i love you systems who call your alters "headmates"
i love you systems who call your alters "voices"
i love you systems who call your alters swears
i love you systems who call your alters things that are silly, weird, or normal
dont let anyone tell you what to call them <3
saying "who said that" at the end of a sentence is a lot funnier when you're plural. who DID say that
SHRODINGER CHAT
Storytime:
Ok so I find this funny, as a person who constantly is talking to themselves I’m always worried people think I’m crazy-
Here’s what I’m actually doing…
Talking to the friends in my head
Vocal stims
Singing to a song in and out of my headphones
Processing my thoughts out loud
and more!
Don’t be afraid or worried if you see someone like me talking to themselves, everyone does it at some point right???
Ever just see somebody talking to themselves in public?
Wonder what's going on in there?
Mumbling? Tics? Reciting lines? Thinking of a memory?
Or on the other side.
Talking to headmates? Alters? Imaginary friends?
You'll never know.
I like to call this phenomenon
Schrödinger's Chat
Types of dissociation
You feel like the present moment is a memory you're recalling
You feel like the "real you" is a fictional character and you are someone else having some kind of delusion that you're them
Your body is a car that someone you feel safe with is driving while you're in the passenger seat getting sleepy from the streetlights
Your body is a car that someone who puts you on edge is driving very very badly
You experienced an emotion so intensely it overloaded and short-circuited your brain into failsafe shutdown mode
You got so dizzy that you fell over and fell through the floor and now you're in the mirror world
You feel like every next movement you make is going to be the one that clips you into the Backrooms
You feel like every slight decision you make is going to be the one that traps you in the timeloop
You're dissolving into the air around you like a vapor
You're trapped underwater in a cave and no one above can hear your mortal panic
You're lines of code watching the real world through a screen
You feel like you'd relate to a Radiohead song
You feel like the present moment is currently being written by Kurt Vonnegut
The curséd amulet
Trapped in a painting
Animal with its leg stuck in a trap mode
no we are not "privilege" for having trauma. It's fucking crippling we can't go anywhere with alcohol without having a ptsd attack. We can't handle being touched, we can't handle being screamed at or left!! It's fucking us over and we also have to deal with being a fuckijg system!!
Which, no, it is not fun to be a system. If you call systems "traumascum" or "syscum" your ableist plain and simple!!
(Btw plural isn't a endo only term dumbasses think of that before you make a "call out" post abt us lmao)
who can relate
it's kinda terrifying when the kiddo in the headspace, who has never fronted before, tries to front while we're out and about.
buddy, please, we have THINGS TO DO
he has not tried to front since, at least that I know of
being a system is odd because every friendship you make feels like a fan make cross over episode
This has to be fake-I MEAN NO WAY MY ENTIRE LIFE HAS BEEN THIS WAY WHAT?!
It’s gotten bad
For us:
My Organs(inside joke: My brain, heart and Gut for the original three)
The alterhumans(all of us are)
Minecraft gang(idk what this is)
Things to call your headmates that arent BASIC
Trenchcoat rats
Trauma responses (dont mind me just talking to my trauma responses)
Brain worms
Chat
The entrapped souls of my enemies
Plural pookies
System sillies
Puzzle pieces
ADD MORE PLS!!!