Am I really that bad
You say I'm worthless
That's what makes me sad
And I think you're right
You're soo great
You want me to be like you
But I know, I'm just a brat
I can never be like you
Cause I'm me and you're you
Not even a day goes without a fight
You don't even know the shit you say
Makes me wanna explode like a dynamite
That is what makes my mind and heart shut tight
I just wanna cry
And want you to comfort me
But you don't even seem to try
You just let it be
You always make me sad
Only because you're mad
But I guess, I'm really that bad.
Even a spark of anger can burn down your whole life
~Alex
One day this will kill me and I can't wait for that day to come.
Fernando Pessoa, from Un Soir à Lima; A Little Larger Than the Entire Universe: Selected Poems (tr. by Richard Zenith)
It's not just other people we need to forgive. We need to forgive ourselves.
I don’t want to drag anyone into my problems. I should be able to deal with them by myself, but I fucking can’t…
"The thoughts are slowly winning and I'm scared of what I might do once it does."
— something your suicidal friend would never admit to you
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