January 2025 is kicking my ass.
I have a new job which is great. I'm behind on money which is not. My mother had an urgent medical scare which has left her impaired.
My meds were all jacked up for a bit so I'm waiting for my anxiety to even out.
I'm trying my best but it doesn't feel like it's nearly enough and I'm worried I'm not going to have a place to live.
It feels like every time things settle down they kick back off again.
So, I need help. I'm doing commissions, SFW, NSFW doesn't matter.
My shops (Gumroad and Cubebrush) are also going to be 50% off. For anything that requires a code the code will be HELPINGHANDS
Right now full price would be preferable but I'm willing to go as low as 50% off my current prices.
Here are examples of my work.
Current prices are listed in this journal below:
Icons - $15 each or $8 each
PngTuber - $50+ (Default is 2 frames) or $25+
Pixel Art and Animation - Starting price is anywhere from $5-25. This varies a lot based on size, animation etc.
Digital Sketches, Inks, Full Color Images - $50+ or $25+
Digital Paintings - $80+ or $50+ (Digital paintings take a lot of time and can be complicated which is why their default is not 50% off)
If you're interested in art, in donating, in helping in general? Email me at shrineheartcreations@gmail.com
Should I post the stupid memes I made about Nightmare Harem?
When you want to post about other fandoms but they're so much bigger and it's scary
i have no motivation whatsoever so PLEASE send me questions, asks or reqs from: -bullet train -ahs (murder house) -the first shadow -anna karenina (2012) -a couple of fruits (i miss them okay?) -stranger things -blade runner -i'm feeling quite gladiator today too....
PLEASE SEND REQUESTSSS!
I keep making new stupid savefiles on baldur's gate instead of finishing them π
I want to romance everyone equally π
Okay yeah I'm starting college in 9 days, I'm not mentally ready
The fifth part of my bullet train prequel focused on the twins! all other parts on my page <3
notes: thank you so much as always for the support! you all are so kind!!! unfortunately, a couple of fruits is slowly coming to the end within the next 1 or 2 chapters, in the following few days i will put up a poll asking if i should finish the story at the end of the trio as teenagers OR do a timeskip and focus on when they reunite as adults- i will put up more info nearer the time <333 also this chapter is utterly devastating so i do apologise profusely. also, i have done a doodle summary of this chapter from ashley's perspective so lmk if you wanna see thattt :D
TW: quite a bit of violence, alcohol mentions, very strong language, awful bullying, blood and injuries
as always a name reminder
tangerine-michael
lemom-toby
"Michael's fucking kissing rat girl!!!" The voice of one of the popular girls,screamed out, the sound shrill, ugly and carrying through the house and shutting everyone up, to be fair, it was quite big moment, no one had ever really seen Ashley out and about- except for working at the pub, and now she was with Michael Davies of all people.
"What?!- Oh my days he is!" Ted, the guy who was running the party, laughed when he saw the sight, fishing out a digital camera from his pocket and pointing it at them.
The pair had long since pulled away from the kiss, they had done when hearing the ear-piercing scream, so there was no overly humiliating photo taken, but only one of Ash looking utterly mortified and Michael looking like he wanted to die right then and there.
"You got a problem with that?!" Ash finally spoke up, yelling, it was the first time most of the people there had even heard the sound of her voice.
"She can speak!" The girl who had screamed earlier laughed, crossing her arms, her name was Mya, she wasn't great, with ratted up bleached blonde hair, and too much makeup, the two had been friends many years prior, back in primary school. "I thought you were like Helen Keller or something."
Michael didn't even look phased, as if he was expecting for a disagreement like this to occur, whilst Toby just looked severely displeased with both of them and sighed.
"That's rich, i thought you were a cave woman, with the whole barely any clothes, and hair teased to the sky thing you have going on." Ash retaliated, crossing her arms.
Mya scoffed and raised an eyebrow, stepping towards the other girl with an extended finger pointing at her, the plastic false nail just about touching her. "The only cave woman here is you, Ash, what's the benefits agreement that your mum is on again?"
"Shut the hell up." Ashley could feel her skin crawling from the stares of the other teenagers, she felt so stupid, being called out for what she couldn't afford, and suddenly wanted to go home, she didn't want people to know about the poor way in which she lived.
"Do you like rats so much because they live in your flat with you?" Mya laughed smugly, she loved how she was riling up Ashley, the rest of the room was silent, with a few stifled laughs from the others being the only source of noise.
Michael stood in horror, before Mya pulled him close to her, for which he looked at her with pure hatred in his eyes.
"You shouldn't even be here, no one wanted you to come, Mikey over here just felt pity that you have no mates, except the rat army of course- maybe you should go snog them instead, maybe they'd actually care hm?" Mya continued, after realizing Ashley was too distraught to respond to her windups, until she wasn't.
"I'll call the fucking rats and you'll get rabies and die!" Ashley yelled at Mya, she could hear her classmates laughing at her and it was driving her insane, she hated the attention; She stepped back, as if she was trying to teleport out of the awful situation.
Ted, who had previously been snickering in a corner with his arms crossed, lifted up his camera again, as the teenagers went on to laugh at her, he was just about to take a photo before Toby spoke up.
"Give it a bloody rest!" Toby yelled, adding to the shouts of the room, knocking the camera out of Ted's hand, which landed on the floor with a loud crack as it smashed. Shit.
"You prick! You fucking prick! You just broke my camera!" Ted exclaimed, shoving Toby back and away from him, that managed to snap Michael out of his astonished daze.
"Don't put your hands on my pissing brother you twat!" Michael shouted back, pushing forward against the forming crowd and Mya to punch Ted in the stomach, who narrowly dodged it and instantly kicked Michael in the shin, hard.
Michael winced slightly, before sending another punch flying at his face, Ted, and he didn't miss this time, the boy stumbling backwards into someone else.
"You arsehole-" Ted froze, his fingers going up to touch his bloodied nose and looked down at the red liquid, his gaze darkened, glaring at Michael before running at him, tackling him to the ground, trying his best to beat the skinny prick of a teenager into a pulp, going on to hit him over and over again, whilst he writhed and battled against him.
But Michael, who was sure there would be blue bruises on his face by morning, did eventually manage to hold his own, and grabbed one of the malibu bottles off the table, lifting it up and swinging it over Ted's head, causing it to smash in half, the spirit pouring over the floor as the glass cut open his head.
Suddenly, the screaming of the people had stopped, everyone was frozen in shock horror as Ted slowly went upright, blood dripping down from his scalp, no one knew what to do. Ted backed away from him, dizzy and disorientated as he fell onto a friend, the other attendees' eyes all darting around the room desperately, what Michael had done was very much illegal, and damaging too, however Ted could not go to A&E in the state he was in, he was far too intoxicated, whilst also being below the legal age for drinking.
"Oh my days- Oh my- Ted?!-" Mya gasped out, running over to the boy on the floor, an even tighter crowd formed around him as they tried to figure out what to do to help, and Toby realized this was probably time for them to leave.
"Come on-" Toby hissed at the pair, grabbing Ash and Michael by the arms, and pulling them out of the house, the other two eventually catching up to speed with the severity of the situation and followed his lead quickly.
"Did Michael just-?" Ashley gasped out as she ran, too shocked to say anything, it was too much, too awful, she didn't want to think about it, the imagine of Ted down on the floor, surrounded by a crown of dark red liquid dripping from his head.
"Yes- I did. Shit, I did..." Michael groaned and ran his hand over his face, he hadn't killed Ted, but he could've done easily, he didn't feel guilty about it, though, just scared to get caught and punished for what he had done to the guy.
"Three words describe our situation right now-" Ash rolled her eyes, running with the others away from the house, down the street, not to the boys' apartment straight away, just somewhere where they wouldn't be found.
"We are fucked." Toby chimed in, and Ash nodded, it was true, the trio was screwed over, they were going to get in serious trouble, one way or another.
Just as they were running, several black vans swerved and parked right in front of them, causing a barrier so they couldn't easily run that way, it was odd, and unexpected, but they didn't want to stay and see who was going to get out of those vans, so the three screamed when they almost got hit by them, before quickly changing directions and running down the street, caving and going to Ashley's place instead of just sprinting without a destination.
She fumbled with the keys, before pushing it open and practically pulling the boys inside with her, the three then moving to lean against the wall and regain their breath, panting heavily.
"What the hell?!-" Toby exclaimed, his eyes as wide as dinner plates.
"Who the fuck was that?!-" Michael gasped, making sure the door behind them was locked.
"Why did you almost kill Ted?!-" Ashley yelled, her voice cutting through the air like a knife, the tension rising instantly.
Michael groaned and ran his hand through his hair as he looked at her, taking her arm. "We need to talk, alone." He glanced back over at Toby before walking with Ashley into her bedroom.
(Nightmare Harem) how would they feel if MC was a goth
Funfact I had a goth/emo phase a few years ago and I would dress in full black during a heatwave. The HCs are more based on the physical appearance and less on the full subculture of being goth, but if you want me to make others don't hesitate to send another ask !
Disclaimer : I like to make my HCs as accurate as possible as the image I have of each character. Please keep in mind that I'm not the most familiar with some characters. Some of the characters will have a more positive reaction and others a more negative one. This is in no way meant to bring down or ridicule the goth subculture and goth people, on the contrary, I absolutely adore this subculture and I strongly encourage anyone who is into it to do what makes them happy !
Because fuck what other people think everyone deserves to be happy with who they are β‘
Some characters might be assholes at first, but they love and care for you all the same
At first he would probably tease you about it or even ask a bunch of offensives questions
He doesn't mean to sound rude, he's just a very blunt person
He wouldn't know shit about goth culture, he's too much of a himbo for that
Probably very impressed by your makeup skills
If you're down for it, hewould totally agree with trying the whole aesthetic out for a day or two !
Kaim said no
The type of guy who would do a pop-style dance and have the time of his life when you play your music
''Lucia it's a song about-''
''DOESN'T MEAN I CAN'T DANCE!''
Definitely told you at least once to try to wear some colors
If you wear chains or crosses he probably asks you why you're wearing ''dog chains'' or ''the jesus thingy''
Yeah he's kind of an asshole
Once you two get closer he becomes your biggest defender and will insult anyone who makes the comments he made before
At first it's only another reason for him to insult you
Not because he's against your tastes or anything like that. No it's only an ammunition for him to push you away
Someone solve this guy's brother-issues
Doesn't really care about the lack of colors in your wardrobe, he's much more appealed by the chains
They could get stuck everywhere
If you have any piercings he will actually find them cool and ask you when you got them
Doesn't mind your makeup and might even like it, but he won't ever wish to try it
He doesn't like to wear makeup, it gets itchy and smudges everywhere
He's a good critic and will tell you when it's not symmetrical
Not in a very subtle way though
I feel like he might have had a more alternative style when he was a teenager but Kaim stopped him from going fully emo/goth because he's technically royalty and the other nobles are very judgemental in Nightmare
So he might be a smidge jealous that you get to dress like you want and that you don't care about other people's opinions
Definitely knows a lot about the whole goth culture and has a few vinyls of goth music that he will lend you if he likes you enough
You two can talk shit about Lucia's lack of manners together !!
Doesn't care, he's too busy making evil plans
You could be a duck for all he cares and he wouldn't bat an eye at you
Well he might be a bit surprised, but in the end you're still an easily manipulable human.
At first he might give you passive-aggressive compliments or insults depending on weither or not he likes you
But once you two grow closer he's definitely helping you out for your makeup
"Hmm you should try another brand this is definitely going to smudge in the heat!"
"MC....Your eyeliner smudged"
A bit annoyed if you wear white powder or fondation since it gets EVERYWHERE
I don't care, this guy wears eyeshadow, his eyelids are green there's no fucking way he doesn't
Doesn't like the chains, he thinks they make too much noise when you walk around, but he will tolerate it if it makes you happy
Might buy you rings or jewelry that you look at when you two are wandering around town
Anyone who sends a single odd look in your direction gets their whole life burned to the ground over night
At first he's intimidated by you.
Not scared, afterall you're only a human! But when he sees you dress in all black with heavy makeup, tons of jewelry and belts...Well he's a bit overwhelmed
This man saw Levy's goth/emo phase and Levy was a real little shit during it...It's not against you
Probably one of the few characters that won't make any type of rude comments or questions about it, afterall he knows too well what's it like to be judged for who you are...
If he sees one of your chains or anything else with your outfit that is misplaced or that has gotten stuck in the manor's furniture, he will help you get unstuck
Somehow he gets even softer when he has to move near you or touch you
He's just nervous ! He doesn't want to tear your clothing by accident or tug at your jewelry!
You seem so at ease and like you out a lot of efforts in the way you dress, he would never want to accidentally ruin it
Finds your music tastes interesting and would love to see you dance ! But he's too shy to do so himself.
This sweetheart would never ask you to change anything about your appearance, but when you want to help around the garden he won't have any other choice but to warn you
You don't have to buy new clothes, he can lend you some of his ! But you could get your clothes or jewelry dirty or even break them if you garden with him in your usual attire
You two walking around the town goes two possibles ways;
His sheer height and large silhouette makes people too intimidated to even dare to give you a second look
Or...Your more dark aesthetic and vibes scare off any of the petty nobles who like to mock him for the reaper disease he has
Any way, people don't dare to even think about insulting either of you.
But you can bet that they love to gossip about you two
I'm sorry for all the Kaim lovers out there, but this man is going to be one of the most annoying about you being goth
At first, it's simply because he finds it "too much" and not "proper enough"
Yeah he's got a stick up his ass at first
But let's leep in mind, that Kaim's reaction is not personal. Nightmare is a kingdom situated around the medieval age for us and as seen in Levy's and Oswald's routes, is full of prejudices and closed-minded people.
The only reason he cares so much is because he was raised to care about such things
And because it's his duty to make sure his masters keep a good reputation
Levy's phase was problematic enough
Therefore, having a someone, let alone a human, so close to the three heirs of the demons' royal family who dresses so differently from the norm could bring the spotlight upon them
He can't have that happen. The three boys that he serves already have enough pressure on their shoulders.
That's why he might be cold about it at first. Asking you to change outfits everytime you go out in town.
When you two go to buy some clothing at the shop, he gets surprised that the clerk is amazed by your outfit and spends hours talking with you about being goth and what not
He realises that he might not have been fair to you and had acted like the people he dislikes so much
From then on, he stops being on your case about your outfits. He even becomes supportive of it.
Sits down with you and apologises for being disrespectful. If you ask him why, he will be upfront and honnest about being worried for Lucia,Levy and Mefy
If you want to, he will start to help you put diverse types of outfits for all the different occasions!
And if you struggle with your hair, he will gladly help you tease your hair or tie up your corset
I had to look up the word for it
At first, he's probably the same as Oswald
But unlike Oswald, he never witnessed Levy's phase, therefore you're probably one of the firsts, if not the first, goth person he sees !
So yeah, at first he would be very apprehensive. Afterall, he's a child/pre-teen so novelty might be intimidating to him and like most of the other characters he was raised in a place where people are prone to be closed-minded.
Definitely was scared at first, your looks were intimidating so your personnality had to match, right?!
When you two start to talk though, he realises that he was clearly wrong : you're nothing like he expected you to be !
He's probably the most curious out of everyone and might asks odd questions or offensive ones without meaning to be rude
Thinks that Kaim is a stick in the mud for trying to change your aesthetic !
Highkey thinks you look super cool and badass! He clearly wants to go in town with you to see people's reactions
When he realises the amount of effort you put each morning into your makeup, hair and outfit, he starts to come to your room every morning to help you out!
You hate to teach him how to tease your hair or how to put on your makeup, but otherwise he's probabky the most determined to help !
He will totally ask you to teach him how to dance like you do !!
If people look at you funny, he will whisper mockeries about them in your ear to make you laugh
Kaim had to scold him once because everyone had heard him
If they make disrespectful comments, he's ready to clap back
You would be surprised at how much sass he can have
Probably a mix of Mefy and Kaim if I'm being honest.
When he first sees you, he might make a few passive-aggressive comments, not because he hates the goth subculture
Lowkey because he thought you were a reaper-demon because of your outfits
But because he's just that type of person. He doesn't like other people and he's not afraid of saying things that might be rude to others.
So yeah, at first he's definitely picking apart your appearance and tastes juste because he's petty like that
When you two grow closer though, he might ask you some subtle questions about being goth
He finds the makeup to be a bit over the top and will definitely complain if you smudge any of his furniture because of it, but will accept to help you out it on if you ask
Everytime Ricardo makes a comment about your style, he rolls his eyes at him and sasses him
At first he refuses to listen to your music, but it eventually grows on him and you might catch him listening to it in his bedroom
He actually quite like the contrasts betwen you and him since he dresses in simple white robes and you dress in complicated black outfits!
Doesn't like the noise your jewelry and chains make, but he learns to like it since it reminds him of your presence
He will ask Noel to go with you to the store if you want new jewelry or anything else
The only thing that will make him have a cardiac arrest is if you tease your hair.
This man has the longest and fluffiest hair, it physically hurts him to see you tease your own
He just knows it's going to be tangled after !
He will ask Noel to brush your hair everyday and to buy you the appropriate products to make sure it stays healthy
Slightly surprise that you aren't more "typical" looking
But overall it really doesn't change anything to him.
He might be confused as to why you wear so much black even when it's hot outside, but Mikael mostly only wears white so he won't really comment much on it
Actually a bit annoyed at the noise your jewelry and chains make when you walk, but it quickly becomes his way to spot you in a crowd.
If you go to the store to buy some clothes, he will make a beeline for the darker clothes they have and make you try them on
Immaculate taste in goth clothing and you might want to ask him to help you create new outfits or match the correct accessories
If you help him around the garden, he will recommend that you change to other clothing, but if you insist then it's up to you
If you break or tear your jewelry or clothes he will definitely say that he warned you
He will still buy you another item of the same type as the one who was destroyed
The first time he sees you without your makeup or hair done, he's actually shocked and needs a few sdconds to process it
Absolutely in love with your hair. He never thought about teasing it ! Will totally help you to style it.
He's a bit worried it might tangle, but he still loves it, it looks so unique !
Doesn't understand the appeal of your music or dance, but he will still listen to it because you like it
When Ricardo starts to comment on your looks, he will drag you away from the other angel
Glares at anyone who makes rude comments about you
Probably the most into it out of every character
Have you see his military outfit? It gives off dark vibes
Just like you
The moment his eyes meet yours, he's head over heels for your style
Thinks you look absolutely stunning and badass
And hot
However that doesn't mean he won't make any comments on it
In contrary, his comments are even worse and even dirtier. If you wear any types of chains, expect him to make jokes about you having a choking kink or something
Will tug on your accessories or jewelry to get you riled up
If he accidentally breaks them, he will lowkey feel guilty and bring you to the store to buy you something new
Ready to throw hands at anyone who makes a snarky or rude remark
Will sing/scream the lyrics of your every songs you make him listen to just to piss off Mikael
Otherwise, he actually likes that people are staring at the both of you, he feels like he won the lottery
He's highkey bringing you with him everytime he goes in town just to see people gawk at you and insult them in their faces about it
He wants to pass his hand through your hair to see if it's tangled or not
Don't ask him to help you with teasing it, he will make you go bald
Surprisingly, he knows quite a lot about makeup and stuff. He might refer you to good brands in Nightmare and help you do your eyeliner
If he sees you without your makeup or hair done, he's going to make a double take to make sure he has the correct human in the room
However, he won't comment on it and will just talk to you as usual
He loves you with and without your whole attire, he finds your boldness to be hot no matter what
He definitely tries to get into your pants once a day
Doesn't bat an eye.
Why should your appearance or tastes matter? He likes you for who you are not for what you like.
Will give you so many compliments and he actually sees it as a form of art!
You take so much time everyday to get ready and it's always so unique, how can it not be art?
Will leave jewelry or makeup that he knows you like by your window
You know it's from him because no one else goes onto your balcony at 3 in the morning
If your eyes linger on anything at the store, he immediately buys it for you
Actually suggests some new items for you to try out! Some of them are actually pretty bad, but a lot of them are also very good
When you go shopping, he will always check the quality of the clothing and warn you if it's of bad quality
If you want, he will definitely brings you with him on his travels and make you meet some of his goth acquaintances
He helps you out with your hair and makeup and like Mikael will make sure your hair stays soft even if you tease it
He finds it amazing that you're so confident in yourself and that you're so passionate about something
He's willing to try anything you want and absolutely will listen to your music and even dance with you!
When you go out, he will hold your hand and play with your rings if you wear any
If anyone stares for too long, he will flash them a beautiful yet aggressive smile
And if it's not enough and they try to comment on your looks, he quickly shots them down in a calm and mature way
The stranger goes home crying after that
PROJECT ELDARYA
Hi everyone, I'm so excited to be able to post this, for all the time and effort it took, but it's finally here.
What is Project Eldarya? In simple words it is an interactive fan-fic rewrite of βEldarya : A New Eraβ
DISCLAMER : this fan-fic is based on the Eldarya game, so all its characters, music, scenery and general elements belong to Beemoov and Chinomiko.
This project is completely FREE, as well as all the episodes that will be uploaded [EVERY EPISODE WILL BE UPLOADED IN ENGLISH AND SPANISH]
I hope you enjoy it and also that those who download and play it leave me your comments, complaints or criticisms, so I can improve it.
DOWNLOAD : if you fear for what you may be downloading on your PC I inform you that it is a POWER POINT file and you only need to have POWER POINT to be able to play, nothing else. I will upload the episodes directly to the cloud as soon as I finish them and translate them to English.
At the date of this writing [03-09-2024] only the PROLOGUE is uploaded and soon I will upload [Episode 1]
Please, any doubt, query, complaint or whatever, feel free to write in this post or directly by private message.
HAVE FUN!
I GOT MY FIRST ASK THAT ISN'T NH RELATED ???? Anon hold my hand rn
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