The Nintendo DS Eshop Closes Soon! :(

School air is unbearable... Let me out of here! I want to sip drinks with heart-shaped ice!! I want to take a warm nap in the softest pajamas! I want to pet a cat!!!

No matter how much comfort food I treat myself to these days, I always wake up the next day feeling the same.

Maybe it's the world telling me to just lock in and work without caring...

(´д｀、)

Music player added!!

Holy moly!! After two or three hours of struggling, I’ve finally gotten a music player on my blog! I don’t think it’s on mobile but on desktop it seems to be working fine.

I’ve loaded a few songs that I like into it, but it’s pretty far from my actual music taste. Whatever, though- anything for aesthetics, right?

Anyways it should be right here on the top of my blog page! Unfortunately I was too lazy to make my own so I used a generator- but I feel like that was a little more trouble than it was worth since SCM’s method of using youtube links doesn’t seem to work anymore. I had to overhaul through discord, so that was a little time consuming figuring things out. :T

Glad it works now, though! Really adds atmosphere, I think. 

Now how will I get the rest of my old blog plans done..? I remember wanting to implement a guestbook and a little gallery on the sidebar. Might have to ask for help on those.

For now, though, it’s way too late to be thinking about all of that- I’ve got school tomorrow!! I should probably head to bed soon, otherwise I’ll pass out in precalculus again.

Goodnight~

<3Caramel

Walking about in nature really helps relax my mind. This trail in particular felt so beautiful, the rustling leaves and birdsong almost convincing me that I was about to meet totoro himself.

If only soft magical creatures like that existed in real life... I'd never go home!!

hiya ! (?)

Hello exasperated older brother figure

Studying with my friend Julia ♡

Nothing beats a tiramisu to keep tiredness at bay

Lately, I've been distracted with all sorts of things-- I want to write, animate, code, game-- everything but schoolwork appeals to me.

Though I try to push for productivity, what really call to me are the self-led projects.

Every time I lose motivation, I find myself saying, "it's okay, I can always become a journalist." "I still have my music to keep me afloat!" "maybe I can drop out and make an indie game." "If I just get enough money to invest in Nvidia..." Feckless attempts at leaving hard work for comfort-- I know I'll never survive thinking like that.

I just need to hold out for a few more years, and maybe, I'll be comfortable enough to pursue passion...

Throwback to the time I spent a lot of money on a gift to Sen's little sister... I really hope she liked it (´;ω;｀)

Would you enjoy a gift like this?

Same me, new plans

Woke up today and ate some leftover pizza from the fridge. It always feels so greasy and never makes me feel okay. My grandma was already going to drop off lunch for me but I guess I have no self-control.

Always thinking of an idealistic life where I can live like the rest of the put-together asian kids you'd see in a k or c-drama, I can't really get myself in the moment now. But during the occasional moment of clarity in the present that I have every so often, I can see that I'm pretty much in shambles.

I should be exercising, cleaning my room, wearing nicer clothing, studying for school- why do I load myself up with APs even though I never do homework? I'll never know. I guess I like to live out some aspects of my dream life while neglecting others.

I want to get out of this greasy failure life and live out my dreams as someone who's put together and productive.

yukiko is so cute wouldn't you agree?

maybe a little

can i come over and play for 10000 years