- Simultaneously eating like a normal person and mentally lashing yourself for it.
- Not eating when you feel angry or sad, but then a few hours later you eat a bag of chocolate marshmallows because you somehow convince yourself it doesn’t count.
- “I shouldn’t have done that”
- Looking at thinspo at night and crying because you feel ugly
- The 5th grader pitch screaming in your head as you take another bite of food.
- a week of super healthy eating and working out followed by two weeks of unhealthy eating
- constantly shifting of wanting to look like a toned fitness model, to a thicc slim, to a skeleton fairy
- *eating something* *someone comments on the thing you are eating* *stops eating thing* *50/50 chance you may eat it later*
- oh yeah, random moments of eating something before spontaneously destroying the food or tossing it
- “Okay, after this weekend, I’m fasting”
- wishing you were anorexic knowing you shouldn't
- body dysmorphia
- Calling it disordered eating because you don’t feel deserving of calling it an ed
i’m trying so hard to get control i feel helpless please
ed shows/movies you recommend?? i’ve seen supersize vs super skinny and to the bone :)
I really wanna have abs
I've spent a few weeks creating this routine, I hope you enjoy it!
First I stretch out my entire body, that usually takes 5-10 minutes depending on how long I hold each stretch
15 jumping jacks
25 situps
10 squats
25 butt bridges
20 mountain climbers
25 leg drops
25 bouncing lunges, each side
15 jumping jacks
25 situps
1 minute plank, do it in increments of 15 seconds with a 5 second break between each increment
I repeat this routine 2 or 3 times throughout the day depending on my energy levels.
I finish off with another full body stretch.
over the years, i have been taught what certain cravings mean and how i can replace them in a healthy way. so i figured, why not share it with you guys?
if you crave chocolate…
your body needs magnesium. a quick fix for this is raw nuts and seeds, legumes, or fresh fruits.
if you crave sweets…
your body might need some of the following:
-chromium - have some broccoli, grapes, cheese, or chicken.
-carbon - chow down on some fresh fruit.
-phosphorus - chicken, eggs, legumes, or grains can help.
-tryptophan - similar to magnesium, have some raw nuts and seeds, legumes, or fresh fruits.
if you crave bread or toast…
your body needs nitrogen. have some high protein foods such as fish, meat, nuts, or beans.
if you crave fatty foods…
your body needs calcium. broccoli, kale, legumes, or cheese help.
if you crave alcohol…
your body might need some of the following:
-protein - think seafood, dairy, or nuts.
-avenin - chow down on some granola or oatmeal.
-calcium - broccoli, kale, legumes, or cheese help.
-potassium - bitter greens or seaweed usually do the trick.
if you crave ice cream/shaved ice…
your body needs iron. some suggestions are fish, greens, seaweed, or black cherries.
if you crave burned or grilled food…
your body needs carbon. chow down on some fresh fruits.
if you crave soda and carbonated drinks…
your body needs calcium. broccoli, kale, legumes, or cheese help.
if you crave salty foods…
your body needs chloride. goat milk (yes i know that’s a little odd) and fish help.
if you crave acid foods (burgers)…
your body needs magnesium. just like chocolate, have some raw nuts and seeds, legumes, or fresh fruits.
if you crave cool drinks (milkshakes or malts)…
your body needs manganese. some suggestions are walnuts, pecans, almonds, pineapple, or blueberries.
if you’re PMS-ing…
your body needs zinc. red meat, seafood, leafy greens, and root vegetables are helpful.
if you’re overeating…
your body might need some of the following:
-silicon - nuts and seeds are a quick fix.
-tryptophan - eat some cheese, raisins, sweet potatoes, or spinach.
-tyrosine - vitamin c supplements should do the trick.
if you crave tobacco…
your body might need some of the following:
-silicon - nuts and seeds help, but stay away from refined starches.
-tyrosine - vitamin c supplements or red, orange, or green fruits and veggies can help.
disclaimer: i am not a health professional in any way, this is just advice i have been given over the years.
I don't think many people get it, but
if you join the "ana community" you are already in. Yes, the goal is to lose weight, but there is actually a reason you do this the unhealthy way. Ever thought that if you ate healthily instead of starving or binging or purging you would be thinner by now? Yea. Can't give it up now can you? Cause there is a problem within you that you probably aren't ready to face or are tired of facing. Either way you don't know how to cope anymore so you focus on food. That one constant that is always there when shit goes downhill. Can't get out because you are way too deep in.
you could become the girl at the beach, with long slim legs and collarbones holding tiny pools of water.
you could be the girl wearing size 00 denim shorts, held up by a belt, wearing a strappy crop top that rides up, exposing a flat stomach and hourglass waist
you could be the girl with sweat sitting on your face like a radiant glow. who needs contour when your cheekbones could cut a bitch all on their own?
you could be the recipent of the inevitable post-quarantine compliments: “wow, you look amazing!” “have you lost weight?” “i’m so jealous of you!” “your body is actually goals”
you could be happy.
or…
you could become the girl at the beach, wearing a t-shirt and athletic shorts to cover up as much as she can, cowering in the shade underneath her umbrella, afraid of being judged.
you could be the girl wearing leggings on a 90 degree day so as not to expose your fat thighs, watching as a girl in a cute strappy crop top and denim shorts laughs and jokes with her friends.
you could be the girl who sits inside, too self-conscious to leave the house and sweat off your makeup.
you could be an onlooker as people shower your friends with compliments, giving forced smiles and praise, while wanting to curl up and cry on the inside.
you could be the girl regretting everything.
the choice, as always, is yours.
so i’m trying to teach myself that food is not for pleasure, only for energy, and i shouldn’t reward myself with food. what other ways can i reward myself after not binging for a while or completing a fast?
i was 123 lbs a year ago.
i am now 2.5 inches taller, and at the same weight. this feels euphoric :)
i’ve officially lost 10 lbs! 20 more to go