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This was way back around September 2013. Glad I took a photo before it was drawn over by my little bro minutes later. Btw that’s actually a green pen lololol

Quarter II Rants (sorry)

I deserve a good long summer vacation!!

(4/8/19: Samal Island, Davao del Norte, PH)

☕ Quarter I was all about finishing tasks, senior thesis, and graduation. Those three months finally passed and I’m grateful to say I did a pretty good job keeping my shit together. This is my self-report of my second quarter of 2019 with the intention of moving on after six years of my environment molding me into an anxious stem student but who also has the intention of doing art in the future. It was hard juggling two different things, and I bet it will also get harder soon. I flunked my exam to get to my dream uni/arts course. The only doors open for me were science courses but soredemo I’m still grateful for these chances. Maybe the universe is still saying “not yet” to myself for now.

Days after I checked my exam results and the morning after graduation day, I immediately flew south to attend a youth conference with my relatives. To me, it felt like an escape from my problems back home by sheltering myself through the event. There were lots of self-reflection and I can definitely say it helped me made some decisions. Don’t get me wrong, I actually did had a fun time!! No regrets.

(4/9/19: Pithecophaga jifferyi sketches - The Philippine Eagle Center, Malagos, Davao City, PH)

☕ Witnessed Kamikazee and December Avenue music huhu 💕 Feels surreal to hear your songs from spotigy/youtube on replay to live concerts with tons of people.

(4/2919: Kamikazee - HNU Oval)

(5/1/19: December Avenue - CPG Sports Complex)

☕ Did a beach/underwater-themed wedding guestbook commission!! I had fun experimenting different textures for the cover, illustrating a photo of them together, and painting different sea creatures on the pages!!

☕ Had a 20-days summer job at the provincial capitol. They newly built the place and was assigned to a very pretty office. Also met new found friends!! 💕

☕ We did our part for World Oceans Day with a beach cleanup held by Plastic Free Bohol (a local NGO I hope to volunteer more often!!) After picking up trashes, we went ahead to find a good spot to chill/sun bask with my friends.

(6/8/19: World Oceans Day - Doljo Beach, Panglao Island & Bool, Tagbilaran City, Bohol)

Other friends also did a mini mangrove planting project in Bool’s coastal areas!! So proud of my batch mates 💕

As someone who’s taking a college course that mainly covers ocean conservation and marine life (maybe in another post hehe), figured at least participate local cleanups (as if it’s our last haha) even if commuting to the venue’s a challenge, all efforts definitely doesn’t go to waste :)

Quarter II was an experience of taking my longest break and I definitely believe that I deserved that haha! Quarter III starts this month and all college prep should start now. School starts in August so I think I still have time lounging on this cave lol

I think I made good decisions so far and had good realizations during my break. Whatever happens, happens. I did my work and arrived setbacks, but I’ll try and try again no matter how long it takes. I’m also interested in my upcoming field in uni so I’ll take it as a stepping stone to my intentions, old and new. :)

Lalaban po ako ulit.

Hopes and dreams,

- 花 🌸

The universe has a body and soul and evolves through cosmic time. As microcosms of stardust, we do the same.

Deepak Chopra (via purplebuddhaproject)

Made some minty lemon & cucumber and baked french bread topped with tomatoes, basil, and mozarella ♡

Summer Days with my black pen

It’s a shame that I was with my improvised sketch pad and black pen for the past sixty days. In the end, I was in my parent’s room hiding from all the heat haze that has been happening all around the house. I couldn’t even do my ‘serious’ drawing and painting because of the summer heat. I wanted to be a little productive so I filled my hands only to my beloved laptop, stack of drawing paper I decided to book-bind and a black pen stolen from a cabinet upstairs (*pats self*). And so today, I am just gonna share what I had done for the past two months of heaaat ;_; 

(that photo above says: im learning french this year yaaaay :D )

right now I'm eating avocado ice cream while writing this hehehe

The state must be brought into harmony with the universe, and the musical instruments which could accomplish this must be integrated with the cosmic forces --- with the changing seasons, with wind, thunder, water and fire, with eternal space, and with all matter.

                                                                  - The Heritage of Music

Before my case of japanophilia, I use to have piano lessons at my grade school for a year. But I stopped the following year due to some expenses and other errands and ended up discontinuing the whole thing (tbh it really broke my heart ;_; ) I really loved playing the piano so I studied it myself. Got to learn the basics and with the help of Google-sensei and youtube tutorials (yes youtube tutorials omg) little by little I can read sheets and play beautiful pieces of sound on my 49-key keyboard. 

*gambatte*

- That haiku above was when I was finishing halfway through a simple but beautiful piece by Schumann. I FINALLY MASTERED IT. one summer goal checked haha

- Life goals: Play the Violin

- I still have shigatsu feeeeels aaaaah ;_; When I first watched Your Lie In April, my love for music grew even more :”) I will never forget this one.

Music has always been there for me. Even before my craaazy anime/pop/street fashion culture (obsession) passion 

and the rest are just complaints about my sad life

kidding. what a shameful entry huhu

My summer days was like this:

- Priscilla Ahn’s song from When Marnie Was There by Studio Ghibli <3

 no need to explain it. The song says everything.

- I’ve been looking up into lolita fashion lately. yaaaay lololol

- When your just streaming episodes on the internet but the connection suddenly stopped and gets back again seconds after.

- Finishing an 11-12 episode series at 2 am. It gets better.

- When the sun is lurking behind you while your just trying to be in your cute and innocent-and-trying-to-be-productive self. (you can’t even go outside and have fun it’s like the heat is forcing you to be with your phone or your laptop)

There’s nearly a week of summer vacation right now. In fact, the only way to describe this feeling is this

hope your reading this until the end of this post. Until next time!

truly yours,  花/ Hana :)

low tide

I’m kinda missing the part where around this time of year, when the air gets colder and the sun doesn’t shine DIRECTLY to your face, you go head on with passion projects and multiply your productivity by a thousand. But this year, reality just hits right into you like having no escape at all. All those “priorities” seem to lurk behind you and you feel all guilty when you’re not doing anything with them. It’s a weird feeling, and when you try to escape or just slip away from them, they all come back and the cycle goes on and on. 😥

But I try to comfort myself with little things like listening to new music (at 2am lol) or add new pages to my notebooks and still deal with all the different things that’s happening around.

I don’t want to be half-assed with my actions and I want them to be from my guts and insidesss and still be awesome to things I either hate or like. 😂🙆

This too shall pass.

Hopes & dreams,

花。

Finally Had The Guts To Start A Proper Bullet Journal 📖🎉👀 | Some Thoughts

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Around the last days of August, I finally had the resolve of bullet journaling my way out of a busy month of school work, exams, college admission tests, a youth service that I'd never think of participating, and esp (of course, once again) an inktober attempt juggling all these things in a span of thirty one days. Spoiler: I got by and actually (barely) survived ✨🎉

I'd say it is a proper bullet journal now because of such elements based from Ryder Cowell's system of the whole bujo. I never really dug deep into the bujo community until I realized that bullet journaling was waaay more flexible than I thought. So I researched the whole concept and it turns out I was actually "bullet journaling" even way back since I used to do (food and skincare) logs, (anime & manga) trackers and (idea/music) lists before then, only the difference is that it was all over the place, kept in an unorganized manner unlike a proper bujo separating them by months for convenience of the viewer's eye onto the paper he/she's seeing.

I realized I was about to go down if I didn't kept track of the things that was happening last month. I decided to put my inktober works inside my bujo along with my test permits and weekly tasks in school. You could say that this notebook helps me stabilize equal amounts of time with school related tasks and my creative projects I've been working on since idk... day 1? *sighs. (To be honest, my heart is aching to be in two places at once -_-) It's been a long time for me doing multiple things, and I miss concentrating, focusing on one thing with all your heart. That's why I decided getting things real with legit planning my days from now on. I still think its scary doing this since I'm more of a "surprise attack" person than an organized one at that.

I think I did a pretty good job on my first month. We're now in the early days of November and I think I'm making sure I'll get things by. Bullet journaling is kind of therapeutic tbh, been tracking my sleep lately bc of my weird patterns but I'm sure I'll be fine soon haha 😃

Hopes and dreams,

-花 🌸

Ps: stickers and things aren't really necessary, they just make me happy by seeing colors every now and then hehe

Pps: not posting it that much online = also don't wanna stress over how it looks and not that visually pleasing since it isn’t about that at all heheh

eagle hunting

Scenery Practice 🌱

Found a beautiful photo set of From Up On Poppy Hill on Twitter and decided to paint them. I’ve got to say that I am actually learning perspectives and painting details in these works such the sunlight, shadows, and especially in painting them distinctly (when it comes to the distance of the trees and other objects). Scenery from films like Ghibli and Shinkai help a lot and I’m really trying to incorporate these ooh moments I’ve had right now, hopefully & eventually using it for another project which will be painting my favorite corners/places in my city. (yay soon)🌞🎨✏