Screeching In Agony

Enjoy my deranged Ass

you know theres something about being a kid and not having many friends and constantly feeling stuck. like you know you’re meant for so much more but you just can’t reach it. you don’t want to die but theres nothing to live for and your life doesn’t matter in the grand scheme of things and you just want something to change. 

and theres something about having a face and a name that belongs to you but isn’t yours. and you dont feel real most days even though you’re living the life you wanted. there’s violence in your veins that scares you and a hunger for something that you can taste but never quite see. and every day you’re drowning, drowning and praying for someone to throw you a rope you’re not even sure you’d take.

And then all of a sudden you’re surrounded by people who love you and know you and you can finally breathe. and on the bad days they bring you food and sing silly songs and remind you that you’re real and you matter. you get obsessed over stupid shit and you live day by day because you can’t survive any other way, but your friends listen to you ramble and support you. you’re everything you thought you could be and nothing like you imagined and you’re sense of self is still so fragile but thats okay. you have good food and good friends and  that’s enough to live for.

anyway, Dorohedoro is my favorite manga, can you tell?

Siblings

CG4, Stardust

this is so fucking weird without context lmao

I love how, despite being the more sweet and moral of the bunch, Seras is still driven by a deep well of rage and pain inside her and that's why Alucard let her live and made her a vampire. She beat the shit out of all the other kids in her orphanage for talking smack. She became a vampire because she was too angry to let this world be the death of her. That shit is so fucking cool I love you Seras Victoria

I want to clarify that I’ve have in fact been playing Cult of the Lamb for a week and am currently in the middle of Anchordeep trying to murder Kallamar. I just really wanted to scream into the void for a bit. I have so m a n y t h e o r i e s :)

I may have started playing the lamb game and I may be slightly obsessed….

I have many Thoughts(tm)

mood

How am I only just learning this!?