Woke up today and ate some leftover pizza from the fridge. It always feels so greasy and never makes me feel okay. My grandma was already going to drop off lunch for me but I guess I have no self-control.
Always thinking of an idealistic life where I can live like the rest of the put-together asian kids you'd see in a k or c-drama, I can't really get myself in the moment now. But during the occasional moment of clarity in the present that I have every so often, I can see that I'm pretty much in shambles.
I should be exercising, cleaning my room, wearing nicer clothing, studying for school- why do I load myself up with APs even though I never do homework? I'll never know. I guess I like to live out some aspects of my dream life while neglecting others.
I want to get out of this greasy failure life and live out my dreams as someone who's put together and productive.
God, I wonder what kind of life I could have if I could just motivate myself normally. Maybe I'd have more integrity, having enough courage to tell the truth sometimes. Maybe my grades would be straight hundreds. Maybe I'd already have a proper job.
Looking at studying guides like this makes me kind of believe I can work hard and work focused - and maybe, I can. I guess I'm moving onto my "getting in character" part of my new life, and that excites me like nothing else! I really hope I can get this done.
I'm tight for time right now, though, so for now I'll just keep this image posted here to save it for myself later.
<3 Caramel
It's one of those days when eating alone feels extra lonely. I eat, but I'm not hungry. Nobody's sitting across from me, and the only sounds I hear are the leaves rustling in the wind outside.
One day, I'll make sure that none of us feel lonely again. We'll sit together, play games, drink soda, and laugh.
"Wait, wait, so you're telling me..." *Joe leans into the mic* "that magical girls are real?"
"Well, Joe, I was using a metaphor, like, emphasizing the difference between the online and real-world selves, but honestly, from the happiness brought from logging in and posting, magical girls may as well be real—"
*puts his hands up in surprise* "Oh my god. So they are real. I thought it was all just some anime nonsense. Jamie, Google this right now. Google magical girl sightings nearby. Maybe we can get an interview. And you were saying earlier, some of these girls explode?"
"That's where the whole subculture comes from, Joe. Like a landmine, if you get too close to one, they'll explode, but that's more of an emotional—"
"CHRIST. Is that even legal? How can they DO that? I want to know, like, the science behind it." *leans in closer* "Do you know what makes the explosions? Jamie, google some explosion gifs right now. Yeah, pull that up. I wonder how strong those are. Like, something like that could probably kill a silverback gorilla."
There's a cute café near the arcade that's licensed to sell both Uji and Yamabuki matcha, so I took Sen there. We got a crème-brûlée flavoured mille-crepe cake and an oreo parfait to share, while Sen got his matcha and I enjoyed a warm hot chocolate.
It felt like forever since we last met up, so I couldn't be more thankful that we're seeing each other tomorrow, too. He really likes that tendon place near my house, so maybe I can treat him? Or should we could go get curry, as it's really satiating, and can also come with tempura..? I'm not sure...
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BRUH I need to get my life together but yes I will
also am thinking of adding a few new pages to make the site cuter
So many plans made for after finals, but no idea how to get through said finals.
Can't I just skip to the part where I go to karaoke, skating, and cafe hopping? December 13th seems so far away...
My new friend group makes me so happy. We're all so cute together-- Four girls from different regions all over East Asia, somehow meeting in one class in Vancouver. Hanging out with them feels like I'm living in a webcomic. It'll be fun to spend more time with them, once we're through everything...
A larger image of my room plan!
Uruguay = u r gay?!?!?!?
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My friends are big fans of BABYMETAL, and plan to go to a concert in the summer. I'm not really a concert person, but I do appreciate the crowds of fashionable people they bring about. I wish I had that courage.
Hiiii you're back! Missed you <3
Oh my goodness Mari!! I missed you so much too ( ;∀;)
Glad to be back!!