Jalakanyaka - Seine

i despise you so much im filled with bitterness its taken over me its your fault.

i cant tell my older brother that ill be forever envious of his first baby because i was his first baby so ill suffer

i cannot really handle birds or fish as pets anymore because i have seen the dead forms of both and they haunt me so closely and i do not need that on my conscience

i also wish humans did not care so much for intimacy because i hate to see anything around me die and i think a cat or a puppy or a lover would hurt the most and i already know i would not survive it

behind the scenes of hirokazu kore-eda's monster (2023)

i have this distinct need to make myself the smallest in a room because i always take up too my space with my loud voice. i talk loudly and flail my hands around because i don't know how to control myself in front of other people. so maybe, if the bones in my body shrunk and i lost more than eighty percent of my fat then my voice would shrink with me and i would match the tone of the normal people in the room. maybe then i can not only look at myself in the mirror and be happy, i can also listen to my own voice and avoid wanting to claw out my vocal chords. i'll feel normal i think

Roasted chicken, ginger, daikon, shiitake mushroom soup with lime, cilantro, broccoli sprouts, and rice noodles

i feel so so so horrible

you ever think youre special to someone, but then you see them talking to someone else and youre just "oh"

Quitting sugar from today on. I hope i dont become bitter

yeah this is a new account and i'll only be here whenever i have a meltdown but atleast it has personality