It Can’t Possibly Be 2025.

Did you grow any breasts/ass?

I certainly did. I bought a binder to take care of that.

What makes you feel like a girl? Asking so you know what to get rid of.

Oh that’s an interesting question with a complicated answer and I’m not quite sure I’m in the headspace to answer it thoroughly.

To be perfectly honest I’m intersex, my genitals are mostly the same for a male so it wasn’t super explicitly obvious at first, but a lot of other things were not normal for me, so my experience with biological sex when I started puberty was not typical for a male, and I grew breasts and didn’t have much testosterone. I identified more strongly with being a girl in middle school because I felt like I related to the girls in my class more than the boys and even my experiences with my body developing made me feel like I wasn’t anything like “normal” boys. I don’t know if I mentioned this here but I actually initially transitioned in middle school and don’t even really have much experience with being male besides a window of a few years as a teenager when i gave it a shot.

My voice sounds like a cis woman’s voice, and to even sound male at all it hurts a bit after a while and doesn’t even necessarily sound convincing, my mannerisms and behaviors are typically feminine, I just generally don’t come across as male in any way.

Lately I’ve had short hair, I’ve been wearing hoodies and jeans, sometimes I don’t shave for a week.

It’s still “here’s your food honey!” “we’ll be right with you miss” “have a nice day ma’am” and men asking if I have a boyfriend, guys talking down to me and over-explaining things… It has always been this way for me. I have much more experience living the typical life of a girl and then as a woman. Even when I tried to be a guy from around age 16 to 19 it was extremely fake and I wasn’t very good at it and people still assumed I was a girl sometimes. I’d get the occasional “oh I thought you were just a tomboy” from kids I didn’t know that well in high school.

So, everything about me is female. I’m basically a cis girl with male genitals. I never had any shot of being a man. I think that’s why detrans kink is so hot to me? but it’s also why it’s so impractical.

I’m like actively trying to be a guy lately and failing, so idk what to do. I’m probably just an intersex girl.

Oh I forgot I impulsively said this, oops. I failed it. I'll reduce the notes needed for the really big goals.

Let’s play a little game. If I can’t go the whole day without cumming I’ll cut every goal in my detrans notes game in half. (This is almost impossible)

me and who? (im the guy)

Let’s be honest chat, I’m pretty girly.

What if this becomes a force fem blog or even a bimbofication blog lol

Reinforce my femininity 🥺

I’m sorry for my strange behavior.

For anyone wondering, I am not okay.

My problems are a lot to unpack and I know I’m supposed to just be horny on here.

For anyone wondering the nature of my problems does actually indicate that maybe detrans is actually an option.

I feel like I don’t really have an actual personality or identity, I just always try to become someone else.

It’s entirely possible that’s the only reason I wanted to be a girl in the first place. I just wanted to be someone else.

rn I’m in between identities. I feel like I want to craft a definitive, ideal, permanent self to strive towards. I don’t know what the nature of this self should be. Even then I’m still just creating a character and filling a role, which I have done in the past. All I know how to do is play a character. I have no idea how to be my own person.

Should I actually be a guy maybe? I mean that would be easier. I think I do genuinely prefer being a girl but that isn’t easy. i don’t knowwwww ahhhhhh!!!

This whole thing is making me doubt even my name, which I changed 4 years ago. I only did that to try to become someone else. idk if that’s healthy. i dunno.

I can only think of this in the context of creating a new fictional character to become, I have no idea how to just be my own person.

I need help.

this means fakeboys!!!

would you recommend detransitioning to other trans "girls"?

hmmm it depends. I think it would probably be good for a lot of them. I have three answers to this.

trans rights answer: chances are this kink is a complicated psychological response to insecurities you have about your gender and you should try to pick them apart and figure out what you really wanna do if you pull back the curtains of trauma and insecurity and such. There’s a chance maybe you should actually detransition! Gender is something that can change over time and maybe you used to be a trans girl and that is no longer the case. People evolve and it’s okay to decide being a girl is no longer for you.

internalized transphobia answer: You will never be a cis girl, and is being a “trans” girl even worth it? Either you don’t pass and like, okay ew, what are you doing thinking you can be a real girl?? Just be a guy. OR you pass and are pretty and stealth which like okay cutie you get to cosplay as a cis girl but how long is that really gonna last?

bioessentialist answer: i know you’ve got the idea in your head that that it doesn’t matter that you’re biologically male and that you can identify however you want but like c’mon dude 💀 it’s a little cliche to just say XY = Male but let’s be real, your genetics having programming in them that build your body to a specific design and every action you take to realize your mental gender is working against the very nature of your physical destiny. It’s exhausting isn’t it? Just give into your DNA! It’d look good on you.

Very interesting results! Overall this is 31% wanting me to be a girl and 69% (nice) wanting me to be a boy. Of that 69% like half want me to have a short, masc haircut rather than totally shaved or kind of longish “for a boy”

I don’t know exactly want I’ll do yet.

erm so I may have impulsively shaved my face which I know I said I wouldn’t do but to be perfectly honest having facial hair is just not practical for me. I can’t openly be detrans rn I’m not ready for that and I don’t know if I ever will be. I’ll keep skipping my hrt for the foreseeable future but I just have to shave.