For Real. I Really Should Give Some Of Those Things A Try, But I Haven’t Done Any Of Them In So Hecking

Hope you people who see this had a good holiday (or day in general if you don’t do Thanksgiving) today. I got to eat some pretty darn good food so that’s what I’m grateful for. Family is great too. Got pretty lucky that I’ve got a good family to spend time with.

Quite accurate

The autistic experience is wanting to be an artist, a writer, a baker, an animator, a mother, somebodies wife, be totally independent, have a large friend group, only have one friend, move away and never speak to anyone ever again, never leave home, collect stuffed animals, heal your inner child, be a grown up, stay young at heart, get a job but not something you aren’t passionate about, eat safe foods, hate your safe foods because you’ve eaten them too much, scream and cry about how you feel like no one understands and you don’t fit in, love being different and not fitting in and not being able to do any of it because the seam of your sock isn’t sitting correctly.

I feel called out, as I sit in bed scrolling instead of sleeping

“Wha- what? I just confessed that I love you.”

“And I don’t see how that’s my problem! Don’t take it personally, but I don’t feel the same so it’s up to you to figure out what to do with that information. I think you’re pretty cool, so I hope we can still be friends.”

"Actually… i think i fell in love with you…"

"Damn man, i wish i could help you out fr. Goodluck on your problem tho"

Literally couldn’t be me right now with my best friend who has shown me nothing but respect since I’ve met her. Sometimes I hate having feelings lol

"Have you been avoiding me?"

"What?! Me? Nah… it's not like i, uh, caught feeling for you and now I'm having literally the worst existential crisis ever" starts hyperventilating "what reason could i possibly have to avoid YoU" chuckles awkwardly while trying to catch his breath

It’d be kinda nice to actually be a real dragon. Have a “little” treasure hoard and no one questions it. Be able to fly wherever I want. Eat mass quantities of food because I can. Scare or otherwise get rid of people who annoy me or are needlessly mean or are just my enemies. I don’t know, I just think it’d be kind of neat

What it feels like I’ve got to do just to feel decently okay about myself because life sucks sometimes. But also armor is just cool and wearing it around is fun. So there’s that aspect too. And having a cat companion (or a dog!) is just an added bonus

Happy New Year to my fellow gremlins, hope you all have a grand old time and achieve all you want to achieve

Yeah that person usually tends to be myself anyway because I’m such a moron sometimes lol

You ever wonder why you feel so lonely a lot and then realize it’s because no one ever talks to you unless they want something from you?

Yeah.. me too.