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I’m going back to starving

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Under 150 kcal whole-food, vegan recipes ❤️ SO MUCH FLAVOR! 🌿 no sweets

Vegan Mushroom Stroganoff (120 kcal)

Root Vegetable Salad with Sweet Potato Crunchies (79 kcal)

Slow Cooker Sweet Potato and Kale Soup (130 kcal)

Christmas Spiced Red Cabbage (use vegan butter/oil) (79 kcal)

Charred Onion and Tomato Salad (81 kcal)

Baked Apple Chips (32 kcal)

Chimichurri Sauce, Oil-Free (I would put over large portabella cap for ~+20 kcal) (8 kcal)

Baked Zucchini Tater Tots (104 kcal)

Air Fryer Beet Chips, Oil-Free (49 kcal)

Spicy Cauliflower Cheese Sauce (44 kcal)

Spicy Vegan Salami (111 kcal)

Smashed Salt & Vinegar Potatoes (must omit oil, will cook fine I promise) (148 kcal)

Candied "bacon" pecans (107 kcal)

Pumpkin Spice Hummus (103 kcal)

Air Fryer Pineapple (90 kcal)

Avocado Green Goddess Dressing, Oil-Free (66 kcal)

Vegan Coleslaw (140 kcal)

Cranberry Risotto Stuffed Mushrooms (40 kcal)

Cauliflower Buffalo Wings (118 kcal)

Polenta Pizza Crust (167 kcal ugh)

Cranberry Broccoli Salad with Poppy Seed Dressing (omit chickpeas) (227 kcal >:( but I have to try this sometime)

holy fucking shit vivien DO IT FOR THE HIP BONES THAT YOU USED TO BE ABLE TO SEE, DO IT FOR THE RIBS YOU USED TO BE ABLE TO SEE, DO IT FOR THE "omg is that your bone?" WHEN HE WOULD TOUCH YOUR SHOULDERS, STOP FUCKING CAVING!!!!

𝚑𝚊𝚜 𝚊𝚗𝚢𝚘𝚗𝚎 𝚎𝚕𝚜𝚎 𝚓𝚞𝚜𝚝 𝚏𝚎𝚕𝚝 𝚜𝚘 𝚋𝚊𝚍 𝚊𝚝 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚒𝚛 𝚎𝚍 𝚕𝚊𝚝𝚎𝚕𝚢? 𝚒 𝚏𝚎𝚎𝚕 𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎 𝚒 𝚞𝚜𝚎𝚍 𝚝𝚘 𝚑𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚜𝚞𝚌𝚑 𝚌𝚘𝚗𝚝𝚛𝚘𝚕, 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚊𝚗 𝚒𝚗𝚌𝚛𝚎𝚍𝚒𝚋𝚕𝚢 𝚜𝚝𝚛𝚘𝚗𝚐 𝚍𝚎𝚜𝚒𝚛𝚎 𝚝𝚘 𝚜𝚞𝚌𝚌𝚎𝚎𝚍. 𝙱𝚞𝚝 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚖𝚘𝚗𝚝𝚑𝚜 𝚗𝚘𝚠 𝚒'𝚟𝚎 𝚓𝚞𝚜𝚝 𝚋𝚎𝚎𝚗 𝚑𝚊𝚕𝚏-𝚊𝚜𝚜𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚒𝚝, 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚒 𝚌𝚊𝚗'𝚝 𝚜𝚎𝚎𝚖 𝚝𝚘 𝚏𝚞𝚕𝚕𝚢 𝚙𝚞𝚕𝚕 𝚖𝚢𝚜𝚎𝚕𝚏 𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚘𝚏 𝚒𝚝. 𝙸'𝚟𝚎 𝚐𝚊𝚒𝚗𝚎𝚍 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚜𝚞𝚛𝚎. 𝙱𝚞𝚝 𝚗𝚘𝚝 𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚛𝚒𝚋𝚕𝚢 𝚖𝚞𝚌𝚑. 𝙸 𝚓𝚞𝚜𝚝 𝚌𝚊𝚗𝚝 𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚢 𝚖𝚘𝚝𝚒𝚟𝚊𝚝𝚎𝚍 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚒 𝚏𝚎𝚎𝚕 𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎 𝚒𝚖 𝚗𝚘𝚝 𝚜𝚒𝚌𝚔 𝚎𝚗𝚘𝚞𝚐𝚑 𝚊𝚗𝚢𝚖𝚘𝚛𝚎

Mom told me I am getting super skinny 🥰🥰

૮ฅ・ﻌ・აฅ OCTOBER 26

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➀ Plain black coffee 200ml - 0 cal

➀ Monster energy zero - 14 cal

➀ Tortilla with with tuna, corn and light mayo - 211 cal

➀ Tortilla with tuna, corn, broccoli, cheese and tomato sauce - 386 cal

Water - 1.4l/2l

Full - 611 cal

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Steps - 9482/10000 - 381 cal

Exercise - No - 0 cal

Burned - 381 cal

I wanna tear every fat part off of my body.

૮ฅ・ﻌ・აฅ NOVEMBER 1-2

The last week was shitty in terms of starving myself. I plateaued at 73 and I haven't been gaining which is nice, but I haven't been losing either.

Because of the holidays, birthdays and other events I couldn't avoid eating normal amounts but sadly I have been craving things I haven't craved in a long time and it's making me crazy.

For example I really don't like white bread, yet I broke my 72 hour fast after the 27th hour because I had this instant need for it. I looked at the slice, conteplated only a little and bit into it. It was such a big slice too. I knew I can't eat it, that I shouldn't eat it, yet I still did.

Fucking other weight losing tactics haven't worked on me before only starving myself did. Only restricting my calorie intake to 800-400-200 did. What am I supposed to do? Stop because I failed even at something so simple like not fucking stuffing my mouth?

I even ate KFC like a pig. Ate the grander and the twist thing then drank the pumpkin spice shake. I knew I shouldn't but I couldn't stop. The craving and the hunger for it was too much.

God I wanna cry. I wanna tear everything out. They were so good, but for how long? Until I finished watching a moist critical video, which was 10 minutes long.

Why can't I wait? Why can't I control it? I hate it so much.

I hate food. I don't want it anymore.

Accurate 🥲