I've Come To Terms With The Fact That This Is The Farthest From Home That I Could Ever Be.

Update: it appears that my responsibilities also have wings because they're forcing me to face them tomorrow

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⤷ live footage of me flying away from my responsibilities

Opening and closing alterhuman tumblr like a fridge at 3am.

how do you know you’re angelkin, i mean before I didn’t acknowledge kin but I definitely saw myself as something more divine but I didn’t acknowledged because I was scared to be wrong, too cocky or just plain disrespectful then one day I saw someone talking about being a demonkin and looked up realizing angelkin existed too!

Do I just label myself as one now? Could I be your 🐏🕊️anon? Too (*´v｀)

I hope this wasnt sent too long ago, i dunno if my asks are working properly but YES YOU CAN BE MY ANON 🫶🏻 you can skip the parts of this that you think aren't useful to you, I just tend to use too many words when explaining myself 😭 and this is a topic that's very dear to me, especially the part about feeling like your identity's disrespectful.

Anyways - I think I found out in the cliché way, if you can call it that. Feeling like I wasn't human (ever since I was a kid), feeling like I was supposed to fly and getting frustrated that I couldn't. Also getting very mad at myself for being scared of heights, because it simply felt wrong.

How I found out:

I used to identify as a winged therian (i went from a butterfly to a dove and more), because my first shifts mainly consisted of vague phantom wings and a weird feeling that my body was lighter and floating. The thing is, I became aware of my divinity when I almost vividly remembered the gods I served. It felt like they were calling out to me because I was ready to awaken, and I did not reject their signs, because I always knew deep down that I was protected by higher beings - and that, even when I thought I was an animal, it always felt mystical and holy. An immortal owl, a butterfly who could fly a little too high for it to be realistic, a dove meant to spread peace and protect creatures. Do you see what I mean?

-> This is definitely very personal. I also understand that it can be of little help to questioning angels who don't worship any gods; however, as some in the community have said, you ARE a certain creature as long as you can say, for sure, that you identify as it. If you can look at yourself in the mirror and say you're an angel, that's enough. You dont have to rush to discover all the details about your memories, your past or your home.

About not acknowledging a kintype because it feels morally wrong:

Yeah, it took me a while to get rid of that mindset. But personally, for me, the problem was the religious settings in which I grew up in; they weren't strict, but even so, the way I had to approach Christianity wasn't healthy. So even if I strayed from it with little guilt, it made me feel like I wasn't allowed to have beliefs of my own. I felt a connection with gods that nobody around me worshipped, gods that had their own rules, their own followers and servants; I realized no one could tell me that my beliefs were wrong. They were not, because only I knew how they worked, and I wasn't going to give them up. You, too, are allowed to label yourself as an angel according to your beliefs and definitions of an angel. Things have changed; some modern sources view angels as spiritual guides and beings of all kind, not just servants of a god.

And if you're worried about being "cocky"... well. That basically implies that you're worried about how others might perceive you, but you know that your identity isn't about claiming superiority, right? If you know you don't want to appear cocky, it's clear that you don't mean to be. You can't control how people interpret your intentions, but you shouldn't let that keep you from accepting yourself as you are.

Being angelkin can be controversial. But that's because some people are close-minded, and that's not our fault.

HI IM ALSO AN ANGELKIN WHO WAS SENT HERE AT SOME POINT!!! I'm also really homesick a lot honestly, but at least we don't have to go through it completely alone right? Nice to meet you

( @anotherangeltype )

:0 HELLO nice to meet you too !! Yes the homesickness is so bad i liteally had to include it in my username LMAO. And no matter what other angel's (and even fallen angel's) experiences are, it's amazing how this community lets us share experiences and feelings. Tumblr is amazing from this point of view tbh

Me tbh

2021 was such an intense year for my nonhuman ass,,

I found my first ever therian video on tiktok, then I found out the details about them and the rest of the otherkin community, and I started relating to them - so I started learning about them more and more, which led to me realizing I was never human in the first place. And when I tell you it was a MESS

For 1 month i thought I was some sort of owl, and the Strix Varia was what resonated with me the most. But then I went from that to a butterfly, then a fairy, then finally: a release dove. I was absolutely convinced I was a dove for 6 months. But then I got some of my first memories of my real angel form. And I was like.. oh my god. I was wrong - but I do live in the sky, huh??

The more I think about it, the funnier it is. I spent half a year thinking I was a white dove, an animal that symbolizes freedom and peace, and can be associated to spirituality.. and I never once thought that I could literally be an angel

I can't wait to go home to my people and rest in the light I've missed for so long. To feel their presence like a memory I've been aching to remember. I don't belong here forever; one day I'll go back, and this time, I’ll be known.

And ummmm I realized it's past midnight here so fibromyalgia awareness month starts today👀 kinda cool ngl

a fellow chronically ill angel… i hope you have had a lovely day

Sending u warmth and love <33 we've got to have each other's backs !!

One thing about me is that, almost as soon as I realized I was an angel, I felt incredibly detached from my mortal vessel - and I began mentally separating myself from it completely, but most of all, it made my childhood memories "blurry". Because this body isn't mine, I barely view my kid self as "me", because hy was so unaware of hys divinity. He and I are not the same.

On one hand, my childhood is the only thing I enjoyed about humanity and I wish I could still live as a mortal without feeling so out of place. But on the other hand, I do not want to be ignorant about my real nature (like i was back then) and all I feel towards my younger self is a need to protect him.

This post. Exactly this post

sometimes, being an angel is seeing the most gorgeous, gut wrenching, heavenly sunrise in the parking lot of your retail job and being drenched in the homesickness of it all.

and then having to go clock in like that didn’t just happen.