RAHHHH

anybody else in the club feeling this one

THIS IS MY FAVORITE THING EVER EVER AND YALL ALL HAVE TO GO WATCH IT AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Finished this risukawa amv and posted it on YouTube !! Check it out there plz for the full version!

bffs !

在想🥟的事情

obviously this is a joke bc canon is a sandbox and everyone is free to interpret it as they will

HOWEVER

i refuse to believe that these scenes are unrelated

~Spoilers ahead~

It could possibly be that he doesn't care about his face anymore because he knows about his past now, except...

This is after all the stuff about Ai and Aikawa is revealed. he knows who he was in the past, he just doesn't remember yet.

it's only after he gets Ai, Aikawa, and Kai's memories that he's like, yeah, I don't need my face fixed. up until then he's still pretty adamant about getting his face back, even though he knows who he used to be

if it was just about knowing who he was in the past and accepting who he is in the present, i think there would more of an indication that he's okay with keeping the lizard face even before he gets the others' memories

Kaiman suddenly being okay with keeping his face doesn't feel like acceptance to me, but avoidance. It seems to me more like he's trying to keep some degree of separation between himself and Kai, or even between himself and Hole, since Kaiman was the one that was influenced the least by Hole. Keeping his face is a measure of control and distance between him and the stuff he does n o t want to deal with. bc lets be honest, there's no way Kai's memories aren't traumatizing as hell. we saw how Aikawa reacted (straight up just avoided dealing with it for as long as possible) there's no reason to think Kaiman wouldn't react in a similar way. keeping his face is a great way to maintain that separation and avoid dealing with the fallout of Kai's actions

Anyway, thanks for coming to my TED Talk

You all, fools: Kaiman keeping his face at the end of Dorohedoro is him accepting who he is!

Me, an intellectual: This is avoidance coping. This man has accepted nothing about himself, ever.

THEM!!!

:D working on another mini amv about Ai and kasukabe

mood

Dorohedoro Headcanons

[Since Tumblr is janky I'm making stuff that was under a readmore and making separate posts]

Kaiman

Keeps a jar of his shed teeth

Owns his house, probably killed the land lord and good for him

Does eventually find a therapist. It’s pretty damn helpful. 10/10 would recommend to his friends.

Having headaches becomes a serious trigger for him. He does try working on it.

Is aware that he should probably talk to his grandpa and Dokuga and Tetsujo but like… no. He’s not ready for serious talks with family. (Are the Crosseye elites family? Kinda? He/Kai did take care of them for awhile?)

100% doesn’t know what the fuck he actually is anymore and neither does anyone else.

Doesn’t actually excrete, all bodily waste joins the sludge. Managed to accidentally give off the illusion of being a normal person b/c he regularly goes to the bathroom to wash his hands, brush his teeth, and shower.

Is aware that the Hole entity continues to exist but is also aware that it probably won’t be strong enough to start shit again for a few millennia. And since all the people he gives a fuck about probably won’t live that long he is unbothered by that fact, the sorcerers will reap what they sow.

Also bad at foresight

Doesn’t want to die but believes anyone wanting revenge on him for Kai’s bullshit is perfectly valid.

Took an apology gift basket to Tanba’s restaurant.

Has referred to Shin as a manlet once, nearly died but it was worth it

Definitely gonna get fat when he hits his 40s/50s but he is a-ok with that

Tends to feel self conscious about his age when people remind him that he’s actually nearly thirty.

Legitimately tripped over Kawajiri once b/c he didn’t see his short ass

Has eaten at least one of his sheds out of curiosity. Tasted like dirt.

Once saw Ebisu use her magic and was kinda disappointed that he didn’t get a tail. Not that he wants a tail but like a tail would be useful.

Thinks Kikurage is ugly as sin

Does not understand why people think he and Nikaido are dating.

Does not care for Thirteen. Feels that Thirteen does not drink enough respecting women juice

He and Nikaido disagree on economics

Thinks cannibalism is gross as hell. Would be offended at the insinuation that he eats people. (Even if he did eat people when he was Kai/Hole-kun)

Before he started regaining his memories he was vaguely aware that he probably wasn’t a good person

Since learning how to make gyoza he’s branched out into learning how to make other kinds of dumplings.

The gyoza fairy low key freaks him out.

The gyoza fairy is not the only human world magical/spirit being he ends up meeting

When Natsuki, Ton, Saji, and Ushishimada got resurrected they all gave at least one go at kicking his ass. Just on principal. Then they, and Dokuga and Tetsujo, worked together with Nikaido and Risu to make Kaiman take a family photo with them.

Go on man, ask her out! She seems very nice!