“– I Did Crave Attention, But I Refused To Humiliate Myself By Asking For It.” 

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Me: They still like me. Thank God.

Breakfast: Vanilla yogurt with banana (338) & Black tea

- Honestly I did not feel my best after eating this. I think I should stick to savory breakfast or no breakfast.

Lunch: German beef roulade with bread dumplings (756)

- Definitely could have gone without the dumplings, but my grandma made it…

Snack: Christmas cookies (203)

Dinner: Tuna and spinach cooked in tomato sauce, with a handful of tortilla chips (388) & Camomile tea

Shameful snack: potato chips (300)

- I feel really guilty about it.

Total: 1985cal 👎

Not the best… but no binge!

I wish I genuinely didn’t like food. But I love it so much.

I ended up stress eating because of how much my family yells at me

Whenever my boyfriend jokes about like being the best or anything like positive. I just go with it. Like heck, yeah, you’re the best! There is nobody better than you. I love him so much.

How I be looking like in 3dblrr

WIEIAD: 02.01.2025

Breakfast: Chicken & vegetable soup (118)

- I felt really good after eating this. I should try eating soup for breakfast for often.

Lunch: leftovers from yesterday; lentils (116) and chicken thigh (243)

Snack: Tangerines (100)

Dinner: mushroom soup (33), hard boiled eggs (130), toast (140) and cheese (56)

Shameful snack: half of the musli hearts package (116), and two tortillas (386) toasted with ham (86)

- Honestly felt really good after eating everything today.

Total: 1524 (Lower than other days recently)

Please Lord, i don’t want to count down the hours until i can eat. I want to forget to eat..

I miss the days where I could fast WITHOUT GETTING SO NAUSEOUS and getting a migraine.

Like hello my fat body… we didn’t eat for like 14 hours… we skipped two meals. Chill out. I feel like a rattled old dog.

Reminder for future me:

Binging will NOT make you happy and will NOT fix anything. Binging will bring so many tears and nausea and bloating and the food won't even taste good because you shove it down your throat too fast.

I feel like shit right now after yesterdays binge and you do NOT want to feel this way. You DON'T want to binge.

And remember that a binge won't ruin anything. You just have to push through afterward. Remember future me, remember how long I had to fast and how the lax cramps felt in addition to the guilt

YOU DO NOT WANT TO BINGE