Yk I Was In 9th. And It Was My PTM. I Got 51/80 Marks In Maths During My Half Yearly's And Obviously
yk I was in 9th. and it was my PTM. i got 51/80 marks in maths during my half yearly's and obviously i was scolded so much much for it. my parents scolded me on the day i told them the result and till the PTM also they were taunting me about it and i used to just keep quiet because i felt it was justified as i used to go to maths tution as well. but on that ptm day my teacher just told my dad that i did great because before it i got 14/30 in the unit test and she just said that i did good, i improved because in the first unit test i was not able to score half marks but this i scored more than half and that is great. My dad did not resonate with thought but ma'am when you said that it literally made me cry i held my tears back but thank you so much for acknowledging it. thank you so much this literally made me cry. that's my life now crying while remembering every short little good thing a stranger has done for me. it's sad because i can't remember anything of my parents. but i know my dad would protect me and take my side against others but i can't say the same about my mom. because all throughout my childhood she has always taken my cousins side and never mine and i've always felt jealous because my cousins used to have their mothers supporting them and MY mom too. and then they used to make fun of me and i was all alone
why was my childhood so freakin sad? i used to think i was a happy kid and i used to never cry. i can say with confidence that i have never cried from the age of 9-13 but why are those incidents coming to me now? why am i crying because of them NOW? it's been so long why the fuck are they bothering me now of all times when i am at my lowest. god just help me out. at this point i don't about my sadness i just want to fulfill my goals. as long as i go to IIT Bombay(CS) away from my house. I'll be fine.
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it’s awesome how we have unlimited chances to become a better version of ourselves
I know it's very wrong that I failed physics and had yo give a retest and I know last year I didn't study at all. I know it's my mistake but really mom? Do you think screaming at me about it 24/7 would help? I love how you easily give up and think I can't do it. And when you say that again and again, in doing nothing but cursing you in mind and it's not something I want to do. You're my mom but I have kind of lost respect for you, the only reason I act a little respectfully is because I feel obliged to return something in return because it was you who shaped me into the person I am today and honestly I'm proud of myself for my EQ. Yes I know it's wrong for me to be distracted the whole year to the point where I failed a subject but honestly what I am telling myself is that I gained an experience, a bad one, something I don't want to repeat ever again but it's just an experience, it was just one phase on my life. I'm not gonna let that define my whole life, I am sure I am not a failure because I haven't given up and I have moved on to start with the new session already, sure my last session was a mess but I'll do better. I'll make it better. I'm not just gonna stop and give up because I didn't achieve the model grades. That's so stupid and dumb.
You put this into words
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Do not be afraid to speak up and take up space, babe. 💞
Dude you were too harsh with your callout😭😭
Look at you. Browsing the same four apps over and over again looking to find your parents' love that you never got, from strangers' validation.
I don't want to be a burden to my parents, I really really want to be their pride. The one who fulfills my and their dreams. I want to be a role model for my small brother so that no matter what he has me as the safety net. But here I am, I failed my exam, it's a first and I'm not even studying properly ,the exam is in 2 days and I am just so horrible. I couldn't even keep the promise I made to myself. What if everything turns out so bad that I can't even trust myself?
And that is what matters at the end
I try to be the person with low requirements cuz I genuinely feel that's my only plus point but it's sad when you realise your "friends" take advantage of it
My rant on Yuri after watching amnse
I absolutely loved this series so much I am waiting for the next season. I just finished watching the 16th episode and I'm just so angry at Yuri. I just HATE him, like you don't deserve to be sad during the countdown because Jay Jay wasn't there. You literally forced her into a marriage without even asking for her consent, you don't even care about her feelings because in your mind you think you're saving her from Keifer but the only person she needs saving is YOU.
I mean she even confessed to you that she likes Keifer but you're still putting her in a difficult position by again and again mentioning you love her (I don't think you do .....cuz you're discarding her feelings). Yuri is trying to play it of as if he gave up Ella for Keifer but honey I bet you probably weren't even an option for her.
And to me it just looks like a competition, like he's desperate to have Jay Jay so that he doesn't loses the girl to Keifer AGAIN. I mean he literally compared Keifer to his father in his face so that he could make him back off. YURI, YOU DON'T DESERVE TO BE A LOVER OR A FRIEND.
lately I've been putting off so much work and I am getting so irritated. rn also I am writing this when i should be preparing for my tution test. hoepfully i get good marks.
