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so, as one does, i was checking how much ive lost since i started properly tracking again. And, as fucked up little brainicles do, i was disappointed when it fell in the range of healthy weight loss for the time span (7.3kg in 2mo)

and then i realized that i was upset??? about being healthy???? and close to the upper limit of healthy?????

like wtf??????

idrc about whats healthy when it comes to weight loss (like im here lol) but ive never... actively not wanted to at least go about it in a more helathy way??

like im fucking religious abt taking my vitamins so i dont get scurvy or whatever. (after writing this the fact that my hard line for healthy eating is "having my flintstones gummies everyday" is... something)

anyways tldr is i had a "shit i am so far into my relapse ive reached new levels of fuckery" moment :/

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okay @g1rl-interrupts are u like my long-lost de-aged twin?????/hj /nm

because literally*every*time i see u reblog something im like yup i agree on a soul-deep level

like u have impeccable taste but also kinda weird??? not in a bad way, in a are-aliens-or-the-goverment-involved way, promise <33333

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okay @g1rl-interrupts are u like my long-lost de-aged twin?????/hj /nm

because literally*every*time i see u reblog something im like yup i agree on a soul-deep level

like u have impeccable taste but also kinda weird??? not in a bad way, in a are-aliens-or-the-goverment-involved way, promise <33333

✨ aesthetic✨ lunch

rice cakes (2) - 70

cream cheese light (2) - 50

gochujang (1/8tsp) - 2

roma tomatoes (50g) - 8

total: 131

this was really fun! thx henri <3

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so theres a kinda specific but also not that specific trope i really like and find comforting and its the everyone minus the main character meets the in-need-of-hug+help mc and lifts them up and takes care of them.

and i was over analyzing myself as one does in the wee hours of the morning and was like... oh... huh

im so terrified of loving someone more than they love me that i dont see me being able to let myself make new relationships especially as an adult, let alone rely on others for anything important.

ive been so hyper independent since as long as i can remember that the concept of *not* being as entirely and completely self-sufficient as possible at all times falls under the same "nice to dream about but not real" umbrella as a world without homophobia or transphobia.

like in all honesty how the fuck do people just... trust that other people wont screw them over? accidentally or on purpose? what if they leave? what if they get new priorities? what if they cheat? what if they die and then you're floundering AND mourning?

im gonna start making d1ets (aesthetic w/daily c@l limits) which should i make first?

comment if u have specific ideas (eg space themed -> the moon, winter themed -> frosty winter plants, etc.)

moots cmere i need ur opinions! @angelsonfiilm @g1rl-interrupts @moth-boyyyy @allulose-add1ct @pr0ngs4th0ngs @beebees-tattooed-ribs @amptoohigh

both of u sleep <3

my lunch!

shrimp soup (150) and my last mango (135) rest in my stomach

total: 285

which i more than i usually like for one meal but todays a karate day and if i nearly faint again sensei might wonder why

if anyone's interested i can post the original recipe and then my modified version ^-^