okay am Heavily dreading hangout tmrw barf barf blech. am only happy bc will get to eat green curry for dinner. would be fine if he didn't text like a moron. already knew i hated when men say shit like "good girl," but did not realize how much i hate when men call me the following over text: "ma'am" and "miss [insert neighborhood i live in]." like wtf we barely know each other it's not even funny. also he only said "ma'am" i think bc i was taking most of the initiative in deciding shit for this hangout bc he's stupid. he's the one that texted to hangout first like grow a pair?!? he asks me what to eat. i ask asian or western. he says asian. i give several options. he picks one. i then suggest the time (i thought he would but it's only because i forgot he's stupid- i would also like to note he specifically asked for my number under the guise of determining a time for the hangout), to which he says "yes ma'am." like GOD FORBID A WOMAN TAKE INITIATIVE BC YOU'RE NOT DOING JACKSHIT. LIKE WHY AM I MA'AM ALL OF A SUDDEN. LIKE EW. WTF. i was gonna buy dinner to atone for ghosting last year but now im so traumatized i feel he owes me further compensation. please send help and thoughts and wishes and prayers and whatever tf because i'm gonna need to be severely liquored and/or drugged up to get to and survive tmrw night
just got my first good morning text and ew i dont like it i dont like it
i miss my friends
all the #joever memes have just made me realize it was prounounced like "over" and not "forever"...
wow someone's really stressing me out i'm really fighting the urge to buy some cigs :)
aaaaaaaaaand then after ur emo break someone makes everything feel okay <3 i love my manager sometimes
i just took 30 ml of nyquil and i think i know what self love means now
looking back on old pictures... i know people always say they didn't realize how good they had it but man... things have gotten so much better since...
just realized what i want- i want someone who will be there for me when i wake up drunk at 4:21am and refuse to watch anything but sam raimi's spider-man
it's 3:28am and i am so exhausted but i literally cannot fall asleep because i am too excited to eat pizza tmrw why am i literally a rat in nyc
help i can't sleep the west wing theme song is playing on loop in my head