Anybody Else In The Club Feeling This One

you know theres something about being a kid and not having many friends and constantly feeling stuck. like you know you’re meant for so much more but you just can’t reach it. you don’t want to die but theres nothing to live for and your life doesn’t matter in the grand scheme of things and you just want something to change. 

and theres something about having a face and a name that belongs to you but isn’t yours. and you dont feel real most days even though you’re living the life you wanted. there’s violence in your veins that scares you and a hunger for something that you can taste but never quite see. and every day you’re drowning, drowning and praying for someone to throw you a rope you’re not even sure you’d take.

And then all of a sudden you’re surrounded by people who love you and know you and you can finally breathe. and on the bad days they bring you food and sing silly songs and remind you that you’re real and you matter. you get obsessed over stupid shit and you live day by day because you can’t survive any other way, but your friends listen to you ramble and support you. you’re everything you thought you could be and nothing like you imagined and you’re sense of self is still so fragile but thats okay. you have good food and good friends and  that’s enough to live for.

anyway, Dorohedoro is my favorite manga, can you tell?

Why are they so hard to draw what the hell

also what the Fuck is photo quality

How am I only just learning this!?

High-key agree that people come by to whoop Kaiman's ass for the shit Kai pulled (Understandable tbh)

Crosseyes headcanons (with special guests)

Kaiman

- Finds out that Dr. Kasukabe is working with the Crosseyes and just kinda screams for awhile

- There was a serious debate on if Kaiman counted as a Crosseye. Kai was (Kai was officially demoted for killing comrades without good reason and also cannibalizing a comrade without consent) and Kaiman is kinda Kai, But Kaiman’s also kinda Aikawa who definately was not a Crosseye even if he was partners with Risu. Also debates as to if Hole-kun was their real boss and Kai/Kaiman/Aikawa was just his ride?

- Kaiman personally does not identify as a Crosseye. That does not stop him from somehow getting dragged into Crosseye bullshit.

- Gets roped into a weeks worth of knife fights b/c the Crosseyes wanted revenge for the bullshit Kai did to them/put them through. (a lot of people get in on this action, not just Crosseyes. Tetsujo invites Fujita who does stab the shit out of Kaiman for his late homie Matsumura. Tanba and Kirion tag team and WWE Kaiman’s ass.) It’s not a good time but also not a bad time, people are working out their issues.

Are fedoras really that bad?

YES YES THEY ARE

I may have started playing the lamb game and I may be slightly obsessed….

I have many Thoughts(tm)

it’s fun being a fic writer in a small fandom bc every time I get kudos and comments it’s like “Oh I know you! Hello again, thanks for coming back! :D”

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I hate him /aff

Kai :P