Gideon Is Just As Much A Product Of The 9th As Harrow Is, Just With Different Sets Of Traumas. Harrow

Rock on sister 🤘

been posting about this a lot recently but the essence is this being butch is beautiful i love being butch i grew up feeling so so masculine but when i dressed the way i did and acted how i felt i got told primarily by peers that i was a girly sissy fag and not actually a man

and it took me so long to fucking GET IT cause now i'm a whole-ass adult butch and I'm like oh FUCK, i was never a man OR a boy, i was never manly

i was fucking butch since day one

and also realizing that my experiences with gender, identity and presentation growing up are SO in line with those of AFAB butches and dykes

i've always been butch, i felt SO dysphoric about my body hair when it made me view myself as a man and when others viewed me as a man for it but now that i've got tits and more importantly people who don't fucking misgender me i'm like OH FUCK

i love my hairy legs and pits, i love my voice of gorgeous gravel-smoke, i love dressing up to scare off creeps when i'm out with my girl, i love looking all tough and masc and rough and tumble and then letting her tell me what to do (hehe, oops), i love my tattooed skin, my inability to conform to society's norms of femininity

i fucking love being butch shoutout to the boys that called me gay for writing poetry for girls i've chosen the name Cassandra to honor your demented gift of prophecy but i'll just call myself Cassidy most days because i feel like it

Present!

superficial but nonzero overlap with Wicked and The Locked Tomb where are my fellow unwell individuals in the venn diagram at

Selfish indeed.

But you don’t understand, Mercy. If he had let you guys do it perfectly, then you might be more powerful than him and you might not need him anymore! He wouldn’t be able to control things! How could you ask him to do something like that, when that might mean he ends up alone again?! Especially when you could just kill your very best friend and stay dependent on Jod instead, thereby guaranteeing him company for eternity? Pretty selfish of you…

Goals

My girlfriend told me this once a night out and it's lived rent free in my head since

So eerie and wholesome at the same time. 🥘🧌

Little Xallergh and her hags moms

Transition goals 😈

“It's one of patriarchy's perfect self-perpetuating cycles: the demonisation of older women ensures we do not wish to identify with or learn from them, so cannot gain any knowledge to prepare us for our own experience of ageing. Instead we turn away from our future selves.”

- Hags, Victoria Smith

This hits WAY too close to home for me.

Escapism

It’s collaboration like this that makes me love my community lol 🖤

Also L’s outfit works WAY too well for it not to have been pre-meditated and hidden in the back of her closet.

Light answers a tough question

Alternatively, the Warp from Warhammer 40K. Heavy metal space-hell infested with demons and madness. If your ship isn’t shielded properly you get invaded and and driven insane. Fun stuff! John would have loved it.

The River is essentially just the Warp combined with the aesthetic of Hades’ soul whirlpool at the end of Disney’s Hercules.

the argument between john and mercymorn over what metaphors to use to describe river travel to the baby lyctors is so funny to me as i’m rereading slightly behind my best friend reading the series for the first time.

bcuz when they told me they were still kind of confused by it, i first went ok did you ever read a wrinkle in time? it’s similar in concept to the way they travel in the book

no? ok wait it’s actually like minecraft. which i now think is the best metaphor. you go into the nether, have to deal with difficult terrain and a bunch more shit that can kill you, but you travel a short distance in the nether and end up much farther in the overworld

I am also very well fed from both of them lol, but I wonder how much of the mixup happens due to all the inaccurate white-passing Griddlehark fan-art… 🤔

(Coming from a pasty white person who went to their first queer Halloween party as Gideon full disclosure)

Happy to live in a universe where I sometimes come across fanart and am momentarily confused bc which ginger gay with the golden eyes and sunglasses is it??