I’m Starting This 10 Week Challenge. Whose With Me?

I really wanna have abs

ed shows/movies you recommend?? i’ve seen supersize vs super skinny and to the bone :)

Day 8

having anorexia has caused me to develop some sort of binge eating disorder too bcuz of food deprivation. now i’m gaining instead of losing. wtf ana this isn’t what i signed up for

i am the single most ugly thing to exist.

am I the only one that has those times where you literally have no motivation to go on. Everything is a burden and you feel heavy and loopy and you want to sleep your life away. The things you loved to once do become chores and the sunny days you used to adore now seem dull and your favourite food tastes like cardboard and your favourite song doesn’t make you sing along. It’s just scary but hey the show must go on...

i wanna just starve myself to death but i’m not skinny enough to die yet.

cr: annaolympiaa

I’m so ready to lose all my extra fat so I can start gaining even more muscle. The only thing standing in my way of being as perfect as I want to be is myself.

I can do this!

“Disordered Eating” Things

- Simultaneously eating like a normal person and mentally lashing yourself for it.

- Not eating when you feel angry or sad, but then a few hours later you eat a bag of chocolate marshmallows because you somehow convince yourself it doesn’t count.

- “I shouldn’t have done that”

- Looking at thinspo at night and crying because you feel ugly

- The 5th grader pitch screaming in your head as you take another bite of food.

- a week of super healthy eating and working out followed by two weeks of unhealthy eating 

- constantly shifting of wanting to look like a toned fitness model, to a thicc slim, to a skeleton fairy 

- *eating something* *someone comments on the thing you are eating* *stops eating thing* *50/50 chance you may eat it later*

- oh yeah, random moments of eating something before spontaneously destroying the food or tossing it 

- “Okay, after this weekend, I’m fasting”

- wishing you were anorexic knowing you shouldn't 

- body dysmorphia 

- Calling it disordered eating because you don’t feel deserving of calling it an ed