I Was On Hormones For 8 Years Before Detransitioning. I Passed Pretty Well And Had An Intimidating Goth/punk

What's the most depraved thing you've done for the sake of getting off?

A lot of my answers to this would be some variation of pretending to be someone I’m not. My biggest kink is transformation and that has led to me doing some catfishing or giving falsehoods about my identity.

I think specifically the thing I feel most guilty about is when I was doing some detrans rp and I sent a pic of my face and they *recognized me* (I know I keep alluding to my micro-celebrity but I’m really not that famous, still, sometimes people know who I am) and I, in my horny daze, decided it would be super hot if I pretended to be some random person catfishing as myself. This really hurt the person I had been talking to as they had previously seen me as kind of a role model and they got really upset and threatened to blackmail me. All that sent me into a deep depression and resulted in me not uploading any videos for months.

Not really a sexy answer, more of a sad one, but this blog is nothing if not honest.

I haven't shaved in over a week at this point. There still isn't really that much facial hair. I started hrt young, and actually the reason I was so eager to start hrt when i did was because of the slight facial hair growth I started getting. Since I stopped taking hrt I have noticed a bit of new hair growth on my left cheek but strangely none on my right cheek yet. Something I've started to wonder (and I wonder this every time I've tried to grow my facial hair out) is whether it's even a good idea to do this. It looks kinda bad and scraggly and it just makes me less confident when I go out. It's barely noticeable from a distance but up close it makes me look kinda bad. That being said I did promise in my notes game that I wouldn't shave so for now I won't :)

new development!!!

I tried thinking of myself as a “femboy” and… something clicked. I *liked* it. Not just in a kinky way that made me feel dysphoric in a horny way, no. It made me feel *good* about myself. Like, maybe I AM a femboy.

How do you feel about being forcefemmed into giving up any silly little notions of ever making it as a man?

honestly rn i’m begging for someone to forcefem me. Maybe that sounds crazy based on my blog but like genuinely if I had a 1 on 1 dynamic with someone very interested in making me in particular into a very feminine girl I’d be all over it. Please please please someone come into my dms and offer to turn me into a girly girl.

please help me

just took a break from sleeping for 16 hours to listen to kawaii future bass while doing your mom <3

your mother is such a bimbo that I asked for her number and she gave me her SSN, she’s a good role model for you <3

I love committing tax evasion!!! I have swiss bank accounts in over 7 states. I’m on Idaho’s most wanted list, they want me, but those hoes can’t farm my potatoes with a ten foot pole. <3

I’m so proud of you <3

I married your mom, do you know what that means? I’m your parent now. I know you thought we had something special, but that’s just going to bring a WACKY dynamic to thanksgiving. <3

I bought your mum a bowkay of roses and she cut her finger on the pedals, i licked up the blood and that’s how we got VAMPIRE DISEASE. Now we stay up all night monster mashing and sleep sunup to sundown. <3

I know I’m a few months younger than you but I am your parent and as the proprietor of a number of swiss bank accounts you are going to have to back off, ur mum is mine now and if you wanna slice of the pie you’re going to have to try again in your next life <3

Went to a New York Knickerbockers game at Madison Square Garden and that’s how I met your mother (she was the basketball) <3

Sorry you weren’t invited to the wedding, we only wanted to invite people making 7 figures or more and you didn’t make the cut. How many swiss bank accounts do you have again? 1? At most. Leave this to your elders sweaty <3

the slow march of time will consume (most of) us all. The year is now 2222. Humanity has been replaced with a complex system of pulleys and levers being operated by a single elderly man with a glass eye named Xebulorp. Of course your mom and I still have VAMPIRE DISEASE so we’re still kickin’ <3

Happy Mother’s Day!

I have been skipping my hrt most of this year. Even when I have doubts about detrans I still usually don’t take it. I haven’t really noticed many changes yet, besides it being easier to get an erection and developing a tiny bit more facial hair, but the reason I’m doing it is for my breeding kink :P

sea 🎀

feel free to make bad choices with me in dms

Welp, today is the last day I’m allowed to shave before the limits on the detrans notes game kick in.

I’ll make myself pretty one last time before throwing away my femininity forever.

I would just not shave today either but I have some final business to take care of where I need to be a girl.

I also reached 100 notes so I do need to get a haircut soon.