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Finally Had The Guts To Start A Proper Bullet Journal 📖🎉👀 | Some Thoughts

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Around the last days of August, I finally had the resolve of bullet journaling my way out of a busy month of school work, exams, college admission tests, a youth service that I'd never think of participating, and esp (of course, once again) an inktober attempt juggling all these things in a span of thirty one days. Spoiler: I got by and actually (barely) survived ✨🎉

I'd say it is a proper bullet journal now because of such elements based from Ryder Cowell's system of the whole bujo. I never really dug deep into the bujo community until I realized that bullet journaling was waaay more flexible than I thought. So I researched the whole concept and it turns out I was actually "bullet journaling" even way back since I used to do (food and skincare) logs, (anime & manga) trackers and (idea/music) lists before then, only the difference is that it was all over the place, kept in an unorganized manner unlike a proper bujo separating them by months for convenience of the viewer's eye onto the paper he/she's seeing.

I realized I was about to go down if I didn't kept track of the things that was happening last month. I decided to put my inktober works inside my bujo along with my test permits and weekly tasks in school. You could say that this notebook helps me stabilize equal amounts of time with school related tasks and my creative projects I've been working on since idk... day 1? *sighs. (To be honest, my heart is aching to be in two places at once -_-) It's been a long time for me doing multiple things, and I miss concentrating, focusing on one thing with all your heart. That's why I decided getting things real with legit planning my days from now on. I still think its scary doing this since I'm more of a "surprise attack" person than an organized one at that.

I think I did a pretty good job on my first month. We're now in the early days of November and I think I'm making sure I'll get things by. Bullet journaling is kind of therapeutic tbh, been tracking my sleep lately bc of my weird patterns but I'm sure I'll be fine soon haha 😃

Hopes and dreams,

-花 🌸

Ps: stickers and things aren't really necessary, they just make me happy by seeing colors every now and then hehe

Pps: not posting it that much online = also don't wanna stress over how it looks and not that visually pleasing since it isn’t about that at all heheh

“Everything done with purpose, pure intent, through love and in balance, reaps great reward.✨ @dulceruby”

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School started earlier this week but

Hello Internet.

I feel really bad for not storytelling my summer since it’s a ritual thing here. It’s when I am most vacant. I felt like it missed the heat haze rants like before. Summer this year wasn’t really that hot compared to last year. I mean there were times where it was 35 degrees but the wind was sailing and lots of clouds shaded from time to time. The grass wasn’t dying and the avocados were at the right time. I came across flaming fire trees, bougainvillaes, those white tropical flowers (dunno what they’re called but) and yellow weeping flowers on trees (dunno what they were called but they were sooo pretty esp being near the shores of beaches). Flowers were blooming EVERYWHERE and I loved it. This was for the month of May though. April was kind of the shattered-hopes-but-trying-to hold-on-what’s-still-there feeling. I enrolled afternoon art sessions near my house to cope and make myself busy with one of the things I love, and that’s painting. 

I’ve been also jogging almost every after dusk to feel less crappy and take care of myself. I also took care of my built-up acne prone skin from school stress and student research. But that all has now passed and I took the greatest relief EVER. And right now, I think that the universe just wants me to accept my fate for the time being and just go where the wind takes me. As long as I keep my doors and windows open with new ideas & chances and stand on my roots, maybe I’ll fly myself to where I’ve been wanting to go and be. ☺

Hopes & dreams,

- 花。

Life lately 😐

⛅ First thing's first, is that I HAVEN'T EATEN ANY OF THIS YEAR'S AVOCADOES 😞

I get my avocadoes from friends and relatives who are lucky enough to have their own avocado trees and it always gets crazy when it's in season. Somehow this year, the trees are late and I felt a missing piece of summer when I didn't celebrated it with my avocadoes. Huhuhu

⛅ I wasn't feeling really good last April when it comes to doing the things I love, I had no motivation and was super out of it and I didn't know why. Back then, my thoughts concluded and blamed some retrograde (lol) and didn't arrive any "final" decision because I always keep changing my mind (which sucked tbh). So I wanted to escaped my out of that through reading volumes and I mean VOLUMES of comics, manga, webtoons, watched youtube videos of every kind until around the first days of May, I found Mateusz Urbanowicz's channel full of the kind of art I love & I want to renshuu(!!). It was also around this time that I felt like I was back on my feet again (but back to square one since I was out of it for the past months even school had ended). Clara Benin's new song also came out in a demo posted on her channel and THIS, THIS was indeed an eye opening thing when I heard it for the first time, always struck by her words. Wrestle helped me so much during that strange time.😌

⛅ So I came back and had my ooh moments together with me and I was straight on with planning personal projects. I started off with a scenery practice with a twitter photoset of Ghibli scenery (WHICH I STILL HAVEN'T FINISHED YET BECAUSE HUHU 💔 I WANNA FINISH IT!). I felt like I was in the zone (lol) and I was soo into it but it got cut off right away because a summer job called in that was supposed to be already there last April but they started late in the middle of May so I suddenly got my hands full 😐 Ended the summer with a tiring job that unexpectedly and barely paid smh (not going back there ever) 💔 The zone is gone but even now I still want to finish what I've started aaa timing sucks hmp.

⛅ SENIOR YEAR!! School started and I kinda miss my previous class since they were all kind of approachable and easy to talk to compared to this year. I observed that I don't talk much to this class but we'll see as time flies since it's still the first three weeks of school so 🌞 I also observed that I suddenly have more time in between periods and that maybe I could be more productive instead of sleeping & staring at the open space haha 🙆

Let's just see how everything goes

Australia's burning, unsustainable tourism slowly thrives in my island, bleaching corals almost everywhere. Being just a mere spectator in all of this totally sucks. A decade for change and action please. 💚 Let's do what we can, we have no time for wars.

There has been a whale shark interaction recently established for tourism here in my place and it was suspected for feeding. Whale sharks follow a migratory path for food in the waters and if the feeding and baiting goes on, then their paths are definitely disrupted. The province has been on the issue for quite some time now, and orders were given to the municipality to take necessary action. But from what I have heard, people operating the site didn't claim to feed the fish but instead baiting them. I personally don't know how that differentiates with feeding. I find it strange how people desperately find ways to protect the obviously wrong things.

I had zero knowledge of the whale sharks before I encountered them in Oslob, Cebu. Back then, they were feeding them with uyap (baby shrimp). I knew nothing about the massive ecological disturbance of the people and the business did to our waters. But I'm here trying my best to use what I had learned back then and do as much as I can. So far, volunteering has been my greatest achievement and I look forward to my contributions though small, at the very least it's enough to contaminate the minds of other people haha 😂😉

Been listening to Reese since I got the CD and had to immediately rip out everything mwahaha. I also performed A Song About Space for a project hehe *space shuttles*

It’s still hasn’t sink in that the one I’ve been reading over the past six years has finally reached to its conclusion. 😭 Fairy Tail made me realize something back then and I’m forever grateful for this work. ❤

(My Gray & Juviaaa 😭💕)

— Gray’s Feelings💙.

Last week’s weekend escape to Pamilacan Island! It was so nice and peaceful huhu my best afternoon naps were here  (~￣▽￣)~

There was no “water” so we just washed our hair with salt water haha

Made some minty lemon & cucumber and baked french bread topped with tomatoes, basil, and mozarella ♡