The chapters on We Free The Stars is Zafira and Nasir having the LOVLIEST AND SOFTEST interaction and the next is Altair having an absolute crisis, being doubt's whore, and just feeling absolutely and utterly lonely. thats it. rinse repeat. i love the cycle- LIKE ITS SO FUCKING FUNNY SEEING THE DIFFERENCE ON EACH CHAPTER LIKE YAA. THIS MAN IS MISERABLE !! THE OTHERS BE HAVING THE ABSOLUTE BEST TIME OF THEIR LIVES TAKING NAPS, BEING NAUGHTY AND SHIT IN A PALACE WHILE ALTAIR CRIED WITH HIS PRISON RAT ALL ALONE IN THE DARK-
So here's an analogy ( Spoiler alert if you haven't seen heavens arena arc )
Know how Gon and Killua can't pass the corridor when they reached the 200th floor because Hisoka stop them from crossing? When Hisoka caught them with his nen, the boys knew that they needed to move away. They desperately want to move away, they even thought that if they stay any much longer they were sure they would die. But no matter how much they tried, they can't. They're just stuck there, unable to do anything except to just wait until it's all over.
And that's how executive dysfunction feels. It's exactly like that.
No matter how much you want to do something, whether its a fun activity, maybe a hobby or a very important thing that you have to get done you just cant. Your brain decided to stop you from doing anything and it fucking sucks. You're just stuck in silence and you're forced to wait until its over. Executive dysfunction is clearly not about having no will power or not enough motivation. Just like how Killua and Gon desperately wanted to get away from Hisoka but they can't, because they're stuck. It's like that.
I have more than one tumblr account incase if i say shit its gonna be something that everyone hates and i don't want someone to think that i'm a bad person justsbecause someone on the internet disagreed with me about an anime but i mostly get neutral responses and honestly i'm mad i aint getting clout on main :/
I'm trying to find out what it is but I have no idea how to word it out, so I was wondering if other adhd folks feel this sensation in your brain PYSICALLY on some days, it's not painful or anything it just felt different. Like your brain is being held differently by your body.
And you can tell from this through your senses somehow that this means you can work. You can do anything you put your mind into, and you can do it, and you don't have to deal with executive dysfunction shit like it never existed! And it felt good. it felt god damn good.
So yeah my question is what the hell is it I want to know more about it!!
I just learned a thing called self inserted character, and turns out that is what I have been doing almost whenever I'm obsessed with a story and I am so excited that that is a thing and it means I have a way to work on it holy crap, and that this little imagination of mine is okay, like I'm allowed to do that. aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh
alex hirsch going rogue… king shit
sometimes the executive function fairy godmother finally shows up, whacks you, and then you’ve got to run around like cinderella on a midnight deadline trying to get things done before time runs out and your brain makes it illegal again