Me : " Maybe I Don't Really Struggle With Executive Function... Cause For Some Reason I Can Do Things

ok funny shit lmao. 5 months has passed. And throughout those months I feel dread because I feel time passing by so quickly. I see 5 months to be such a short time, I know how fast it'll end, and it feels like we are going to get there soon. And i was right. I blinked and boom out of nowhere it's one month left until college exam.

Now guess what. Today is already the end of march. Somehow for the last maybe 2 weeks i feel time going very very slowly and my anxiety just kinda subside for a moment? It really feels like I have SO much time. And no anxiety just gives me like.. just chill vibe as if there is nothing to worry about?? And if you think this is the right time finally start studying bitch no, thats not gonna work. I cant study a 3 years worth of studies in couple of days. Nobody can. So anyway I know the day is getting nearer if I make myself look at the date and it gives back the fear but it just somehow doesn't feel like it? And I didn't know that i wrote this 5 months ago, it really felt like i wrote this like some weeks ago? so what the fuck is time really? I wish this was just because of quarantine side effects but it is not. And I really love staying at my house and going nowhere for the whole year. I can see a very unhealthy lifestyle if i don't end up living in a small village on the mountain, where every morning it will get foggy. Yeah.

Anyway if anyone is wondering, no i have not study, not even a bit. Because it requires a lot of mental energy and the whole time i was trying to gather it and then there's also executive dysfunction so yeah. It just immobilized me. I think my parents just going to hate me more.

I want to learn but i also can't imagine going to college. I'm so not ready and incredibly unprepared. I i wish i can just perish

can anyone with adhd give me tips how to study? i have not been diagnosed but im pretty sure i have it. Everything make so much sense to such great level after learning what adhd is. I’m taking a gap year and in 5 months i’ll be taking a college entrance exam, and i have completely forgotten everything, i don’t  think i remember how to do any math too. I honestly would love to take another break but  i dont want to get the same reaction from my family for my choice.  i certainly don’t understand why learning should be rushed, like i could see some points to it but it’s still stupid. so back to point one can anyone give suggestions?  i have only five months left and no i have not study at all for the past 8 months ive been doing nothing but crochet even when i dont want to do it >:(  Edit : k i could be just extremely lazy and have no adhd but i feel like anyone who have this condition is the right person to ask since you are the Queens, Kings and the Alphas that could give me answer to the question that im seeking. i should learn from the true masters. and if you have the answer but explaining stuff is hard for you. thank you for reading i guess. ily

have me as a guest on your podcast. im not an expert in anything. i dont work in an interesting industry. i have very few skills. i don’t have anything i want to talk about. my voice is weak and i can’t project it well. im not funny. im the perfect guest for your podcast.

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I've been thinking a lot about Deen and my heart ache .. He died by an accident from the hands of the person that once was his ally. His sister might marry and fall in love to the same man that killed him. He never tasted magic.. didn't get to see the rise of Arawiya.. or travel the world, he could never have more, he did everything yet what did he get?

Death. Eaten by Sharr, no grave, no burial.

And even after his death life still made a mockery out of him.

Zafira married the very person Deen swears to protect her from the very start of their journey, when DEEN'S proposal was rejected because she never loved him like he does for her and he knew. Yet he kept that love and loved the love itself instead of pushing it away. He yearned for her that much. He loved her. Cared for her until his very last breath. He gave her his heart even when he knew her heart will never be his. He will never get to be loved the way he wished to be loved, the way Zafira loves Nasir.

LIKE WHATS MORE PAINFUL BUT TO SEE THAT THE ' LIFE ' OF THE VERY PERSON WHO TRIES EVERYTHING, GAVE EVERYTHING AND DID EVERYTHING WITH THEIR VERY HEART AND SOUL TO RECIEVE NOTHING EVEN IF HE WASN'T TRYING TO GET ANYTHING BACK.

ITS JUST-

AGH

Yaa Dean, you are not real. But you have our hearts, and many are willing to give it even if you ask it for a thousand and one time

。：゜(；´∩｀；)゜：。

backpain my beloathed, my arch nemesis, my academic rival go away

#whitewomantears

My doctor and therapist: now with this autism + ADHD diagnosis you need to learn to unmask because masking all the time will make you burn out again and feel like shit

Other people: well it's just interesting how after getting the diagnosis you suddenly start behaving like that I mean I'm not saying you're faking it's just funny how you suddenly cannot be normal like you were before

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it's been about three months since I sleep with bedsheet on because my room is not fully clean yet and in my head it just goes ' can't put on clean sheet incase the time when I start cleaning again happen, then I must change sheet again because of the dust flying in my room. everything must be perfect. no sheet until room clean '

like that train of thought is fucking wack but man don't i agree with it

ADHD be like: I need to do do this task before I go to bed. therefore I’ll stay up all night on my phone because I have no motivation to do the thing but I can’t go to bed unless I do it.