I Constantly Have To Remind My FCK!NG BRAIN That NO 1500 IS NOT OVER3@T!NG !!! It’s LITERALLY The Bare

Don’t get me wrong, I DESPISE having my p3r!od BUT the post m3nstruat!on effect on my bødy and mindset is just the best feeling ever

The anaesthetic part doesn’t work anymore.. I feel a bit to much for my own good and it is insufferable Maybe if I ⭐️ a little bit more I can numb my emotions and be completely detached again

ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE ✨

I didn’t take pictures but ate around 2000 I think

M3@b@b dayyyyy!! Finally!

I feel sooo heavy tho😭

I was at DAY 3 but quick resume of the first 2 days :)

(I count/measure everything in c@l, kg and cm)

DAY 1

Height:150cm - CW:56 - GW:47 - UGW:40.

Expectations: GW before returning home in 1 month and a half, loosing my p3r!ods, waist at 60 (at least)

DAY 2

Papaya, sambal, coffee, protein (lowc), sweet treats (lowc)

DAY 3

I don't think I have one but getting obsessed and having a goal makes me forget about my other problems or they'll have less impact on me. Basically it's like treating 4n@! as a coping mechanisms and numbing all the other feelings that are "unnecessary"... Note: I'm just a coward that avoids her problems instead of facing them Imao (it's working tho)

It’s pilates day !!! 💃💃 (I’m gonna ð!3 lmao)

DAY 28

Right now I’m just restr!ct!ng and sometimes f@sting when I feel like it I didn’t change my sport routine since it was already settled and I like it as it is

But I used to do a little bit of everything.. I was stuck in the cycle of ⭐️ing, over exercising, b!ng!ng, purg!ng again and again and again until last year Or maybe it was 2 years ago?? I don’t remember, my notion of time is kinda messed up lol A little mix of b3d and m!@.. lovely

ON TODAY FØØD EPISODE 🦎

Breakfast~ 1 ice Americano Lunch~ Salmon wrap Snack~ 1 ice tea + 1 ice Americano + 2 lowc@l lychee candy Dinner~ Japanese Soba salad and 2 pcs of tofu filled with meat + 1 serving of shirataki + 2 apples and 1 matcha ice cream

Total:~ 1200

Love the people around me, they gave those 2 pcs of tofu out of nowhere, it was delicious 🌺They are so nice <333

I almost fck up my day with a craving but I found apples and lowc@l ice cream so it’s okay I’m at my limit tho

Sh!t I’m constipated

ANYWAY GOOD DAY EVERYONE 🎀

Kinda proving me that I’m not 3@ting enough for my bødy to let go of any c@l I give him hehe

ON TODAY FØØD EPISODE 🐰

Breakfast~ 1 ice Americano + 1 fruity protein bowl Lunch~ 1 spicy sausage + 2 ice Americano + 1 unflavoured kombucha Snack~ 1 ice Americano + 1 apple Dinner~ 1 soto ayam and tofu + Greek yogurt with kimchi and 1 egg + Greek yogurt with tofu and grape

Total:~ 1100-1200

Lots of protein there lmao

ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE

+2 ice Americano of course + 2 l0wc@l lychee candy

Lunch: toasted bread with eggs and a salad with dragon fruit

Diner: 2pcs of tofu, 1 eggs, beansprout, 2 teaspoon of sambal, kimchi and rice + 2pcs of tempeh, cucumber, papaya + 1 bag of dry seaweed + 1 cup of green tea

Total≈ 1300

LETSGOOOOO 💃💃