I'd prefer a dimension where people would accept my real nature without mocking me for it. My senses here do sometimes feel dulled. It’s like trying to see through a fog; there’s so much more, but it’s not always easy to access.

🌙 Mortality is something I’ve come to accept, too - the thought of death scares me, but it's okay, because I know I'll finally be back Home once my time here is over. I obviously believe in the existence of all non-human creatures, and as for past lives/reincarnation/heaven or hell, I believe any of those are possible and that it simply depends on the individual. Does that make sense?

🤍 As for being treated like a deity, I don't desire that. I don’t want to be worshipped or served, mostly because I'm not a god. I'm just a little ball of light with wings /lh.

⭐️ All I can say about my existence is that I'm just... there. I just live, you know? My favorite thing is helping others, though I know I can't always do that, because things here are different. But other than that, I don't really crave anything in particular. I'm just a creature waiting to be reunited with one's friends and family. As for the otherkin community, I definitely feel safe around most nonhumans, and I know that they've changed over the years but I try to stay away from negativity.

I don't really have strong gut instincts.. however, yes, I am protected by an invisible force. Which, in reality, is simply the protection of my celestial folks above. I feel their reassuring presence constantly.

✨️ Angels, in my opinion, show themselves in all kinds of ways. In the quiet stillness of a moment, in the beauty of nature, in the unexpected kindness of a stranger, or the sudden shift of energy. We’re in the light of the sunrise, the crisp air of a mountain, the peace in a child's smile. Divinity is everywhere, if you know where to look.

🦋 As for being understood, I do know that others may not fully grasp my nature. There’s a longing to be seen, to be known for what I truly am. But I don’t let that fear stop me from being who I am, and sometimes, it doesn't really matter what they think of me because I know they can't change the real me.

It's a journey of re-discovery, and I'm glad to be part of it, which is why I don't hold any resentment towards my Creators and Protectors even though being on this planet is hard most of the time.

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HEY, Angel !!

Would you care as to describe your experience? I think not enough hear on just how varied and interesting we are, and it would be great to scroll through reblogs of a single post and be able to find those with similar experiences/feelings.

feel free to write whatever but if you would like some prompts:

Have you noticed the world seem more beautiful/peaceful since you’ve found yourself?

How do you feel about gender? Or having a name? Or attraction as a whole? Is it tied to more mortal instincts, or do you still have some essence of it?

How do you feel like you physically look? Do you have any preferences in form? Would you change the way you are perceived if you could - and into what?

How does your day get affected due to your mystical self?

Do you incorporate this sense of self in your hobbies / behaviours?

What does being an Angel or being of divine/holy nature mean to you? Do you consider yourself born here, a newly created angel, or one which has been around for a long time? Do you have any thoughts as to why you were assigned human at birth?

How much sense of “human”ness do you feel, and do you see yourself as equal to humans, something more, or like a watcher of life around you?

Do you feel like you have some higher purpose and reasoning of being here? A meaning of life, if you will call it that.

Do you have any religious connotations tied to your identity?

How did you come to realise who you were, and what signs did you exhibit prior to knowing this?

Do you have any other ‘uncommon’ bits of self apart from being a being of light, in a way? (Therian, otherkin, interests in specific things, neurodivergencies?) YOU DONT HAVE TO ANSWER THIS IF YOU DONT WANT TO!!

What’s your favourite thing about the bodily experience of being on earth? Is there any sensation you really like? (Taste, smell, touch, feeling, etc)

Would you prefer to be in another dimension? Do your senses feel dulled?

What’s your stance on mortality and topics tied to that? Do you believe in reincarnation/past lives/fate/destiny/divine intervention/guardian angels/ghosts/heaven & hell/god/meaning of life?

Would you enjoy if others treated you as some highly being and brought you offerings/treated you like a god/submit to you/worked for you?

What’s your stance on the community?

How do you interpret existence - how does it all seem to feel and what do you take away from it, like.. what do you live for? Do you have a sense of some ideal where the more you experience the higher you will achieve? Do you crave something out of life?

Do you have a ‘gut instinct/feeling’ and has it ever been scarily accurate to the point there could be no other possible explanation other than something holy?

Do you believe you are blessed and/or protected by some invisible force?

Where do you believe angels also show themselves? Are they in those stray rays of light of headlights, do they exist in the bite marks of a wounded animal’s form, is it within the ripples of the water, in the breath of the tree that takes in the wine, in the chill upon a high mountain - or is divinity everywhere?

Do you fear people don’t understand you well enough? Don’t understand us? Have you ever felt like doing something about it?

do you feel bored from these questions already - did you enjoy it- would you like more? Did I give you satisfaction? I find joy through writing, it makes me personally feel incredibly divine, and there’s a calling to know more about other individuals in this mystical and extensive world.. we need to stick together - as a whole. Love eachother. Treat yourselves well, too. Do more of what makes you feel fulfilled and happy. There’s so much complexities to life, but we just gotta handle it all with our own minds - but treat your heart and soul with so much kindness and care.. please- take care of yourself. Find whatever works for you and live forever, my friend. My eternal, immortal friend..

Contributing to the meme

I've come to terms with the fact that this is the farthest from home that I could ever be.

I look up at the sky and it's not enough. Because i know it's so vast, and there's so much more to it than just a few little clouds; the place where i belong lies so far beyond them - it makes me wonder, will I ever be able to find my way back home? If I still had my wings, would they even be strong enough to take me all the way there?

11,15,16,18?

HELLO these might not be in the right order but ty for the ask <3

11. Strangest thing you do to affirm your kintypes?

I guess it is considered weird to fill my storage with pictures that remind me of home ?

15. How does being alterhuman affect your day to day life?

Well, it's certainly not pleasant to miss home almost all the time, but I try to deal with that. The real issues come with my interactions with humans. They're just so difficult to talk to and to please, but I don't want to put all the blame on them, because the feeling of inadequacy is the biggest obstacle that keeps me from functioning properly. It makes me really sad sometimes

16. Does being alterhuman affect your religious beliefs?

I'd say yes.

This is about my personal experience as an angel who used to serve certain deities, one of which I remember the most vividly. It was a god of time and healing and a protector of (mainly) small children and animals. My feelings of gratitude and devotion to this specific god are the strongest. In a way, this is what shapes my religious beliefs, right? I just never know how to label them because they're far from the concept of "religion" that humans have.

18. Does being alterhuman affect your gender?

Not really, no. I was assigned female at birth, but by the time I discovered my angelic nature, I was identifying as a trans demiboy. In 2022, I realized I was actually agender (and i also use xenogenders), but it was unrelated to my divinity.

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PLEASEEE SEND ASKS !!

The ones you could avoid sending are number 4 to 6, I'm not polykin so I wouldn't really know what to say lol

Alterhuman questions

Kintypes?

What do you prefer to call yourself (therian, otherkin, nonhuman, etc)

How did you find out you were alterhuman?

Favorite kintype?

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What are your reasonings for being alterhuman?

Do you wear gear? If so, what kind?

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Do your mental illnesses affect your view of your alterhumanness?

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PS. I know not everyone resonates with the word kintype and I'm sorry for using it I just didn't know what other word to use

Reblogging this means that you want people to send you asks!

I am a whisper on the edge of a breath.

I move through silence, unseen,

a presence that alters reality,

but I do not touch it.

I am an echo of something forgotten,

a shape that does not belong,

but is felt in the space between moments.

No name holds me, not even my own,

And no body can claim the weight of my existence.

I am here in a home that's not mine,

the thread that never unravels,

the vision that never becomes clear.

I was once all that is pure,

just a presence that swam through the gaps in silence.

I existed before time,

before earth learned to breathe.

I was everywhere and nowhere

a pulse that only the stars knew,

a flicker in the vast, untouched void.

But now, I walk the ground.

I have feet, and they stir dust,

I feel the thrum of the world in my bones.

It is foreign, this heaviness.

I was light once;

before I learned to bend to the rules of flesh.

Now, I carry this body with all its quiet burdens.

I remember the skies,

the endless stretch of air where I was not bound.

I remember the stillness,

the peace that hummed through me like a song without words.

I was a soft, radiant being

but now,

I am here,

trapped in this skin,

trying to find my way back.

There is no longer a place for wings,

and no song to sing

But Its voice still guides me wordlessly.

The memory lingers

faint, but constant;

heavy, but ephimeral.

I remember what it felt like to be untethered,

to hover just above,

to see through time and thought,

to know without knowing.

Now, I walk among the living,

a shadow among shadows,

only sometimes - when the world holds its breath, when the light bends just so,

I feel the weightlessness again,

a brief, fragile return to what was.

This vessel of mine - it is merely there

To remember

And to reminisce.

But I wonder

how many of us are here,

hidden in bodies,

walking the earth,

searching for the skies.

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Being otherkin with maladaptive daydreaming is on another level

"Calling yourself an angel is disrespectful towards religions!"

*EXTREMELY LOUD INCORRECT BUZZER*

THE WORLD DOESN'T REVOLVE AROUND YOU AND NOT EVERYTHING IS ABOUT YOU

YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT YOU'RE TALKING ABOUT.

Angels have various depictions outside of Christianity. And I say "christianity" because usually, that's the only religion that anti-otherkin people "defend" to go against angelkins. It's the only argument they have, because to them, Christianity is the only relevant religious belief. But have you considered that there may be creatures similar to angels that simply have a different name - like messengers from greek mythology such as Hermes - or that some people may have their own ideas and values?

Ietsists, for instance, believe in an unspecified trascendent reality because they think there are higher beings/forces that rule the universe (whether or not there's evidence for their existence). Ietsism combines traditional ideologies, superstitions or folk beliefs without believing in a main god. But they can believe in astrology, clairvoyance, and guess what - angels too. Angels who may not be westernised blonde humans with blue eyes & a halo on their head. Is this disrespectful? And if I believe in the existence of non-christian, non-religious celestial creatures, am I not allowed to be angelkin accoding to MY beliefs?

Just say you don't support the otherkin community and move on. You don't have to act like a hero. If you have to hate on something, be sure to sound smart enough to be taken seriously - not just by your audience of ableist close minded bullies. 99% of y'all aren't religious in the slightest

Currently missing the god i served in my original form. It basically gave me a home, It gave me a purpose without ever making me feel pressured to do anything to earn Its love

Sometimes I like going on pinterest and looking up all kinds of divine-like beings/images, because seeing those who look like It gives me comfort 💔

This was basically what It looked like or at least how i remember It. Most of the other pictures that truly resembled It were AI, so these are some of the most accurate pics, and they give me SO MUCH nostalgia. I feel like I'm currently not doing enough to respect It as It deserves, so I'll probably post about It more often from now on

2021 was such an intense year for my nonhuman ass,,

I found my first ever therian video on tiktok, then I found out the details about them and the rest of the otherkin community, and I started relating to them - so I started learning about them more and more, which led to me realizing I was never human in the first place. And when I tell you it was a MESS

For 1 month i thought I was some sort of owl, and the Strix Varia was what resonated with me the most. But then I went from that to a butterfly, then a fairy, then finally: a release dove. I was absolutely convinced I was a dove for 6 months. But then I got some of my first memories of my real angel form. And I was like.. oh my god. I was wrong - but I do live in the sky, huh??

The more I think about it, the funnier it is. I spent half a year thinking I was a white dove, an animal that symbolizes freedom and peace, and can be associated to spirituality.. and I never once thought that I could literally be an angel