I Don’t Think Healthy People Every Really Get Chronic Illness.

BREAKING NEWS

JOE IS BIDEN ?

what if every Tumblr user suddenly looses their mouse?

me when i have like 20 notifications in the span of five minutes and when i go check its just the same guy rapidfire liking and reblogging posts

ah yes virgina woolf, the iconic definetely sapphic literary feminist.

Virginia Woolf, in a letter to Vita Sackville-West, February 1927.

Virginia Woolf, A Room of One’s Own, September 1929.

hey! dark academia tips for a beginner?

Hey, thanks for sending! Here are my best tips for amateur dark academics:

1. Indulge intellectually stimulating activities. Dark academics are always looking to learn more, do more, and be more. Do things that better your brain, such as researching. Find a topic that interests you— one that cannot be easily answered by a simple Google search and collect as much information as you can about it. And despite popular belief, that topic doesn’t have to be literature-based; it can be abnormal psychology, French history, hell— anything your heart desires and your brain would benefit from knowing.

2. Improve your penmanship. Dark academics are always taking notes, annotating, and scribbling things down in their journals. Said notes are usually in cursive or at the least—legible. And what’s worse than distasteful penmanship? Not only will this help you channel your inner dark academic, the people who have to read what you write won’t have to squint and sigh when reading it.

3. Drink more herbal teas and rich coffees. Tea and coffee are probably the two most consumed beverages by dark academics. Tea is relaxing, nice to sip after a laborious day at work or school and coffee is stimulating, a nice early morning wake-up beverage for a majority of the human population.

4. Learn about the classics. This is not exclusive to books and authors. If you’re more of a movie person, like myself, don’t hesitate to go back in time and learn what you can about the most iconic screenwriters of say… the 1940s. If you’re into vintage music, learn what you wish about the most influential musicians of the time. You can never go wrong with vintage! Well… except the racism, homophobia, sexism, slavery, classism, and poor tastes in eyebrow makeup, but that’s a discussion for later.

5. Purchase clothing of darker and earthier tones. This isn’t an absolute must, but many correlate the clothing with the aesthetic, so it would be a helpful identifier if you want the world to know that you’re a dark academic. By “dark and earthier tones”, I mean shades of brown, dark greens— including forest green and sage, greys and of course, blacks. Stay away from the ostentatious neons and pastels, as this is more common in the cottagecore aesthetics. Plaid and tweed are also treasured amongst the dark academia community, but they certainly don’t look good on everyone, so find what works for you. Dark academics also LOVE button-down blouses—especially ones with unique sleeves and Victorian-Era designs.

You don’t have to spend an arm and a leg curating your wardrobe, either. I personally purchase most of my clothing from thrift stores and online resell sites, such as Depop and Poshmark because they’re so much cheaper than buying them new.

6. Opt for darker makeup. This is pretty self-explanatory— wear darker lipstick shades and darker eyeshadow, if you wish. Also, you don’t have to conceal your eyebags, as they give an enigmatic depth to most people’s eyes.

That’s all I have right now, I hope this was helpful!

A part of me knew that one last stop was going to get less hype than red white and royal blue because people find gay men more attractive than lesbians but it still hurts to see it and I didn’t think that I’d see people openly admitting to not liking it because it’s a wlw story

Raindrops + Glass

Let me talk about Dazai Osamu.

Dazai is often so animated, whether it be flirting shamelessly with beautiful women, or trying to get on Kunikida’s nerves, or messing with naive little Atsushi, or irritating the living heck out of Chuuya.

But, emotions? In a previous post, I talked a bit about deciphering Dazai’s emotions, about how he shows real and true emotions only in certain very calculated and planned situations.

Even for a person who rarely shows true emotions, it is visible how his face changes when the Port Mafia is brought up. His voice, his eyes, the tightness in his jaws— everything changes.

Season 1 Episode 3, when Kunikida is describing the Port Mafia to Atsushi.

For me, this is a very important hint to decipher him, a tiny gap in space-time from where I can peek into his heart.

In Season 1 Episode 5, when he intervenes the sergeant’s nervous rant to say, “No, this wasn’t the Mafia’s doing”, he’s a changed man. He not only describes, but reminisces and relives the numerous times he’s seen the event he’s describing unfold.

He doesn’t meet anybody’s eyes, he’s staring into space. His voice is lower, a sharp contrast to the usual high pitched, lulting, lively voice. This isn’t the voice he uses to talk with his colleagues in the Detective Agency, with Atsushi.

In Dead Apple, while facing away from Atsushi, he says, “I might have stayed there, murdering people.” His head is angled towards the ground, voice low.

(what might he have been feeling then? that’s a topic for another day.)

In Season 2 Episode 9, while he’s talking directly with the Port Mafia boss, Mori-san, there’s is somethingly uncannily odd about his face— eyes open far too wide, smile far too forced.

I’ve searched long for the right word to describe this expression— it’s uncomfortable.

Haunted.

He’s uncomfortable, he’s uneasy, but he doesn’t know that, he can’t acknowledge that, he wouldn’t accept that, because how do you hide what you don’t know you’re feeling?

∘

The problem here is, Dazai cannot see that he himself, was also a victim. He sees himself only as an abuser.

The fact that he’s also a victim, a young boy who watched his boss murder an old man, a young boy held at gunpoint so he couldn’t go to save his friend— he doesn’t understand his abuse. He doesn’t understand he was also wronged, he always sees himself as the wrong do-er.

Which is why he never let himself heal, because in order to do that, you have to notice your injuries first. Like he literally covered himself up in bandages, figuratively he did so too— made up a smile and built walls all around him, impenetrable, insurmountable.

In these specific moments though, his face betrays his mind.

His face makes it very apparent that he was affected, is still affected, regardless of whatever he tells himself.

It’s in these moments, that you see he has a living, beating heart, scarred and heavy and haunted with the trauma of his unspeakable past.

It’s in these moments that you see he’s human— still, despite, after all.

∘

hiii let me assign you a citrus fruit and try to analyse your personality based on these weird questions <3