Holy Fucking Shit Vivien DO IT FOR THE HIP BONES THAT YOU USED TO BE ABLE TO SEE, DO IT FOR THE RIBS

I wish to get my main dc acc back :((

reblog and make a wish! this was removed from tumbrl due to “violating one or more of Tumblr’s Community Guidelines”, but since my wish came true the first time, I’m putting it back. :)

Mom told me I am getting super skinny 🥰🥰

i will lose so much weight by the end of the year🕯️

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૮ฅ・ﻌ・აฅ OCTOBER 17

Waking up early is never a pleasant thing, since family is home and they remind me to pack food. Fortunately my mom gives a lift to my brother who starts really early, so she wasn't be able to force me to bring food and my sister and father doesn't really care.

It was so cold today I could see my breath in the air. My dumbass also forgot to pack handcream into my bag because my hands dry out because of the chilly air, so much that it's starts to cut up or something. I could wear gloves sure, but it feels restricting.

Alsoo! I weighed myself in the morning and I was 73.5kg! When I was talking with my best friend I could see it on my face an neck how much thinner it is already so I am really happy.

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➁ Plain black coffee 200ml - 0 cal

➀ Pickwick green tea (lemon) 300ml - 0 cal

➂ Green apples - 291 cal

➁ Homemade margherita pizza - 204 cal

Water - 1.7l/2l

Full - 150 cal

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Steps - 8249/10000 - 330 cal

Exercise - No - 0 cal

Burned - 330 cal

My best friend told me the lowest I should go is 55kg. I am still planning on going until i reach 45kg.

my current favorite pics !! 🩷🍥☁️

Kinda back now

The week been so shitty goddamn. I wanna tear all my organs out. Yippee.

૮ฅ・ﻌ・აฅ NOVEMBER 1-2

The last week was shitty in terms of starving myself. I plateaued at 73 and I haven't been gaining which is nice, but I haven't been losing either.

Because of the holidays, birthdays and other events I couldn't avoid eating normal amounts but sadly I have been craving things I haven't craved in a long time and it's making me crazy.

For example I really don't like white bread, yet I broke my 72 hour fast after the 27th hour because I had this instant need for it. I looked at the slice, conteplated only a little and bit into it. It was such a big slice too. I knew I can't eat it, that I shouldn't eat it, yet I still did.

Fucking other weight losing tactics haven't worked on me before only starving myself did. Only restricting my calorie intake to 800-400-200 did. What am I supposed to do? Stop because I failed even at something so simple like not fucking stuffing my mouth?

I even ate KFC like a pig. Ate the grander and the twist thing then drank the pumpkin spice shake. I knew I shouldn't but I couldn't stop. The craving and the hunger for it was too much.

God I wanna cry. I wanna tear everything out. They were so good, but for how long? Until I finished watching a moist critical video, which was 10 minutes long.

Why can't I wait? Why can't I control it? I hate it so much.

I hate food. I don't want it anymore.

skinny is the only way to prove people wrong.

giving up is just letting you and other people down.