Goals✨

If you develop an eating disorder when you are already thin to begin with, you go to the hospital.

If you develop an eating disorder when you are not thin to begin with, you are a success story.

So when I evaporated, of course everyone congratulated me on getting healthy.

Girls at school who never spoke to me before stopped me in the hallway to ask how I did it.

I say, “I am sick.”

They say, “No, you’re an inspiration.”

How could I not fall in love with my illness?

With becoming the kind of silhouette people are supposed to fall in love with?

Why would I ever want to stop being hungry when anorexia was the most interesting thing about me?

~When The Fat Girl Gets Skinny, Blythe Baird

i wish that surge of wl motivation that comes right before bed would stay the entire day 💔

Every morning, shivering and walking naked to the scale 😬⚖️

trust me that taste is NOT worth the c@ls.

my tips for f4st!ng <3

1. distract yourself! if you're at home i'll admit this is a little hard, but it IS very helpful :)) clean your room! do your makeup! do your nails! listen to music! make playlists! call your friends! make your bed! organize!

2. try on clothes that are too small for you! this one gets me the most, it's rlly triggering knowing that you aren't there yet (at least for me)

3. look at th!!!nsp000! i prefer looking it up on here or pinterest!

4. make lists of clothing you want to buy at your gw, if you f4st maybe you'll actually be able to fit into them one day

5. sleep!!! this one is the hardest for me lolz :p but you can't feel hungry if you're asleep :)

6. go on a walk! go walk around your neighborhood! or walk up and down your stairs! walk in circles in your room! it burns c4l0r!3s & distracts you :))

7. drink water!!! when you first wake up drink water, when you feel hungry drink water, when you feel tired drink water, when you want to quit drink water

8. stay away from the kitchen! the food in there is gross anyways & you don't need it! if you're not around food you won't want it as much!

9. dye your hair! this is usually very time consuming & will most likely take your mind off food

10. paint your nails! i know i included this earlier but i feel like it includes its own section :)) if your nails are wet you can't really eat food.

11. keep a reminder of your w3!ght! if you have a mirror in your room write your w3!ght on it, constantly remind yourself that's how much you w3!gh.

12. write your w3!ght on your hand! any time you go to grab food you'll see it and remember why you're doing this, how far you've come and how much farther you have to go.

there's def more but this is all i can think of rn! if you have any helpful tips share them in the comments <3

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