Can We As A Fandom Pls Address This Man's Mental Health - Blog Posts

obviously this is a joke bc canon is a sandbox and everyone is free to interpret it as they will

HOWEVER

i refuse to believe that these scenes are unrelated

~Spoilers ahead~

It could possibly be that he doesn't care about his face anymore because he knows about his past now, except...

This is after all the stuff about Ai and Aikawa is revealed. he knows who he was in the past, he just doesn't remember yet.

it's only after he gets Ai, Aikawa, and Kai's memories that he's like, yeah, I don't need my face fixed. up until then he's still pretty adamant about getting his face back, even though he knows who he used to be

if it was just about knowing who he was in the past and accepting who he is in the present, i think there would more of an indication that he's okay with keeping the lizard face even before he gets the others' memories

Kaiman suddenly being okay with keeping his face doesn't feel like acceptance to me, but avoidance. It seems to me more like he's trying to keep some degree of separation between himself and Kai, or even between himself and Hole, since Kaiman was the one that was influenced the least by Hole. Keeping his face is a measure of control and distance between him and the stuff he does n o t want to deal with. bc lets be honest, there's no way Kai's memories aren't traumatizing as hell. we saw how Aikawa reacted (straight up just avoided dealing with it for as long as possible) there's no reason to think Kaiman wouldn't react in a similar way. keeping his face is a great way to maintain that separation and avoid dealing with the fallout of Kai's actions

Anyway, thanks for coming to my TED Talk

You all, fools: Kaiman keeping his face at the end of Dorohedoro is him accepting who he is!

Me, an intellectual: This is avoidance coping. This man has accepted nothing about himself, ever.