Médée

srsly tho. i need a digital camera

i need a digital camera so i can take the same pictures i take with my phone but through a different grainer perspective that makes me think that the future isn't here yet and i'm still in 2013 and i'm not left behind grieving after who i could've been

being a thalassophile with thalassophia is horrifying. God set me up for failure

i have this distinct need to make myself the smallest in a room because i always take up too my space with my loud voice. i talk loudly and flail my hands around because i don't know how to control myself in front of other people. so maybe, if the bones in my body shrunk and i lost more than eighty percent of my fat then my voice would shrink with me and i would match the tone of the normal people in the room. maybe then i can not only look at myself in the mirror and be happy, i can also listen to my own voice and avoid wanting to claw out my vocal chords. i'll feel normal i think

blue (2002)

i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i don't care i do care i do care i do care i do care i do care i do care i do care i do carei do care i do care i do care i do carei do care i do care i do care i do carei do care i do care i do care i do carei do care i do care i do care i do carei do care i do care i do care i do carei do care i do care i do care i do carei do care i do care i do care i do carei do care i do care i do care i do carei do care i do care i do care i do carei do care i do care i do care i do carei do care i do care i do care i do carei do care i do care i do care i do carei do care i do care i do care i do carei do care i do care i do care i do carei do care i do care i do care i do carei do care i do care i do care i do carei do care i do care i do care i do carei do care i do care i do care i do carei do care i do care i do care i do carei do care i do care i do care i do carei do care i do care i do care i do carei do care i do care i do care i do carei do care i do care i do care i do carei do care i do care i do care i do carei do care i do care i do care i do carei do care i do care i do care i do carei do care i do care i do care i do carei do care i do care i do care i do carei do care i do care i do care i do carei do care i do care i do care i do carei do care i do care i do care i do carei do care i do care i do care i do carei do care i do care i do care i do carei do care i do care i do care i do carei do care i do care i do care i do carei do care i do care i do care i do carei do care i do care i do care i do care i do.

The Handmaiden (2016)

thinking about this

the need to be everything and nothing but more and more until all things are nothing and im just something that doesnt exist