Honestly I’m Finding That I’m Afraid To Go Out In Public Looking Like A Guy. It’s Intimidating.

me and who? (im the guy)

please do

im curious

please reblog this if it is okay to anonymously confess something to you.

Whats the main thing keeping you from throwing it all away and what might help push you over that edge?

Well especially the past few days I really just feel like I want to totally go back to being a girl. aaand yet… I keep getting dragged back into this kink…

It almost feels like it isn’t a choice anymore. Like I’m destined to become male. The main thing stopping me is the expectations of the people in my life. Socially detransitioning would be the hard part, admitting that I want to be a guy and all, especially to people who are gonna say “I told you so”.

I’m not exactly sure what would allow me to go through with it, I think I would to be mentally conditioned to feel significantly more comfortable being male, or even to get uncomfortable being associated with anything feminine. This is why I say I think dedicated hypnosis might help.

True to my promise in my detrans notes game I have bought boxers to replace my panties. As a bonus they’re all boring, manly grey and black. I’m still a little nervous to take the step of throwing all my panties out but I’ll do that soon.

On a scale of one to ten, how suggestable and easy to break is your mind?

pretty much 10, but im a bit of a brat. You're free to come in my dms and try <3

When you honestly can’t tell what’s kink thoughts/beliefs and what’s your real thoughts/beliefs anymore…guess it means the brainwashing/conditioning is working? 😅 still don’t know if that’s good or bad…

new development!!!

I tried thinking of myself as a “femboy” and… something clicked. I *liked* it. Not just in a kinky way that made me feel dysphoric in a horny way, no. It made me feel *good* about myself. Like, maybe I AM a femboy.

Absolutely asking for people to come in my dms or just decide for me exactly what kind of man I should be. I need guidance!!!

what if people asked me to decide what kind of man they should be and have them completely reformat their blog and personality to match, and I intentionally chose the most incongruent kind of masculinity to their current identity

The titties, the attitude. She's perfect.

I think the reason being a guy appeals to me is that when I have sexual fantasies I always picture myself in a male role partnered with a cis woman and i dont have fun any other way. In order to get in a situation like that long term I would have to be a guy, and I’m so confused about my identity just in general that that sounds extremely appealing…