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New headcanon iTrapped has alexithymia, often described as feeling 'cold' to emotions :) get it because. Ice .

Because he struggle(d) to identify how to feel about Chance, attributing any feeling as hatred and disdain when he probably had no idea what those even felt like and was only guessing that's what he felt because it "sounded right". But in reality it was jealousy, longing, insecurity, admiration, regret. So much regret. But how could he have known? He could barely feel with how the ice had numbed him.

If he were to get Forsakened, maybe the Spectre would make it so iTrapped is incapable of feeling anything but permanent frost chill. But being around Chance turns it into a sensation like freeze-burn, finally making him feel something other than cold, but its such a new feeling that he simply can not handle the overstimulation- still incapable of describing his emotions.

The Spectre punishing iTrapped for his inability to understand how he felt about Chance back then, now being constantly on the opposite end, where Chance is nothing BUT feeling. Maybe it would be a way of the Spectre making iTrapped finally understand how he truly felt back then, mocking him for how he took that coldness in stride and never tried to melt it, and now it's too late.

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[edit - fixed the colors + some shading. haha whoops]