Panic Attack 4. (Pokémon, Goh Angst)

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Debunking common Kaminari beliefs

I had no idea what to call the title- as it might come across as rude or offensive and that isn't my intention- but then I realized; there's not really a way to not offend someone with this.

Normally I would consider not writing this then but I'm so tired of coming across people calling Kaminari stupid or saying he has ADHD. Because I find that offensive to people who actually have ADHD. And as you might have guessed by my profile picture, Kaminari is my favorite character and I feel obligated to defend him from people.

So just a warning before I get started; I do not have ADHD, so naturally I do not know a lot about it. Therefore, if anything I say about it is false, I'm sorry. All of my research comes from Google, and while I do know people with ADHD, I'm not even friends with them.

’Kaminari is stupid’

This belief is something I've disliked ever since my start in the MHA fandom, I always felt at unease when I saw people joking about it and just generally talking about it, but I could never place it. But now I understand; it's because Kaminari is not stupid and I knew it.

While some people might defend that too, saying he just isn't academically smart, but no; he's academically smart too. He's just smart in general.

And before you say something in the comments, remember that he got into UA, which is apparently the most prestigious school in Japan, the hardest to get into as their acceptance rate is 0.2%. And they would not let someone in who passed the practical exam, but failed the written exam.

So no; Kaminari is not stupid. He is academically and street smart.

And if you think about it; he's only bad at math (of what we've seen) and you know the people who call him stupid? Bakugou- who's pretty much a fucking genius- and Jirou; who is very smart too, as she was able to teach people instruments within WEEKS (or months? I don't remember.)

He's stupid in a class full of very smart people, but smart in a class full of average people.

I don't even think Bakugou and Jirou think he's stupid themselves; Jirou was teasing him, really just joking, because they're friends. And Bakugou... I think he just thinks Kaminari needs to study, I think he sees Kaminari's potential but that he just needs to study and actually try.

And is Kaminari stupid because he doesn't study a lot? No, because do you like studying?

Kaminari doesn't really try- insert angsty reason here- but he's still smart; a headcanon I have, based on something I saw on Pinterest, is that Kaminari used to be bullied for being smart and trying in school and then therefore decided to start over himself and not try anymore.

’Kaminari has ADHD’

Now it's okay if it's a headcanon you have to perhaps relate to Kaminari, it is, but I'm here to argue why it's not canon and why you would have to change a lot if you give Kaminari ADHD in a fanfiction:

If he's unmedicated (which most make him be) then that is IMPRESSIVE considering he's actually behaving decently in a prestigious school like UA. He is not yelling, not switching seats constantly and not throwing things at all. (Which my classmates with ADHD do.) Kaminari isn't being disruptive at all.

If he was in my class, I would forget he exists. Because he's just so calm, and laid-back, and doesn't yell or disrupt class. Kaminari doesn't do that at all; he's quiet and stays in his seat. Kaminari only ever really acts like he has ADHD when something exciting is going on and let me just tell you this; everybody struggles staying still when they're excited.

I have found an article listing the symptoms of ADHD:

Inattentiveness (difficulty concentrating and focusing)

The main signs of inattentiveness are:

•having a short attention span and being easily distracted

Well, we kind of have seen it; IN ONE EPISODE, I'M PRETTY SURE? One scene that sticks out to me was when we saw them the first time in math class, and Kaminari wasn't focusing at all but there were some others who also weren't focusing! But I never see people saying they have ADHD?

Also, they're teenagers; teenagers struggle paying attention sometimes, especially in Math class.

•making careless mistakes – for example, in schoolwork

We haven't seen it.

•appearing forgetful or losing things

Once again, haven't seen it.

•being unable to stick to tasks that are tedious or time-consuming

Haven't seen it.

•appearing to be unable to listen to or carry out instructions

Haven't seen it.

•constantly changing activity or task

Haven't seen it.

•having difficulty organising tasks

And once again, we haven't seen it!

Hyperactivity and impulsiveness

The main signs of hyperactivity and impulsiveness are:

•being unable to sit still, especially in calm or quiet surroundings

I've already explained why that doesn't fit Kaminari.

Hyperactivity and impulsiveness

The main signs of hyperactivity and impulsiveness are:

•being unable to sit still, especially in calm or quiet surroundings

I've already explained why that doesn't fit Kaminari.

•constantly fidgeting

I have seen many people say Kaminari does this. But does he really? No, I'd argue. Because all we've seen him do is massage Ojiro's tail. But what if Kaminari and Ojiro are good friends? What if Ojiro likes it? WHAT IF KAMINARI IS GOOD AT MASSAGING AND OJIRO KNOWS IT? Why can't people think out multiple reasons that aren't ”IT'S FIDGETING, HE HAS ADHD”?

Also; neurotypicals fidget too, you know? So if he does fidget, it's not necessarily an ADHD thing.

•being unable to concentrate on tasks

I don't recall seeing this.

•excessive physical movement

I have kind of already covered this and NO.

•excessive talking

No. (If you deny it, have we ever seen him talk during class?)

And if he does talk a lot, according to you; what if he's just talkative?

•being unable to wait their turn

We haven't seen it.

•acting without thinking

I don't think we've seen it.

•interrupting conversations

We haven't seen it.

•little or no sense of danger

No, that's Bakugou and Deku. But we don't say they have ADHD, do we?

Conclusion

The conclusion is, if you somehow did not understand, that Kaminari is not stupid and does not canonically have ADHD.

And doesn't anybody think it's offensive to call somebody stupid and then say they have ADHD? Am I the only one that thinks that sounds bad? And wouldn't it be offensive to somebody who actually has ADHD, who then has to see people saying a character (who checks barely any of the boxes) has ADHD?

If I saw people say this one character has autism (and I'm using autism as an example because I myself have autism) and this character doesn't fit in to barely any of the symptoms, then I would be offended. Or at least frustrated, angered. I would hate it.

So yeah, Kaminari isn't stupid and neither does he have ADHD.

Panic attack 3. (Pokémon, Goh angst)

Summary: Okay, this is still Raboot, but after the apple, so expect more comfort!

(It will be more comfort this time.)

Third time. (Raboot)

”Ash, where are you!?” screamed Goh into the phone.

“U-uhh,” continued Ash. ”I'm still in town, looking for food!”

”We have food right here!” screamed Goh again.

Him and Ash were in the Johto region, at a hotel, well, he was. Ash was out looking for food, even though they had food in the lobby.

”Yeah, I know! But I've heard that there's great food in the Johto region!”

The hotel was also in the Johto region, so Goh did not understand where he was coming from.

”There's great food here too, idiot!” screamed Goh once again.

”Yeah, I know, but...” said Ash. ”Okay, I'll be home soon, then we can go eat there in the lobby if I haven't found food, okay?”

”Yeah. Get back soon!”

He hung up.

”Raboot- Boot?”

He looked at Raboot, it was sitting on the armchair behind him, with a sleeping Sobble next to it.

He went over to it and picked up the sleeping water-type pokémon, it quickly settled in his arms, and he laid it down on the bed, and pulled the small blanket over it.

”He'll be here soon, guess we have time for ourselves, huh?”

It jumped up from the armchair.

”C'mon, let's go out to the balcony, maybe we can even see Ash when he comes.” said Goh.

He and Raboot went out the balcony.

The view was nice, the stars glistening.

He had always liked the night view, the moonlight.

(Later, Ash hasn't come yet)

He was listening to the people below.

There were three people, obvious teenagers, two boys, one girl. They were talking.

”Oh, c'mon! Don't be stupid, Tito!” said the girl to one of the boys.

”Yeah? And what are you gonna do? Hit me with your karate gloves?” teased Tito, the boy.

Tito brushed his dark hair with his hand.

”Oh, damn! Are you gonna fight her?” asked the other boy. ”Mei, Tito, don't! The cops might come!”

”Don't be a scaredy cat, Conner!” said Tito.

”Your a scaredy cat too. You wouldn't hit me,” said Mei confident. ”You don't hit girls.”

You don't hit girls.

You don't hit girls.

(Flashback)

”Stop, Belle!” cried Goh.

He was on his knees, crying, under Belle, a girl with brown hair with hazel eyes.

”No way!” said Belle, laughing. ”A loser like you is something I just can't ignore! You have to know how much of a loser you are, you crybaby!”

He continued to sob, which only made Belle laugh harder.

”Stop bullying me!”

That's all she ever did.

”What are you gonna do? Hit me?” said Belle. ”You don't hit girls. Didn't you know?”

So it wasn't okay to hit a girl, but it was okay to hit boys? How is that fair?

(Flashback ended)

He sat down, crouched, trying to stop himself from crying.

The same feeling settled in his gut, the one he hadn't felt in a long time.

”You don't hit girls!”

It felt like he was back there, in the playground, that stormy day, being pushed around by her, hearing her sick laugh as he was pushed in the mud, dirtying his clothes.

(Flashback)

He landed in the mud, dirtying his already-dirty clothes even more.

She then went over to him and took a harsh hold of his wrist, pulling him upwards.

”Stop it!” cried Goh.

”No chance!” said Belle, she pulled him down to gain that dominance, forcing him to look up. ”You are such a loser. Got it?”

He sobbed louder, hoping that someone would hear him.

”Quiet down!”, she slapped him, making him shut up. ”They'll catch us, you idiot!”

She then pushed him into a puddle.

She walked forward and dragged him around in the mud.

”Ow, stop! Oww!”

”Your such a crybaby, you know that?” said Belle, getting to him. ”No wonder you have no friends.”

She then pulled him up harshly again. And then, out of the blue, she hit him in the face hard, giving him a bruise under his left eye.

He sobbed.

”Your mean!“

”I'm not mean, I just think that you should know what you are. A loser!” said Belle rudely.

She pulled his hair, and basically threw him in another puddle, making him land on the face.

”Oww!!”, he sat up quickly, his cries getting louder.

The blood ran down his nose.

“Hah! Weak!”

”N-no!”

He tried to stand up but Belle kicked him.

”I'm in control here, understand?”

”M-mommy!”

He wanted his mother, her soft embrace, her soft kisses, and those soft tickles.

”Loser! Only losers are momma's boys!”

She hit him in the face again, making blood drip down his cheek.

”Oww! Please stop!” begged Goh.

”Ugh, why do I waste my time on a nobody like you?” asked Belle rudely. ”Your honestly lucky that I do, you fool.”

She then pushed him in another puddle.

”Belle, come, we're leaving now!” called a female voice, who seemed to be Belle's mother.

”Coming, mommy!” said Belle, but before she left, she turned to Goh one last time. ”Don't tell anyone about this. Oh, and be here tomorrow, or I'll find you, and then it won't be fun.”

She then ran to her mom.

He stood up and ran to his mother, who was shocked when she found him.

”Mommy!”

He ran into her arms.

She immediately picked him up, not caring about the mud or the blood. ”Oh, sweetie, what happened?”, she kissed him on the forehead, and wiped the blood with a tissue.

”Someone was mean to me!” sobbed Goh.

”Oh, poor baby, let's get you cleaned up at home,” cooed Camille.

(Flashback ended)

”Raboot?”

He didn't realize he had zoned out, thinking about the first time he met Belle, and their meeting was not exactly great.

He was on the floor, crouching, tears running down his face- He felt like he needed to puke- Exhale all the anxiety in him- God, he felt terrible.

And Raboot was witnessing it all- For the third time- Couldn't he just control himself?

Belle was right, he was weak, he started having a panic attack just because of one sentence- It was like he had trauma or something-

Did he have trauma?

No, he couldn't, trauma is something big and scary- Like getting kidnapped, raped, or abused- He had just gotten bullied, and that can't be so grand, can it?

(I just want you to know, I don't think this, but Goh does since he doesn't know much about it. Trauma can be anything- But Goh doesn't know that. I'll let you continue reading now, hope you have a good day!)

Raboot stepped closer, making him flinch, it continued taking small steps, and then sat down in his lap, trying to help him.

”It's happening again...”

Raboot didn't deserve this, it had witnessed this three times now.

Quickly, without thinking, he bent over, and puked.

It lasted for a few seconds.

After, he leaned against the railing, not caring about the concerned looks Raboot was sending him.

(Later)

He hugged Raboot when he sat down, after cleaning his vomit.

They had just eaten, it was curry, and now Ash was fast asleep.

”Raboot, thanks.” thanked Goh, he cuddled it closer.

Raboot didn't object, it just simply let his partner embrace it.

At least he wasn't alone, and that mattered.

A crying friend.

Summary; I know what you expect, this isn't Encanto, it's Pokémon! More specifically, Pokémon-journey-series. So, to summarize it; Chloe is looking for Goh, and finds out from her father that Goh is nowhere to be seen, she knows what that means!

(This is Goh angst with Chloe fluff, since I love angst and fluff! My headcanon is that Goh was bullied as a child, Chloe knows this. And I have a second headcanon. Chloe can sing!)

”Goh!”

No answer.

’Where could that boy be?’, wondered Chloe. ’Surely he can't be that hard to find, right?’

”Goh! Where are you? Hello, Goh!” called Chloe.

She sighed.

”Goh! You egoistic boy!” called Chloe again, getting slightly annoyed.

There was a short pause.

”I see your looking for Goh.” said a voice, her father.

”Yes,“ said Chloe. ”Have you seen him?”

Cerise thought for a while.

”No,” said Cerise. ”But I know he went out for a walk, didn't take anyone with him, not Raboot or Sobble.”, he thought for a while again. ”He's been gone for around one hour, he's probably not back yet. Maybe he visited his family or something?”

What-

She knew what that meant. It was clear as day in her head.

”And you haven't gone looking for him?!” exclaimed Chloe impulsively.

She brushed her father off, and started running.

”Chloe, wait!”

She didn't listen.

She opened the door, and didn't close it afterwards, she ran towards the gate.

She ran towards the school's direction, but instead taking a shortcut before getting to the road.

...

Her pace had not slowed down, she was sure that Goh was there, he had to.

When the greenery started to multiply, the flowers and bushes embracing every corner, she knew she was almost there.

She soon came to a rock wall covered in vines, so she turned, entering the open location.

She stopped.

There were flowers all around, bushes, and much more.

The school's old garden.

’Goh has to be here.’

While a small part of her wished he wasn't, it was never a good reason when he was there.

She walked forwards, looking at the greenery.

This place surely was beautiful. She had been there multiple times. Every time, of course, was because of Goh.

It was quiet, the place was abandoned, that being the reason it was so overgrown. But soon enough, she started hearing sobs, sniffles. She recognized who it came from, though she could not see the person, she knew who it was.

Taking a deep breath, she made her presence clear.

”You like hiding,” sang Chloe, her voice angelic. ”But, no matter where you are, I will know.”, she stepped closer, brushing the plants out of the way, before it revealed the person.

”So don't try to hide,”

In front of her was Goh, who was crying, face in his arms, he looked up at her slightly.

”There's no use,”, she walked over to him. ”I know you way too well, my dear friend.”

She sat down next to him, and rubbed his shoulder.

She paused.

”What happened?” asked Chloe.

He sniffed.

”I saw Brake.“ mumbled Goh sadly.

Brake was his old bully, the main one.

Chloe hated him, he always used his big brother's pokémon to beat up Goh.

”I don't understand...”

”Hmm?”

She scooped closer.

”I thought I was over it...“ said Goh sadly.

”It's okay to not be over it,” said Chloe. ”It takes time.”

Goh looked at her, and smiled slightly.

”You always know what to say, *sniff*.” mumbled Goh.

She took a deep breath.

”I've known you too long, so don't try.” sang Chloe again. ”Just let me, I'll make my way to you- Just stay there- Don't hide, don't hide, don't hide.”

She paused again and hugged him.

He hugged back.

”P-please don't... Hide...” sang Goh quietly.

It was quiet for a long time.

”Can we stay here?” asked Goh. ”Just the two of us?”

”Of course.”

She was willing to stay there as long as he wanted, just for him.

Bakugou has PTSD: A headcanon or possible?

So, as anyone might, I have stumbled across people talking about Bakugou's breakdown- I don't really know what to call it, but during his fight with Deku and he bursts into tears, admitting he blamed himself from All Might retiring and for being kidnapped- and saying he seemed to have symptoms of PTSD.

Personally, I don't have anything against this like I did with 'Kaminari has ADHD'- I actually find it rather interesting- so with this I'm taking the 'I don't know if he does but it'd be interesting I guess' way to do this. I'm either trying to disprove or prove with this, depends.

So as you might guess, this is going unedited; I will not change what I wrote here once I have the answer. Let's start then, shall we?

Causes

So if you're wondering why I'm choosing to talk about causes for PTSD it is because I want to see if Bakugou has reasons to have PTSD. Has he been through something traumatic enough? (Kamino and/or The Sludge Villain Incident.)

According to the article I'm reading (Post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD)- Symptoms and causes: Mayo Clinic) PTSD develops when you either go through, seen or learnt about an event involving death or threats to it, serious injury (presumably to either oneself or others) or sexual assault.

Now does Bakugou check any of these boxes?

Death or threatened deaths? Well with the Sludge Villain Incident; no. With Kamino; nobody died (as far as I remember) but somebody certainly could have. I believe that falls under threatened death, then?

Serious Injury? Well, Katsuki didn't go to the hospital with neither of those incidents, as far as we're aware. I believe he probably did for Kamino, at least but once again, we can't know.

Sexual assault? No.

Let's go to risk factors now:

•Have severe or long-lasting traumatic experiences.

I would count getting kidnapped and getting trapped in a person made of sludge that was set on stealing his quirk (and breath) as a traumatic experience.

•Were physically injured during the traumatic event.

Not as far as we know but probably as I have already covered.

•Have been exposed to other trauma earlier in life, such as childhood abuse.

No (as far as we know.)

•Have a job that exposes you to traumatic events, such as being in the military or being a first responder.

Does being a hero in training and going through, like, two wars count?

•Have other mental health problems, such as anxiety or depression.

Not as far as we know. But anxiety may be possible, have you seen how he worries?

•Drink too much or misuse drugs.

No.

•Do not have a good support system of family and friends.

Well considering he has a mom who's okay with blaming him for being kidnapped (I will probably make a post about how problematic that is another time) and a dad who doesn't really seem to do a lot, I wouldn't really say he has a good support system. But maybe Kirishima, Deku, the rest of class 1-A, (maybe his old middle school friends) would be a good support system for him?

•Have blood relatives with mental health problems, including PTSD or depression.

Not what we know of.

I've searched up if you could get PTSD from kidnapping and, just as I expected, the answer was: 'Post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) can occur after you have been through a traumatic event, such as a kidnapping.'

Yes, in short words, getting kidnapped could realistically cause PTSD to develop. So; Could the events of Kamino lead him to developing PTSD? Yes, check.

And while I don't know what the Sludge Villain Incident could classify as- a hostage situation? Attempted murder? (Bakuogu was stopped from breathing, after all) Something else?- but presumably it could be traumatic, even though we don't know if it was for Bakugou. So; Could the events of the Sludge Villain Incident lead him to developing PTSD? Probably, maybe.

Now that we've covered if he has the reason; yes. We can move onto if he has the symptoms!

Symptoms

So in the article it says: '

Post-traumatic stress disorder symptoms may start within the first three months after a traumatic event. But sometimes symptoms may not appear until years after the event. These symptoms last more than one month and cause major problems in social or work situations and how well you get along with others. They also can affect your ability to do your usual daily tasks.

Generally, PTSD symptoms are grouped into four types: intrusive memories, avoidance, negative changes in thinking and mood, and changes in physical and emotional reactions. Symptoms can vary over time or vary from person to person.'

Is this important to know? Maybe.

Intrusive memories

Symptoms of intrusive memories may include:

•Unwanted, distressing memories of a traumatic event that come back over and over again.

Based on his line ”I can't get it out of my head! It's like it's constantly playing on loop!” then yes, he has been experiencing this.

•Reliving a traumatic event as if it were happening again, also known as flashbacks.

Yeah, once again based on the line I previously quoted.

•Upsetting dreams or nightmares about a traumatic event.

Not as far as we know but probably.

•Severe emotional distress or physical reactions to something that reminds you of a traumatic event.

Well, would his whole fight with Deku count? Because didn't he fight with Deku because he couldn't stop blaming himself and thinking about Kamino? I'd say he was in severe emotional distress and was reacting rather physically. And it's not just that; when Monoma mentioned both the Sludge Villain Incident and Kamino, he reacted physically.

So far, he's checked three of the boxes (I, of course, don't count the probably with him having nightmares)

Avoidance

Symptoms of avoidance may include:

•Trying not to think or talk about a traumatic event.

Well, he definitely was trying not to think about it (or talk about it) considering he said ”I can't get it out of my head! It's like it's constantly playing on loop! So what the hell am I supposed to do?!” so clearly he was doing everything not to think about it. I count it.

•Staying away from places, activities or people that remind you of a traumatic event.

With Kamino, I don't think we've seen it. But dropping Kamino for a second and instead talking about the Sludge Villain Incident; many think the reason his UA uniform is so baggy (he probably ordered it double his size or something) is because he tries not to remember the Sludge Villain and how stuck he was then. There is strong proof of this because his middle school uniform was his size so he hasn't just always liked to dress like that. There is strong proof that he checks this proof, though nothing confirmed, I don't think.

He checks maybe both of these boxes (still not sure on the last one.)

Negative changes in thinking and mood

Symptoms of negative changes in thinking and mood may include:

•Negative thoughts about yourself, other people or the world.

Yes, he thought being kidnapped was his own fault for ’being weak.’

•Ongoing negative emotions of fear, blame, guilt, anger or shame.

Yes.

•Memory problems, including not remembering important aspects of a traumatic event.

Oh I think his problem is remembering too much of it. No.

•Feeling detached from family and friends.

We haven't seen it, I don't think.

•Not being interested in activities you once enjoyed.

We haven't seen it.

•Having a hard time feeling positive emotions.

He's always struggled with this so that's not because of Kamino or the Sludge Villain Incident.

•Feeling emotionally numb.

Definitely not.

He checks 2- maybe 3- of these boxes.

Changes in physical and emotional reactions

Symptoms of changes in physical and emotional reactions, also called arousal symptoms, may include:

•Being easily startled or frightened.

We haven't seen it.

•Always being on guard for danger.

I don't remember a specific instance but yeah, he definitely seems on guard.

•Self-destructive behavior, such as drinking too much or driving too fast.

Yeah, in the form of running to the danger instead of away from it like a normal person would.

•Trouble sleeping.

We haven't seen it.

•Trouble concentrating.

We haven't seen it.

•Irritability, angry outbursts or aggressive behavior.

Oh yes but then again, this is Bakugou. Do I count it? Did his anger worsen?

•Physical reactions, such as sweating, rapid breathing, fast heartbeat or shaking.

We've seen it from him before; when he had his panic attack after losing to Deku (yes I count that as a panic attack) but this was before Kamino and we know why so we can't tie it back to the Sludge Villain Incident. Ugh, do I count it?

Checks 2- maybe 4- of these boxes.

That's all the symptoms listed but before I come to the conclusion I do need to say this:

Did his behavior change? Yes, I recall Deku pointing out differences in his behavior after the Sludge Villain Incident. So that's one more box he checks.

Now:

Conclusion

He checks 9 boxes IF I don't count the maybes but if I do he checks 13 boxes.

Bakugou- drum roll, please- could have PTSD.

I asked the AI on Snapchat- because I was too lazy to search it up and read some article- and this was the interaction:

How many ’boxes’ (symptoms) do you need to check to have PTSD. How many are required?

To be diagnosed with PTSD, according to the DSM-5 (Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders, Fifth Edition), a person needs to experience a certain number of symptoms from different categories. Specifically, the DSM-5 outlines that a person must have symptoms from each of the following four categories: intrusion, avoidance, negative alterations in cognitions and mood, and alterations in arousal and reactivity. The exact number of symptoms required for a diagnosis can vary, but typically, a person needs to exhibit a certain number of symptoms from each category for a specified duration to be diagnosed with PTSD.

Yes, what is this certain number? Is there a specific one.

In the DSM-5, to be diagnosed with PTSD, an individual typically needs to experience at least one symptom from each of the four categories: intrusion, avoidance, negative alterations in cognitions and mood, and alterations in arousal and reactivity. So, in total, that would be a minimum of four symptoms from these different categories to meet the criteria for a PTSD diagnosis.

Do you need to check all of the boxes from each category?

You don't necessarily need to check all the boxes from each category to be diagnosed with PTSD. The important aspect is that you have a minimum of one symptom from each of the four categories: intrusion, avoidance, negative alterations in cognitions and mood, and alterations in arousal and reactivity. As long as you meet the criteria of having symptoms from each category, the specific symptoms may vary from person to person.

And, considering Bakugou checked at least one (sometimes multiple) of the boxes from the categories then yes, he very likely could have PTSD.

Now, something to remember that this is NOT a professional opinion, this is just an opinion from an overanalyzing idiot from the internet who thinks it's fun to diagnose characters. So I might do this more; either disprove or prove.

As a way to end this; Yes, Bakugou could very likely have PTSD.

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What Goes Around Comes Around.

I am so so sorry. I truly thought I had uploaded this piece but it was a draft. Then found the finished version was corrupted so had to work off my last saved draft. Haven't a Pokémon fic properly before for Goh and Chloe. So consider this my first published fic!! (Turns out I had really rough drafts for a Sword and Shield based story. So guess what I'm working onnnnn!!😍😍)

This was requested by the awesome @grammarrrrrr, who was kind enough to do a fic for me, "Healing Curses and Trauma." and was kind enough to let me try one (1) for him!!

I hope this is ok, please tell me if you would like it changed or anything to add or take away. Enjoy!!

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The day had started off so well. Chloe and the boys had reunited after the Champions Battle and Mew Expedition respectively with their dreams and goals near enough fulfilled. Ash becoming a Champion after his victory over Leon and Goh finally encountering Mew once more, even getting to "hold it on the palm of his hand!"

To celebrate the occasion, the trio and their Pokémon decided that a camp out was the best way to do so. But it was so Chloe could get Goh to admit to Ash that it may be time to go their separate ways now. Goh has learned all he could with Ash, forever grateful for being able to grow into the researcher he always wanted to be and meeting Mew.

But the young girl could see that he couldn't shake off that feeling of potential betrayal to his friends if he ever did so. After an eventful travel to their campsite, enjoying the berries the Poliwag had given them in thanks for saving it from an angry swarm of Spearows, they began reminiscing about their time together as Research Fellows.

Throughout the trip, Chloe had quietly urged Goh to admit to Ash that now was the time to honestly tell the New Champion about his feelings about separating for his own journey, loosening ties to allow himself to be less dependant on his friends. But just when she thought he could do it, he chickens out. It was then she could have kicked herself when Ash casually announced that he was beginning his new journey with just Pikachu.

She saw how Goh couldn't hold it back anymore, tearily asking when Ash had planned to tell him this or if the year they spent together meant anything to Ash. She couldn't blame Ash, the boy was used to saying "See ya when we see ya" to his former travelling companions, having great pleasure in meeting them herself. But she couldn't help the pang of sadness in seeing her life long friend be upset at this new revelation.

Goh couldn't hold back anymore, declaring that since Ash didn't care about it, then their friendship was over and to never talk to him again as he ran off into the woods, his Striker Pokémon, equally as shocked as she was, followed suit.

"Goh wait!!" Ash called out after him, shock has yet to set in for him at what just happened. "What was that all about?"

It was then that Chloe gave the sternest of looks she could muster to the newly appointed World Pokémon Champion. He didn't realise what his words did to harm their friend.

At the same time, she knew Goh was quite secretive about his past and how he had a hard time admitting that making friends was never easy for him.

It took them this trip to the campsite alone to talk about the Abra that would randomly teleport into his family apartment years ago, after witnessing one (1) getting berries from a tree.

With a deep breath, she finally says,

"You were his very first friend, Ash. I don't think you understand how much that meant to him."

Ash, despite being airheaded, really did seem genuinely confused. She supposes that, as someone who always had travel companions and hardships since literally starting his journey, he can easily forget that that it was a difficult task for Goh and even herself to even start their journeys. But all the same, Ash's big heart for people and Pokémon alike has proven that at the end of the day, they all are just people wanting to reach their dreams. Ash took that hard step in sticking with his Pikachu, and the rewards for it has been substantial. And many links were connected thanks to Ash introducing them all at some point or another. So she decided to do something she wouldn't have dreamt on doing before.

"Ash, I understand how things may have been difficult for you when your journey began, but I want you to understand why this isn also the case for Goh. If not, even more difficult. It's not my story to tell from his point of view. But if you care for him, then please listen to what I have seen myself."

Ash and Pikachu shared a concerned look between each other before facing her again, now with a determination shining in their eyes.

"Ok. I don't know what Goh had been through, but I want to be able to help him. I can't help him if I don't know how he came to this conclusion. So please, help me understand."

"Pika!"

With that, Chloe took a deep breath and began to tell her side of the story.

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*FLASHBACK.*

If Chloe had a dime for every time Goh say "The future is at the palm of my hands!", she is certain that she would have a mansion for herself long before now.

Though that was also something she admire about him as well. But that was also when she seen how much of an outcast he had become. Or maybe it was because they couldn't find a way to understand him, he didn't exactly choose to be one.

A child of a Professor, she understands how people can criticise something they don't understand, even when they are presented with the known and most basic of facts. Her father did many a battle in his field to get to where he is at now.

Goh, despite his young age, already understood plenty. Enough to easily cut off the, thankfully patient, Professor Oak. But why did the other children have to be so cruel when he got praised?

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*CURRENT DAY.*

Ash and Chloe were still scavenging around the woods, both they and their Pokémon calling out for their dear friend and hoping to see some sign of him or Cinderace.

"I didn't know it meant so much to him to have me as his friend." Ash says as he looks around the trees. "Those bullies, you said Joshua had a Squirtle back then. I fought him before?"

Chloe grimaces at remembering finding Goh in such a state seeing him again. While he can handle confrontations better now, Chloe understands why there as some people he would much rather avoid.

"He was arrogant, I had my fair share of rivals but he was just a bully. Even after I beat him, he just wouldn't lighten up."

"He still has an ego. And I'm glad that you brought him down a peg or two (2)."

"What did he do to Goh?"

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*FLASHBACK.*

"Why don't you just fight back against them, Goh?" Chloe asked as she pulled up the boy from the dirt. "You're kidding right?" Goh began to protest as he fails to discreetly wipe the tears from his eyes. "I can't fight back someone who is bigger than me! I'm just lucky their Pokémon are in the Daycare Section." Chloe just sighed. Unfortunately she had come across another harassment against Goh as it was wrapping up. Even her own friends had urged her to try and stay away less she took her caught between opposing sides. Well, she would say it's opposings sides had Goh actually fought back. In this case it's more like avoiding being caught in the bully's cross hair. She can't even say she recognise this one (1) in particular. It wouldn't surprise her, Belle had been spreading rumours lately, something about how Goh would belittle anyone who doesn't know anything about a Pokémon before playing victim to get them into trouble. Outrageous lies! Goh, from what Chloe had observed of her longtime friend and fellow classmate for a few months, he's very introverted. Intelligent for sure, being the son of two (2) system engineers and programmers would do that as she too, is a child of a Pokémon Professor and Illustrator. Both bore the heavy expectations to follow in their parents paths in some way but only Goh bore the storm of others doubts and ill intentions. Focusing back to Goh once more, she could see that his injuries are thankfully at a minimal. It was home time now, so she practically pulled him up and towards the main gates. "W-wha?! Where are we going?!" The dark haired boy exclaims at the sudden pull. "Don't you have to meet your friends after school?" "Plans change Goh, you should know that!" She smiles back at him, it was a lie she'll need to apologise to her friends for it later, but he didn't need to know that. "They cancelled so I got time. Let's get you home. Your grandma is staying over too, right?"

"Oi, we weren't finished yet, brainiac."

Oh no, Joshua! He was back with his Squirtle. She hears Goh beginning to panic but without a second thought or a single second to look in the bullys direction, she bolts to the main entrance located just around the corner. If they could just get to the door -

"Use Water gun in front of them!"

She didn't see the shot pass their heads, or how it muddied up the grass they were running all. But she did see each blade of grass as she face planks into it, Goh landing on his rear just beside her, not losing grip of his hand.

She stood in front of her friend to shield him from his harasser.

"Out the way Cerise. Don't want the precious little professor to get in the way of his target now, would we?"

"Stop it! Goh didn't even do anything to warrant any of this harassment!" She tried to mimick the best protective growl she could manage. She doesn't know why, but she's tired of seeing her friend hurt.

She was thanking any Legendary God Pokémon she can think of when the teacher rounded the corner and began scolding the bully. It resulted in a week's ban of bringing his Pokémon to the Daycare. He asked Chloe and Goh if their were any more, but Chloe had to reluctantly keep quiet as Goh said no, having met Joshua's raging face.

They couldn't get a hold of Goh's parents, typical, but thankfully Professor Cerise was nearby to pick them up. It was almost pitiful watching her dad help him clean up before offering a ride back home. Goh's Grandmother thankful that her Grandson was safe and sound, having argued with the school before about the brats behaviour towards Goh. She offered the Cerises some of her homemade soup for their trouble.

Goh was clinging to every word the professor was saying about his field of work, eventually asking questions and answering in turn, testing each others knowledge on Pokémon and the likes. She didn't miss how Goh perked up when his computer that his parents built him was brought up and how proud he was when proudly showing off his well organised files on it. Each Pokémon sorted by type, quadpedal or bipedal, typings. She can name it and he would have it.

It was no wonder he was ahead of everyone in school!! She suppose she could come over every now and then to learn more with him.

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*CURRENT DAY."

"Now I'm really glad that I dealt with that Joshua. Shame it can't be said about Belle." Ash deflated a bit on that.

"I wouldn't worry about that one (1)." She replies, when Ash looks at her she adds: "Remember when you got me back in touch with Serena after the contest in Lilycove City?"

Ash tried to think back on it, before sheepishly apologising about being late that day. But he was glad to see Serena again and her kindness to help Chloe in the show.

"Ash, it's ok. I had fun doing it. But Belle didn't." She heard Ash say "oh?" And recalls the moment she got to witness karma first hand.

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*FLASHBACK."

"And why does SHE get to preform with Serena and I can't?!" Chloe heard a voice practically bawl out on timing with the stomping heels against tiled flooring.

"Competitor Belle please restrain yourself from lashing out." One (1) of the staff tried to calm her down. "Miss Cerise -"

"CERISE?!" Chloe now recognised that shrill voice anywhere now. "The Loser Crybaby Protector?!

"Competitor Belle!" It was Serena's voice that cut through as she came out of the changing room. "That sort of behaviour is not tolerated in Contests."

"But why?! Why the Crybaby Loser Protector." Belle pushed the topic more. "She was the reason I got suspended for no reason!!"

The rumors continues, even now. Chloe was ready to charge in there and confront Belle, but a hand on her shoulder. Turning to find it had been Lisia who had stopped her, a finger against her lips to signal Chloe to be quiet and watch.

"That was your last warning Miss Belle. Malicious behaviour against other competitors have zero (0) tolerance here or anywhere. But I did have the pleasure of speaking to an aquitance of mine who knows of Miss Cerise and Goh." Chloe could feel her chest tighten and her grip around Eevee cause the poor thing to squirm out of her hold and onto her shoulders instead to avoid being crushed. "And it appears that some of yours as well is still continuing this unwarranted behaviour!"

"I know one (1) of the judges here! I will have you kicked out of this contest before you even set foot on that stage!" Belle cockily threatens. "So it's best you have her drop out before you both get kicked to the curb."

"I have already had the pleasure of speaking to the judges already before today's performances. None have confirmed to even heard of you until now."

"I'm sorry Miss Belle," the staff member says, not sorry at all as she removes her hand from her earpiece "But I'm afraid it's now best you leave the premises now, as word of your unruly behaviour have reached the Organisers and Judges and have deemed you unfit for this competition or future competitions."

Chloe's jaw dropped, Lisia smiling just behind her. She turned, unable to form words as she points to Lisia and back to Belle. Lisia just nods and walks off to next on stage. Well, looks like today's competition will be a lot smoother now, whether she won or not at least the competition looks more appealing than ever.

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*CURRENT DAY.*

"So that's why Goh was grinning ear to ear on the boat!" Ash exclaimed. He recalled meeting his old friend Serena literally moments before the boat had set sail. "Glad Serena was there to deal with that bully too."

"Yeah. Last I heard, Belle was dragged out and on a 'not allowed to compete' list." Chloe said happily, before turning serious again. "Ash, that's what you have to understand. Goh has learned a lot from you. Even I learned from you."

"Huh? I don't think I really taught you guys anything." Ash scratched the back of his head. "I only know how to help with battling."

"Not only in battles. But in understanding Pokémon and even ourselves." She explained. "Before, I had no interest in Pokémon and Goh was bullied relentless for being the opposite of me. He was so determined to have Mew as his first Pokémon, but then imagine my surprise when he's back with a Scorbunny! Then he really opens up and became less stubborn about learning things the only way he knew how. Became part of the Mew Project and met the real Mew!"

Here she grabs both of Ash's hands in her own to emphasize how she feels.

"Goh would never have come this far if it weren't for you. I wouldn't have met Eevee. We wouldn't have met all your friends and learn the world is full of opportunities and that there isn't a bully out there that we can't stand up to."

"But if that's the case, why did Goh get upset? We helped him with his panic and trauma with those bullies? Even if it's just helping him get through the panic attacks." Ash asked, upset at what he could have done to be a new cause for one (1).

"Because he feels like that would be betraying you. You declaring your new adventure was so easy for you, that Goh felt like his announcement to do the same was meaningless." She turned away from Ash, scanning at the treelines for their missing friends. "He's afraid that both sides may have just betrayed each other."

Ash looks at his partner, the Electric Mouse Pokémon looking back at him with dropped ears with a said "Pika."

"I'll help him understand why he's wrong about that. It's never a "good bye" but it's really saying "I can't wait to see you again and hear all about your adventures" kind of thing." Ash calmly explains as he continues scanning as well. With determination burning within his eyes, he adds, "And I'll be sure to tell him that when we find him. We can't let things end on bad terms and misunderstandings."

Chloe looks at him, studying him. His raised clenched fist held up in front of him, a determined expression and looking ready to physically deal with a problem and his Pikachu's matching pose helped her realise she also needed to hear the same thing from Ash.

Both her and Goh journeyed so far to get to where they are now. A simple misunderstanding will unravel and tarnish the very lessons they had learned thanks to Ash, their families and the friends and Pokémon that were met along the way. The rain began to lighten up, as if the heavy burden were finally lifting off of her shoulders and would come to an end when Goh realises the same thing.

"Then let's find him and tell him just that then." Chloe agrees, Eevee matching her determination just as much as Pikachu has with Ash. "And when we do, it will be just the start of something new. For all of us."

Both trainers stare each other in the eyes, scaling to see if their words bore the same strength as their actions have. Then grinned. They continue to search before Pikachu hears something and urges them to follow. They had come so far in this journey. The words of those bullies has come back to bite them and turn them into the very things they called Goh. So as she stands their with Cinderace, Pikachu and Eevee, watching them clear everything up and the rain ceasing, she knows that what it truly meant to be side by side with friends who truly love you for who you are as you grow along side with them.

The future truly is at the palm of their hands.

This really helped with my fanfiction. So, to help you, and myself in the future, I reblogged it.

BNHA Dorm Layout + Ships

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So how do the dorms accommodate the ships? 

OK so 5th floor first: Todomomo!  

Momo is the first to react to seeing Shoto’s room

4th floor: Kirimina and Kacchako! (also Kiribaku)

Mina gets to react dramatically to Kirishima’s (Uraraka reacts to everyone’s and we don’t see Bakugo’s so no word on those two).

3rd floor: Tojiro and Kamijiro 

Kaminari reacts to Jiro’s and she critiques his, and Ojiro to Toru’s.

2nd floor: …

I think Deku is specifically stuck on the 2nd floor with characters he isn’t shipped with to avoid making the shipping pattern too clear. Keep up the mystery of who Deku will end up with, you know? (Uraraka does react to his room but she reacts to everyone’s, so while that’s probably the pattern, it’s not made clear).

images courtesy of yutu, retrieved from https://www.pinterest.com/pin/101471797839881626/?lp=true 

So does this mean things? Probably not but it’s still fun.