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The Fan Experience

Fakegirl Detrans Kink Transformation Story

Warnings: Sexual Content, MTFTM Detrans, Transformation, Identity Death, Misoygyny

You’re realllly pretty, and you know it. Everyone else knows it too. It’s not easy to be adored my thousands of viewers every time you go live, but you manage. Your winged eyeliner, all that blush, a little heart under your eye, you’re an egirl stereotype, but it looks great on you. You’re cute, you’re beautiful, you’re everyone’s girl.

You stare down the camera and catch a glance of yourself on stream. Totally on point, you’re nailing it today. Something deep inside you stirs… you’re *really* hot. To other people obviously. A little confidence never hurt anybody.

It feels good to feel this good about yourself. 7 years ago you were a boy, as silly as that sounds. That’s private information, only your closest friends explicitly know you’re trans, but of course it’s an open secret among your viewers. It’s hard to keep something like that toootally under wraps, ya know?

You just want to feel pretty, so you can stare at yourself, so other people can stare at you, and that’s what you’re doing.

Something is wrong.

You’re really only half aware of it. Here and there the you in your stream does something *slightly* different. She makes a different gesture, she uses slightly different verbiage, she’s not quite you.

She’s hot.

You’ve always been aware of it of course, how pretty you are. People tell you all the time. This is different. This is arousal. Attraction to a distinct person, to the you on the stream.

You hardly notice when your camera turns off.

You feel much more alone now, clearly in private, and extremely aroused, so you do the most logical thing. You whip it out and start jacking off. All your pretty makeup has been absorbed into your skin, making your face greasy and rough. Your hair starts falls out in clumps, leaving you with short, balding hair.

You don’t care, you’re focused on your favorite streamer.

Your body rapidly becomes completely unrecognizable, as you become an anonymous viewer instead of the main event. You’re misshapen and asymmetrical. Decidedly not pretty. Decidedly not a girl. Just an unremarkable man jacking off to a pretty girl.

You’re too horny to notice, in a deep haze of indifference, but god she’s so hot, and you’re so close, you just need her to say your name. You donate the most you can afford, $20, and she mentions you! It’s enough to feel every cell in your body explode in ecstasy as you coat her pixel perfect face in ropes of cum.

Something clicks.

She’s not even your favorite. There’s chicks on here way hotter than her.

She’s not really that bangable, and you know it.

ANYONE WHO CALLS ME MALE TODAY, OR EVEN AMAB, I WILL REMOVE YOUR SKIN ONE SQUARE CENTIMETER AT A TIME.

I AM NOT LIKE YOU.

I AM BETTER.

I AM A REAL GIRL.

I AM A GOD.

Have you told anyone in your life you're a guy again?

I have not really. At most I’ve told a few friends I’m questioning if I may be gender fluid.

Maybe I’m gender fluid or something idk, but really I want to be binary one way or the other, permanently.

would you recommend detransitioning to other trans "girls"?

hmmm it depends. I think it would probably be good for a lot of them. I have three answers to this.

trans rights answer: chances are this kink is a complicated psychological response to insecurities you have about your gender and you should try to pick them apart and figure out what you really wanna do if you pull back the curtains of trauma and insecurity and such. There’s a chance maybe you should actually detransition! Gender is something that can change over time and maybe you used to be a trans girl and that is no longer the case. People evolve and it’s okay to decide being a girl is no longer for you.

internalized transphobia answer: You will never be a cis girl, and is being a “trans” girl even worth it? Either you don’t pass and like, okay ew, what are you doing thinking you can be a real girl?? Just be a guy. OR you pass and are pretty and stealth which like okay cutie you get to cosplay as a cis girl but how long is that really gonna last?

bioessentialist answer: i know you’ve got the idea in your head that that it doesn’t matter that you’re biologically male and that you can identify however you want but like c’mon dude 💀 it’s a little cliche to just say XY = Male but let’s be real, your genetics having programming in them that build your body to a specific design and every action you take to realize your mental gender is working against the very nature of your physical destiny. It’s exhausting isn’t it? Just give into your DNA! It’d look good on you.

Also, how does it feels to wear boxers after so long being used to panties? Do you feel your body is thanking you?

They’re a lot more comfortable actually! I shouldn’t be surprised, they’re meant for my anatomy.

You should be edged until you admit that you're a worthless girl like all the others. You squirm like a girl, you moan like a girl. I bet you look even more like one in panties, too. Just admit it. You want to be a big-titted bimbo that gets her stupid, soft cock milked until your legs shake.

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I don’t think I’m submissive enough for that. Ask me again 1 year from now when I’ve had bottom surgery.

I should be honest I’m starting to question how realistic it is for me to follow through on my detrans notes game, at least at the moment. I’m getting some doubts about all this. Knowing how this has gone for me in the past those doubts will probably go away again at some point but I definitely am not willing to change my pronouns to he/him on my public socials at the moment so that probably says something about how I feel about this. Regarding the no shaving one… I would feel bad not following through on that when so many people wanted me to. I will either keep not shaving until it becomes impractical and I need to shave, or I will escape my delusions of femininity and actually never shave again idk, we’ll see.

something I'm absolutely fucking weak for is when dudes gain weight and in the process manage to look like 10 or 15 years older, like unnnnnnnghnf perfection, not that I don't love actual daddies but like there's an incredible allure to a guy who's pursuit of pleasure completely obliterated any chance he had of looking young and pretty🤤🤤

wouldn’t be shocked if I become one of those detrans kink blogs that posts hot girls more than detrans content. She just has me drooling 🤤

have you seen my boyfriend? 👀