Why Am I Doing This?? 65 Reasons (so Far)

So i basically get so used to hide behind some excuses and developed binging cycles for a year. I was the person who eats out once in a year but now almost three or four days a week i order food outside. Thats insane and i didn’t even workout. I gained so much weight. I have to get my shit back together. So this is what i’m going to do.

💛Drink 2-3 Liters every day.

💛Applying some diet plans so i will eat in order.

💛Daily workouts.

Here is my workout program;

Strech in the morning for 30-40 minutes.

In the noon before swimming 15 minutes stretch, 15 minutes of workout program.

Swimming for one or one and a half hour.

After swimming stretches and body care.

In the evening one hour workout.

Exercises in the program;

cr: annaolympiaa

i need some advice :)

so i’m trying to teach myself that food is not for pleasure, only for energy, and i shouldn’t reward myself with food. what other ways can i reward myself after not binging for a while or completing a fast?

HOW DO I GO THROUGH WITH IT HOW DO I NOT BINGE HOW DO I NOT LOSE MOTIVATION IM SO SICK OF THIS CYCLE

9/01

alright y’all. i’m fr getting this weight off. imma use this account as a personal tracker, so i’m sorry to the very few people who follow me lmao.

weigh in: 127.9 (i think)

so today i went shopping with my friends, and managed to only panic in the dressing room once. then we ate at cheesecake factory :/ i had 420 cal pot stickers and a few bites of other people’s cheesecakes. then we ate boba, which was around 100 cal. my friends gave me some cheez it’s to snack on but not too many, maybe around 10.

i feel like a ginormous whale in my new clothes, i just want to look dainty in them :/

i got this. i’m not giving in this time.

me: gets slightly angery because of someone

my mind: well guess what?? i’m gonna starve myself now and it’s ur fault >:)

EATING DISORDER BOOKS MASTERLIST

A Dance of Sisters, by Tracey Porter

A Stranger in the Family

A Trick of the Light, by Lois Metzger

After the Strawberry, by Kathryn Pope

Almost Anorexic, by Jennifer J. Thomas

Anorexic Annie, by Sarah Burleton

Beautiful Me, by Natasha Jennings

Being Ana, by Shani Raviv

Between, Jessica Warman

Confessions of a Failed Anorexic

Confessions of a Teenage Ballerina

Diary of An Anorexic Girl, by Morgan Menzie

Diving in Deep, by Nora Ballew

Dying For the Part: A Novel, by Jessica Ehredt

Dying to be Perfect, by Susan Barry

Elena Vanishing, by Elena Dunkle

Eli’s Wings, by Elizabeth Best

Eve’s Apple: A Novel, by Jonathan Rosen

Fasting Girls, by Joan Brumberg

Fat Chance, by Leslea Newman

Feeling for Bones, by Bethany Pierce

Flowers in Bone Cages, by Sophie Glynn

Frio, by Laurie Halse Anderson

Girl in the Mirror (Carrie Years), by Janet Fiorentino

Girl Interrupted, by Susanna Kayson

Girl Over the Edge, by Amy Z Kinzler

Girls Under Pressure, by Jacqueline Wilson

Going Hungry, by 19 various authors giving accounts of their ED

Hollow: An Unpolished Tale, by Jenna Morrow

How To Disappear Completely, by Kelsey Ozgood

Hunger Point, by Jillian Medoff

Hunger, by Jackie Morse Kessler

Hungry for Change, by Amy Lewis

In Her Shadow, by August Mclaughlin

Insatiable: The Compelling Story of Four Teens, Food and Its Power, by Eve Eliot

Kessa, by Steven Levenkron

Kim: Empy Inside, by Beatrice Sparks

Letting Ana Go, by Anonymous

Life-Size, by Jenefer Shute

Losing It, by Jasmin Dalton

Loud in the House of Myself

Massive, by Julia Bell

My Perfect Little Secret, by Rebecca Coppage

My Sister’s Bones, by Cathi Hanauer

Never Enough, by Denise Jaden

One Wish, by Leigh Brescia

Paint Me Beautiful: a Tale of Anorexia, a Love Story, and the Rebirth of Claire Simone (A Duet), by C.M. Stunich

Paperweight, by Meg Haston

Perfect, Ellen Hopkins (one of four main characters is anorexic, but its revolving perspective so ¾ of the book isn’t, just a heads up)

Pretty Bones, by Aya Tsintziras

Purge, by Sarah Darer

Running Lean, by Diana Sharples

Running in Silence: My Drive for Perfection and the Eating Disorder that Fed it, by Rachael Rose Steil

Second Start to the Right, by Deborah Hautzig

Size Zero, by Victoire Dauxerre

Skin and Bones, by Sherry Shahan

Skin, by Adrienne Maria Vrettos

Skinny, by Ibi Kaslik

Skinny: A Novel, by Laura Smith

Slim to None, by Jennifer Hendricks

Spoon Fed - A year in the life of a teenage anorexic as seen through her eyes!, by Jake Jacobs

The Best Little Girle in the World, by Steven Levenkron

The Disappearing Girl, by Heather Topham Wood

The Hanged Man, by Francesca Lia Block

The Hunger Scream, by Ivy Ruckman

The Passion of Alice, by Stephanie Grant

The Secret Life of an Anorexic, by Kristen Noel

The Stone Girl, by Alyssa Sheinmel

The Year We Seized The Day, by Elizabeth Best and Colin Falconer

Thin, by Grace Bowmen

Thin, by Laura Greenfield

Thinspo, by Amy Ellis

Unbearable Lightness, by Portia de Rossi

Wasted, by Marya Hornbacher

Wintergirls, by Laurie Halse Anderson

Zoe Letting Go, by Nora Price

Feel free to add more~ ❤️❤️

safe foods?

can y’all tell me ur safe foods i’m going grocery shopping tonight and i really just wanna have foods i can eat without worrying :)

i decided to start this diet but i didn’t like any of the photos that were on google so i made my own!

byee i used the wrong twt, its @/kailbs 😐😐

My boyfriend is going to take me to his place for the rest of the month so I can't fast for an extended period of time so I'm going to attempt the Fix it Fast diet. I always wondered if it actually works and now I'm going to find out. If I eat more than intend I'll have to exercise it off or the day is a fail.

Idk my CW but I'll keep you updated ❤ wish me luck✨ Feel free to send meanspo and sweetspo cause I'll probably need it