Aaaaaaaaaand Then After Ur Emo Break Someone Makes Everything Feel Okay

just realized what i want- i want someone who will be there for me when i wake up drunk at 4:21am and refuse to watch anything but sam raimi's spider-man

so you know how i was dreading the hangout on friday? well what if it goes well and he invites me to a kickback with his friends who r all very rich too and i get to be friends with a bunch of rich people in a good way and find a rich boyfriend like what if bc that sounds really fun to me

was having an absolute shit afternoon for no reason but now i'm at the park and it's a gorgeous summery evening and there's strawberry switchblade and even though i'm wearing my cheesecake hat bc of bad hair day everything feels okay. ✿

ugh almost got ASSAULTED by a bee ew like keep your chubby furry body away from me

just landed and omg like this is so cliche but nothing prepares you for seeing the literal statue of liberty herself from the airplane window like what

sometimes you find yourself sitting on a curb in front of the dumpsters and next to the sewer, looking up at the fancy high-rises around you and wondering where the fuck it all went wrong

okay am Heavily dreading hangout tmrw barf barf blech. am only happy bc will get to eat green curry for dinner. would be fine if he didn't text like a moron. already knew i hated when men say shit like "good girl," but did not realize how much i hate when men call me the following over text: "ma'am" and "miss [insert neighborhood i live in]." like wtf we barely know each other it's not even funny. also he only said "ma'am" i think bc i was taking most of the initiative in deciding shit for this hangout bc he's stupid. he's the one that texted to hangout first like grow a pair?!? he asks me what to eat. i ask asian or western. he says asian. i give several options. he picks one. i then suggest the time (i thought he would but it's only because i forgot he's stupid- i would also like to note he specifically asked for my number under the guise of determining a time for the hangout), to which he says "yes ma'am." like GOD FORBID A WOMAN TAKE INITIATIVE BC YOU'RE NOT DOING JACKSHIT. LIKE WHY AM I MA'AM ALL OF A SUDDEN. LIKE EW. WTF. i was gonna buy dinner to atone for ghosting last year but now im so traumatized i feel he owes me further compensation. please send help and thoughts and wishes and prayers and whatever tf because i'm gonna need to be severely liquored and/or drugged up to get to and survive tmrw night

what does crying while watching the same jim and pam edit on loop mean

okay so. omg i finally did the hair curling thing i've been trying to do and it turned out pretty good! gotta work on the other side more but that'll come w time... i watched the minecraft movie today and boy. it was... something alright..................... kinda almost asked someone out today but chickened out. m kept goading me on and giving me delusions but i resisted her dw. 😌👍 i did take initiative in another way though upon returning home (see: following people on instagram- now that i've written it out it seems so small and inconsequential lol). yay. trying to pull myself together ugh why does growth hurt sm... since driving in seattle on saturday and feeling how exhilarating it is to do something you're terrified to do i'm trying to do more things that scare the crap out of me... might go to a random concert friday night? by myself? ugh idk

wow someone's really stressing me out i'm really fighting the urge to buy some cigs :)