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LOOK WHAT CAME IN THE MAIL TODAY💗 my banana fish ash×eiji is waaaay earlier than i though it would be and im sooo happy!

Sweeties💜💛💙

I finally did it, I finally drew Banana Fish fan art🥲

Omg imagine a banana fish Sweeney todd AU where Max is Benjamin barker, Ibe is Lovett, Jessica is the beggar woman, Ash is Johanna, Eiji is Anthony, Sing(or skip) is Toby, Dino is the judge, and Arthur is Beedle bamford😱

Tall Eiji supremacy

just occurred to me that if ash and eiji were really played by river phoenix and hironobu nomura, then eiji would be taller 😳

help why did this make me think of Ash lynx😂

nature is healing

And if I do not miss a part of you, A part of me is dead If I can't love you as a lover, I will love you as a friend Andria - La dispute

Me whenever anyone calls banana fish "Just a Yaoi"

more banana fish headcannons bc why not🍌🐟

Yut lung is obsessed with dress to impress, but he plays a lot of videogames overall. He spends most Saturdays playing COD with sing over call, telling song to "fucking kill yourself" when they both die. He also loves bullying children in VR chat!

Shorter didn't know how to swim until summer I'm Cape cod, and he almost drown. Several times.

As a kid ash was obsessed with cowboys and so Griffin made him a makeshift horsey out of a twig and an old sock.

Blanca does checks on Ash over the web every few years and whenever he reads an article about some crime he committed he reacts like a proud father.

Jessica loves Cher so much that she dresses up as her for holloween most years. She also absolutely loves Madonna and Lady Gaga. She would definitely be that one straight woman at a gay bar trying to be friends with all of the guys ( very annoying, but there's an endearing quality to her as well)

Ibe had been previously married, and divorced several times. He's a hopeless romantic and realizes that he's probably made a mistake when it's way too late. He also previously knew Eijis mom in highschool, but they were separated after college and just simply growing up. They weren't too close but were definitely friends.

Eijis little sister is four years younger that him, and she is obsessed with idols and wants to be one.

Ash is constantly cold, Eiji is constantly breaking a sweat.

Shorter often gets so immersed in things that he forgets to take care of his basic needs. Lucky for him, he has a wonderful friend who tells him "take a shower you smell like shit" when he forgets ( bet you can guess who)<3

Ashs favorite movie is Romeo + Juliet, Eijis is transformers, Shorters fast and the furious, sings is detective Pikachu, and yut lungs is white chicks.

Finished reading the banana fish manga, please remind me why I'm alive😭

"Greta Garbo without tits" huh, I totally see it.

rereading the banana fish manga now that I have physical copies, just got to the scene where Dino tells Ash he's gotta hire a good taxidermist for once Ash is dead🤢.

Well, that's enough being alive for tonight.

Ughhhhh I'm THIS close to writing a banana fish highschool AU with a slice of life flair AHHGHHTHHG

-I burned it all but im doing fine, 'Cause I'll never fade away, If I steal the fire from your city nights-

uh, help I just EXPLAINED THE ENTIRE PLOT OF BANANA FISH to my mom and now she wants to watch it HOW DO I SAVE HER?!!!

Eiji the professional photographer. Let's talk about it!

Though this might be obvious, Eiji's "journaling" is basically through photos. He seems to be the type to take in the moments, than write them down. Along the way, I think he's finding a bit of his place and new found interest in photography. I wonder about what kept Eiji going in that path even after Ash? We see him locking out Ash's photos away for a long time in Garden of Light. If he ever wrote down things still, that would be an interesting idea to take, considering they were always on the go. Probably written stuff during nights, as he looks at the photos he recently have taken.

There's probably him realizing that being an athlete may not be what he wanted in the long run, there's the injury I don't think he has gotten over with because he did took that hard and there wasn't much time to even heal from it from all the events that went down with Ash. Okay maybe he's gotten to terms with it somehow behind the scenes, since being in the USA gave his world a huge unexpected shift.

Going back, it feels like Eiji continued photography as a way to cope, to heal, but definitely with the passion along with it because even he can't even look at Ash's image for a long time. Yet the very image of him transpired a lot of things in him. But of course, I do think Eiji found his footing and desire through this art himself, his eyes always had a thing for things unseen, his eyes are dark of color yet the depth does exist in them. They always have.

Thank you, I wholeheartedly agree with this. Like you’ve said, Ash’s death to me speaks more to the tragedy of the abuse he suffered so young. It’s not about whether he deserved to die, it’s about whether he was able to live under the circumstances. And it’s unfair and horrible, but when you become as entwined in that kind of life as Ash was, there sometimes isn’t a way out.

Does that mean Ash deserved to die? Of course not. He deserved to heal, he deserved to be happy, he deserved the world after what he went through, especially when his heart remained pure in spite of everything. But as the OP put it, the abuse he suffered forced him into a life of crime, and that life of crime was not so easy to escape.

I still wish it would have ended differently, because I love Ash. The amount of pain he suffered in his short eighteen years of life is unfathomably horrific, and more than anything I wanted to see him happy. But I will not say that Yoshida’s decision to end the story that way was bad, or that it means she believes Ash deserved death. Ash’s death is not narratively insignificant in any way. Do I hate that it ends that way? Yes, with every fiber of my being, but the fact that I hate it so much, the fact that I shed so many tears over this fictional character, exposes the tragedy inherent in Ash’s story. The prolonged abuse that forced him towards gangs and the mafia is also what prevented him from leaving it behind. In that I find a powerful message about the resounding echoes of this kind of repeated, sickening violence.

When Ash dies, we are forced to confront the horrors of his life. Sure, it can be argued that all of Banana Fish forces us to do that, but when we receive the shock of his death, we immediately start creating a chain of events in our head to figure out how he ended up at that point. And through that process, we internalize the ways in which the violence done to him stretched beyond any single moment to touch every aspect of his life. That creates an endless, soul-rending stream of grief because we are left with a deep sense of injustice—he only ended up dying because his life was so irreversibly shaped by his trauma, and no one deserves that. No one deserves to have the ability to choose the course of their own life taken away, but that is the tragedy of Banana Fish. Ash lost that ability so young, and that is a very painful reality to face.

If anything, I would say the only one believing Ash deserved to die for the blood on his hands was Ash himself. I won’t go into detail about this because honestly, I’m not sure whether that was truly what was going through Ash’s head when he made the decision to go to the library. What we do know is that he did struggle with a lot of self-loathing. He often saw himself as a monster because of the people he had killed, the things he had done to survive, and so he could never see himself as Eiji did, or as we did through Yoshida’s story. The people who hurt Ash did so to the point that he believed he wasn’t worthy of healing, that he believed he was only hurting others by being around them, and that is once again an effect of that consistent abuse.

That is what saddens me the most about Ash’s death, that he might have believed he didn’t deserve better, when he did. But we all saw it—we all knew, from the very beginning, that Ash was a kind soul whose life was cruelly domineered by his abusers, and he did deserve to live and heal.

What people seem to constantly misunderstand about what Akimi Yoshida said regarding how Ash couldn't have just gotten away scot-free from his life of crime is that it ISN'T Yoshida saying Ash "deserved" to die. Yoshida frames Ash as a hero from beginning to end. He's shown to be a genuinely good and kind person, that goodness remarked upon again and again by multiple characters, and his death is seen as a tragedy. That should be enough to convince people that Yoshida didn't hate Ash or think he deserved to die. The fact she frames him in such a positive light shows she understands that Ash is a good person that was forced into doing terrible things for his own survival and the survival of others. So this insistence that she thought he deserved to die because she said in some fan-translated interview that he couldn't just walk away from his life of crime, or that there's a price to be paid for murder, is ridiculous. It relies on nothing but assumption about the character of the author.

It's also a problem in fandom, in general, where interviews with authors, in which they're often giving on the spot and half-baked answers to random questions without any prepreation, are given greater credence in interpreting the author's intent than the actual, published work itself. How about letting the work stand on its own and interpret it as is? I've seen so much hate lobbed at Yoshida for supposedly hating Ash or thinking he deserved to die, when the actual story itself does nothing but portray Ash as deeply sympathetic and tragic. Again, no one could read "Banana Fish" with any level of reading comprehension and come away with anything but the impression that Ash is the hero and a good person who's life and death was deeply unfair and unjust. That fact alone should override any answer Yoshida gave in any interview, especially when it's obvious how much Yoshida hates giving interviews and very obviously, intentionally gives half-assed answers that she doesn't put much thought into. It's clear from the work itself that Yoshida has a great love for Ash as a person and as a character. She based his design off of River Phoenix, her favorite actor, she shares her birthday with him, and again, the way she frames Ash and his actions is as that of a hero, from beginning to end. I don't know, maybe it's because she sees Ash as a hero herself?

Ash dying only demonstrates the point further about how child abuse ruined Ash's life. He was led into a life of crime because of the abuse he suffered, and the fact it was that life of crime that led to his eventual death, with it basically being a gang dispute that got him in the end, only further drives home the point of how devastating and ruinous child abuse is. Ash wasn't a criminal because he was a bad person, he was a criminal because the abuse he suffered drove him to become one, and then, eventually, that life of crime he'd been forced to lead came back on him in the form of Lao stabbing him, which is what I think Yoshida actually means when she says Ash couldn't just walk away from the life of crime he'd lived. That inability to walk away further demonstrates the tragedy of the abuse Ash suffered, because it shows how it forced him into doing things which eventually came back to haunt him, things which he couldn't "escape". Lao stabbing Ash was in consequence to his being a gang leader, and his being a gang leader was a result of the abuse he suffered. The two things are interconnected with one another. It's not about Ash deserving to die because of the lives he'd taken, it's about how the life Ash was forced to live as a result of his abuse eventually led to his death. That's where the whole notion of "you live by the sword, you die by the sword" comes from. It's not necessarily a moral condemnation of the person committing acts of violence, but an acknowledgement that violence begets violence. That violence is cyclical. But the fact of Ash's death as a result of his life of crime only further demonstrates the true devastation wrought by the abuse of children, and that's the ultimate point of "Banana Fish's" ending. It's meant to force us to face, through the tragedy of Ash's death, the tragedy of his life in turn.

do you think ash used to be religious and wished for a god to save him as a child. do you think realising nobody was coming to his rescue was his first experience with crushing loneliness. do you think that loneliness crawled into his skin and used his rotting body to start the fire of hatred. hatred for the monsters around him. hatred for a non-existent god and false promises. hatred for himself. do you think he wished so desperately for eiji to be saved that he was willing to put that hatred aside. that he was willing to accept the problem lay within him, that god did exist and he, aslan jade callenreese, was just unworthy of that god's benevolence, so it would be okay if he traded his life for eiji's.

I don't even know what my type is but imma do it anyway-

I would really appreciate ya'lls comments/thoughts because I'm confused myself..

asheiji agere headcanons TW: CSA, sa mention, impure regression, bed wetting, diapers, d1no mention, mvrder,

Ash is a trauma regressor and regresses from 0-3 so very small

Eiji is his primary CG and a great one at that

Ash didn't get a non-sexualized childhood so this is his chance to try

Eiji has a perfect gift of calming Ash down and getting him regressed

Ash has to wear diapers since he wets the bed a lot and it makes him feel smaller

Eiji has the little one sleep next to him when he has nightmares and comforts him

Ash loves cheese itz and grape juice as snacks

Eiji is such a great caregiver he helps Ash with all his infant needs

Ash gets nightmares about Dino hurting him again eiji kisses all the hurt away

Eiji has an easier time waking ash up but he still gets fussy

Ash calls Eiji more fem cg names like "mommy, mama, mama bear"

Eiji will put ash on his hip and not let anyone touch him not even ash's gang can't touch him

Ash likes more infant/baby nicknames like "bug, bugaboo, baby, baby boy,, puppy (not a pet regressor), honey, little one"

Ash regresses sometimes after fights and sometimes mvrder and FREAKS OUT eiji cant even calm him down its that bad

Eiji's specialty is forehead kisses and hand kisses

Eiji isn't a strict CG but has rules like no bad words, no talking bad about self, and behaving well. the basics

Ash is a very sleepy regressor and will nap on Eiji's shoulders, chest really anywhere he will sleep

i loved making this since i love BF and they deserved only happiness a cool fun fact about meee is I share a b-day with Ash Lynx and my secondary name is Aslan like his real name