So Far So Good

Same me, new plans

Woke up today and ate some leftover pizza from the fridge. It always feels so greasy and never makes me feel okay. My grandma was already going to drop off lunch for me but I guess I have no self-control.

Always thinking of an idealistic life where I can live like the rest of the put-together asian kids you'd see in a k or c-drama, I can't really get myself in the moment now. But during the occasional moment of clarity in the present that I have every so often, I can see that I'm pretty much in shambles.

I should be exercising, cleaning my room, wearing nicer clothing, studying for school- why do I load myself up with APs even though I never do homework? I'll never know. I guess I like to live out some aspects of my dream life while neglecting others.

I want to get out of this greasy failure life and live out my dreams as someone who's put together and productive.

can i come over and play for 10000 years

The Nintendo DS Eshop closes soon! :(

Starting March 27th, 2023, Nintendo is closing the doors to its eshop for the Nintendo 3DS systems and the Wii U. This means no more access to purchasing games or downloading demos, even through download codes. Even more, any payment feature on the systems will be disabled, including the Streetpass Mii Plaza, Nintendo Badge Arcade, and theme shop.

This means that today and tomorrow are the last days you can [legally] download this kind of content to your 3DS or Wii U system!

Since 2022, Nintendo has restricted users from adding funds directly to a 3DS account, but this can be sidestepped through a linked Nintendo Network ID wallet.

Thankfully, we can still enjoy online play, the only restriction being transactions.

I'll miss it so much!! Thank you, Nintendo eShop, for so many fun games! I'll be charging my 3DS today to buy Stella Glow through a friend's recommendation. Does anyone have any last-minute game suggestions?

<3Caramel

Can I come over and lie on your bed and fall asleep while you play mario kart

Fresh air

I'm not sure if it's just the maturity and thoughts that come with growing up, but recently so much of my mind has been taken up with thoughts and plans for the future- finally being able to accomplish goals and dreams I've had forever. Opportunities opening up to fulfill empty wishes and feelings I've had for as long as I remember, and finally being old enough to work on them- yet somehow still young enough to keep my dreams alive. Feels like I've stepped above the clouds.

Is anyone else feeling like this? Is this how growing up feels like?

There's so much I want to do and so little time, but maybe I can prioritize and ration myself to each and every thing I'd like to accomplish, maybe I can live more than I've ever thought I could.

When I'm all old and grey, I'm going to miss this feeling of growing up. It's alright, though- I'll make sure to treasure it as it passes.

<3 Caramel

"Where are we, Sen?"

I miss the girl I used to be

I'm back! Sorry I haven't been active lately, life planning is getting into my head, and I've been working on a big passion project I'll share with you all soon ^^ also, thank you my lovely @pixo0 for reviving me with those sweet messages.

Here's some photos I took but forgot to post— I took them at the height of spring.

Ah— I feel like I wasted the long-awaited cherry blossom season just staying inside and drawing... I guess there's always next year. Time seems to move faster recently anyways.

How has everyone been doing? I miss you.

" It's not dango, it's tongjyun!! 💢💢 "

My study snack today, I thought they would be cuter if I drew them faces ^^

Personal stuff and organization

This is the first blog style post I've made in a while, huh?

I've recently gotten a lot more organized since I've gotten a bed with storage underneath. This one's from Ikea, so it'll be really nice quality compared to what I've had before.

Plans for the summer consist of three summer courses, organizing my things, and planning a project I've been referring to as Project A. Originally, my family was planning to go to Disneyland in the US during the summer- but the economy really sucks right now so we need to cut down on our spending a lot- so we're thankfully going to be spending less.

Sometimes it feels like my sister and I are the ones mose scared of the way my mum handles money- we get that she grew up without much and is now feeling a lot more safe about spending, but it seems impossible to convince her that we don't need to spend money to be happy. God, why are financial problems so complicated? This really sucks :/

I'm glad that we're not going all that far, though, since for one, we're finally cutting down on our spending for trips and excess items and meals, and second of all, we're just not going out too much anymore. Perfect for a homebody like myself with a ton of projects to do over the summer, right?

On the topic of projects, I feel like I've been latching onto Project A so tightly because it seems like the one dream I have that actually feels possible and that I'd be extremely happy with. Not going to talk abou it much on this blog until I'm sure I'm going to be doing it, though.

Another "project" of mine is basically to pretend to be that one Chinese kid that's on top of things and productive- you know, the colour-coded candy-powered note-taking kid with all the highlighters and gel pens.

I've actually gotten some more progress on that dream, too- having sorted together all my paper, binders, and letter writing materials to slip into one of my bed drawers.

Looking pretty good- almost like I've got this little itty-bitty part of my life organized.

My mood's been really rocky as of recent- not like I'm feeling sour all the time but mood swings are definitely what's been up lately. Sucks, really, but I'll get over it. Social issues and miscommunication is what's been bothering me, but I think I'm at the end of that tunnel now as far as I can see.

Thankfully, I've gotten some really great friends that are absolutely wonderful to me and really just sweet.

I'll be okay.

<3Caramel