I Think Ultimately You Become Whoever Would Have Saved You The Time No One Did

Just a reminder to all the people self sabotaging themselves

Growing up is actually all about realizing people don’t inherently dislike you and it’s a bit odd to assume they do

I won't.....I would keep this to myself and pretend it is normal because honestly at this point it is normal for me to not tell anything to anyone. I try and share so minuscule things of my everyday life to my friends to make sure that I never share the actual important stuff of my life to them. i always feel there's a wall separating them from me because their parents are so lenient whereas my parents are very strict.

How do I explain this desire to no longer explain anything to anyone?

I just had my retest today and I would like to thank God , because I passed my retest. Thank you so much god for listening to me. I promise this session I am gonna aim for 96%. I am going to study consistently everyday. I am going to prove it to myself that I can do it. All the mistakes I made in 11th, I'm gonna correct them now. I would just like to retell myself that it's never too late to correct your mistakes or it's ever too late to start studying. You can do it. All the best

(And yes, I'll keep updating..)

I try to be the person with low requirements cuz I genuinely feel that's my only plus point but it's sad when you realise your "friends" take advantage of it

I do this thing where I want to talk to someone but i don't know what to say or how to start the talk......It's not anxiety or shyness or overthinking.....It's just lack of content in my case

Not to get too deep on my first post but did anyone else have such deeply rooted issues with their self worth for so long that they thought as a teen that their only redeeming feature was being "low maintenance" and now you give yourself guilt pangs asking for any more than the barest minimum in virtually any relationship because asking for things might negate your good quality which is" doesn't ask for things"

why does my mother always make me feel guilty about wanting to eat something sweet after my meal. and it's not as if I'm demanding a desert. I literally just want one bite of something sweet and she just rants out when i try to eat a few raisins or like a piece of mango or watermelon or maybe just one biscuit.

I have always seen videos and blogs and numerous articles telling you how you can achieve your best self with highest potential. And many people want to achieve their highest potential....many people work towards it but I've never heard people saying that they want to be their favourite self. Where they achieve their true goals something they truly wanted to do since childhood . Something that just makes them happy instead of joining the rat race and seeing where they want to make more money and just become whatever they want to be as a kid . I know this sounds so naive and tbh this is naive but rn I wish that I become successful so that my little brother could depend on me and without any fear of expectation from other . I wish he could pursue his childhood dream because whenever I see his passion and the pretty smile on his face when he talks about it I just want to make sure that no matter what happens he is able to acheive his childhood dream. I don't have a passion and yes I'm going to run after money but I want to do it for him so that instead of joining the rat race he can fulfill his passion and become his favourite self.

Be scared and do it anyway. Be unqualified and get in the room anyway. Be messy, imperfect and unsure and still show up anyway. Comfort is the enemy of growth. Get uncomfortable

Who the fuck are you? I literally eat so freaking less like you always complain to me and the everyone. So if once in a while I ask you to make something else for me and it's not difficult at all it's easy and simple. You remind of the fact that I don't get good grades . You fucking bitch if I knew I needed good grades to eat food you should have told me . You freaking psycho. I hate you and the only reason I'll study is to go away from you. I am not happy with you as parent and honestly I do wish someone else someone with a better mindset to be my parent.....I suppose my dad makes up for it ....I respect him but never you........never you because everything you have done just makes me hate you even more. It's always you who always makes me cry and honestly if you think that your only threat which is papa ko bta dungi then theek hai bitch bta do.....I respect him but honestly at this I get scolded by you so much that it has made me numb yo it toh theek kha lungi mai unseen nhi daant tujhse toh vaise bhi kya hi rho hoon. Aur teri awaaj I freaking the fucking tone you always speak in. If you can never understand me then atleast dont fuck up my mental peace and mindset by your fucking stupid and "dump" views.