and i care so much and ill probably care always but i need to change and grow and care about everything else because it is too much to be alive and i need to bear my sorrows elsewhere. i care, i care too much, i care always and anyways because im a carer, but i need to care about myself more right now
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Médée
i feel so so so horrible
I'm afraid that I will never commit suicide and will suffer for the rest of my days.
i adore the thought of soulmates in every century/world/universe/life/forever but they aren't lovers every time. like in some worlds they are just a dog and a person and that's okay. in another— a cat and a butterfly that landed on its nose, a young person who befriends an older person, a fisherman and a mermaid they catch, a pirate and their squawking parrot, two orcas communicating from miles away, whatever. doesnt matter cause its always you. it will always be you and yes theres reincarnation's random surprises but ill take any form of you, as much of you as possible and expect you in my life always and anyways
i'm so in love with the "legend" that your beauty marks / moles are where your lover liked to kiss you the most in your past life. like how beautiful is it that some pretty girl who loved me kissed me all over my back and neck and hands in some past life and i get to carry all of that love with me in this life ?? that is lovely to think about
ohhhh i get it now. the little seed of loneliness i’ve carried with me since i was five will never go away
being a thalassophile with thalassophia is horrifying. God set me up for failure