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continued from here , @eyeofvengeance
there was nothing more terrifying than the sound of dragon wings on the wind. of that sansa had become certain. she had not wanted this position, had not wanted to be the one left behind in the wake of a war that was not hers, nor cregan's, to fight. but duty had called the way it so often did for men, and stark - bound honor meant the lord of the castle had gone to do his part – left behind in his stead the only family who had not turned her back . . . or died. it had meant that when the wind had howled with something more than winter, it was no man who crossed the threshold into the courtyard to meet aemond targaryen, but sansa in her quiet rage.
sansa who had sent her cousin's son into the crypts with the maester and the master - at - arms, and every maid they'd been able to find. had insisted she would do this alone. whatever it was that he wanted, she would handle – and none else would suffer for it.
but as he speaks, she cannot get a hold on him. cannot track the train of thought, cannot understand what it is he's asking for in between the pretty words and complimentary syllables. she knows it is something, to hear a man of his infamy speak of forging something stronger than oaths and service – it is always something.
“ forgive me, prince aemond, i fear i don't . . . quite follow what it is you are asking of me. ” her gloved hands interlace together in front of her, a careful flicker of grey - blue eyes across his features, studying the careful twitch of muscles, each consideration even as his voice softens. “ if you have not come here to kill me, or my kin, then perhaps the northern air has done you well in the fraction of time you have drawn breath within it. ”
red curls billow in the wind, cold encompassing the courtyard, but sansa dares not to allow herself even so much as a hint of a tremble now. not when she must be the voice of those who needed her. nor would she dare allow him inside the walls of winterfell proper, not without a better promise of his intentions. “ your dragon will not like it here. ” she says softly, boots shifting upon the stone path. “ even visenya did not fly so far north with her. i cannot decide whether that makes you courageous or full of folly. " or both. those words go unspoken, though the implication remains as sansa shifts her gaze from aemond to beyond the walls of the courtyard, beyond to where she fears for the worst in seeing large wings of a dragon come to life again.
“ speak plainly of your wishes, and i will allow you both warmth for the evening. else i am just as keen to stand here with you all night, it will not be i who freezes first. ”
her mother had always said she was made for dancing. made for more than harsh winters with little sunlight. and in this moment, sansa looks every part the graceful lady, not a single curl out of place – each step taken in fluid movement that looked so effortless. perhaps, too, it did not hurt that she had every reason to want to look like such an imagine, that sansa, in her effortless state, had put in more effort than she can recall ever having cared for previously . . . for the sake of not looking the fool when it was his careful hands that spun her 'round the room.
her brows furrow momentarily, felt off guard by the idea that he had thought she wouldn't be kind to him – delicate fingers placed upon his shoulder as they step in time with one another, sansa's head shakes ever so slightly, just enough to relay her own momentary thoughts. “ . . . whatever whispers cregan has been telling you of me being unkind, i hope you know he is jesting and only spreading such unseemly words because i said he shouldn't have a third helping of desserts if he wished to continue to fit into last winter's breeches. ”
her cheeks flush along the apples at the admission, her relationship with her cousin ever more akin to that of a sibling – ever more apparent that he remained the only family she had left with her own brothers, who had never managed a kind or caring word of her, rotting away in the wolf's den along with her father. better not to think about who had put them there, even better to not consider why they were there at all. sansa wonders, momentarily, if it had been cregan saying such words to jacaerys at all – and if he had been, whether her name had often been a topic between them. and if it had, did that mean the prince might have considered her as often as she had him?
“ you are most deserving of kindness from all, don't you think? ” she asks, a gentle smile curled onto her lips. “ i think i would have to disagree with anyone who said differently, you have been nothing but kind in return to me, i – fear i will be most heartbroken when you leave. ”
Jacaerys blinked, startled by the question that pulled him from his thoughts. He hadn't meant to let the silence stretch so long between them, yet something in Sansa's quiet presence had drawn him inward. Jacaerys extended his hand, bridging the gap between them. Her hesitation was brief, her fingers slipping feather-light into his.
Her hand squeezed his lightly, a gesture meant to reassure, to tell him that her words had been in jest, that she wouldn’t have accepted if she hadn’t wanted to. He could feel the slight tension in her grip, the unspoken thoughts that swirled just beneath the surface.
Sansa, always poised, always graceful, but never without a careful guard around her heart. He wondered if she felt the same stirrings of uncertainty that had begun to grow in him, or if this, for her, was merely another polite moment, soon to be forgotten. At her question, though, his gaze softened. “Troubling?” He almost laughed but held it back, not wanting to misstep in this delicate exchange. “No, Lady Sansa. Nothing troubling. I just... hadn’t expected your kindness.” The words felt weightier than he'd intended, but he didn’t pull them back.
the disappointment that lingers from him makes her cheeks flush, worry and trepidation for not being good enough; for not managing to say the right thing at the right time that leaves her flighty and measured. a quick nod, wide - eyed gaze that watches with the keen sense of a prey animal. “ a pleasure, erolith. ” consideration for extending out a finely gloved hand, before she realizes she does not wish to be touched – does not wish to offer herself belly up, just in case. “ it has been some time since anyone just called me sansa. ”
@petitmortes, cont.
" perhaps you are right. " the sigh that response spurs sounds more disappointed than anything else. the nature of formality is reserved for idle chatter over round tables and bustling festivities ... head bows forward slightly, hand moving to press to chest absently just above heart. it had been some time since he had held title, longer since he had felt inclined to uphold the formalities of courts. " dare i request you simply refer to me as erolith. "
@ach1llean said: whatever you desire, it's yours.
oh, how desperately she wants to believe him. to allow herself to be taken under by the daydream loras and margaery present her with, of highgarden – of their older brother, willas, kind and sweet. but where there should be hope, there is tentative uncertainty. fear. worry. continuously etched into the fine features of her face to the point that sansa looks more akin to a fawn than she does a wolf. she exhales a breath she hadn't realized she was holding, her lips forming a smile that does not reach her eyes as she rests her hand upon his arm. “you are very kind to say so.” gentle, dismissive words as she steps further down the garden path.
“ i am very appreciative of . . . everything your family has offered me, ser loras. ” but she worries. but sansa knows cersei will not merely allow her to leave. even once margaery was made queen, the rot would still remain – joffrey would still exist, no matter how tempered he made himself out to be; and cersei . . . sansa feared for the aftermath of the queen mother finding out she no longer held enough sway with her son.
“ i am afraid that – perhaps you all might be overestimating the amount of trouble i am worth. ” she says plainly, an admittance that had been a long time coming. was there not a reason robb had not come for her? that in the time before he'd been betrayed, he had not thought so much to set his sights to her. it was her fault that their father had died – her fault that he'd taken the position with robert baratheon in the first place. an incessant amount of begging that'd led to her father begrudgingly allowing her betrothal to joffrey. maybe she had simply earned her place here, had earned the mistreatment and misfortune.
“ i would not want to cause any hardships for margaery's marriage. ”
@foulrests said: rumor has it, i make you nervous / laena & sansa.
she feels the air physically leave her lungs. stark grey eyes widened at the speed with which laena had merely . . . appeared before her, stealing breath from her lungs in a way that sansa wished she could say only had been caused the way silvery curls had bounced to life in the dimly lit hall before her. and certainly not because they were attached to someone so devastatingly pretty.
her mouth feels dry, her hands wrought together behind her back for a moment as she manages to find her courage to speak. “ who . . . said that? ” an awkward laugh, stunted as she tucks a few stray red hairs behind her ear and finally manages to look laena in the eyes. “ i am not – you . . . do not make me nervous, lady laena. ” but even as the words pass through her lips, sansa's cheeks are flushing a light shade of pink, ever made more noticeable across the light porcelain of her skin.
“ perhaps they merely heard me mention that i am nervous of dragons. ”
she quiets for a moment, contemplation writ between her brows before she sighs, soft – sweet and airy. “ aloneness does not always beget a lack of formality, i – would you prefer i call you something else? ”
hand raises, palm poised flat as if urging silence - it's far from the case, however, which becomes quite apparent with the idle soften of features. " there is no need for such formality. we are alone, after all. "
@tymptir said : I am not what you wanted, but I swear to you I shall fulfill my duties as your husband as well as I can — and leave you alone as much as you wish, should that be your preference. , from tyrion to sansa .
she knows that she should not be cruel. for whatever situation she had found herself in now, it was not his fault – sansa had come to learn which lannister pulled the strings, which cruelties to blame upon joffrey, and which ones could be attributed to cersei, but this one she knew belonged to a far more diligent hand. lord tywin had not been present within the red keep for more than a few days before her dreams of escaping to highgarden with lord willas had been dashed, and the cold face of reality made to look back upon her once more from her vanity mirror.
but that does little to quell the annoyance she feels now, the insistent rage of a girl so tired of being used in whichever political arrangement she was most useful for. another fact that is not his fault, but lord tyrion is the only one offering her this quiet place of solitude – the only one offering her the ability to voice her displeasure without fear of retribution. even still, sansa eyes him much like a wolf uncertain if the hunter before her is hiding a knife behind his back.
“ none of this is to my preference, but that has never mattered much to anyone here. ” she says plainly, her emotions steeled behind practised mannerisms. if she could stand to look joffrey in the face after he'd harmed her, after he'd made her look upon her father's head upon a pike, sansa could manage this. could manage anything. “ your family enjoys killing wolves, i hope you will be kind enough to allow me the comfort of not knowing when you decide to take my head. ”
unwilling to acknowledge his willingness to acquiesce to her, as if his willingness made it better that she'd been a prisoner here ever since the day her father was killed. as if she'd ever been given a choice on whether she wanted to stay.
“oh, that wasn't what i – ” she flushes crimson, porcelain cheeks colored in an instant as his hand extends between them. sansa had only meant to tease him a little, to shake him from whatever reverie had taken hold of him within his mind to cause the silence, a silence she had not known to come from him, in truth. but, who was she to deny him this? her hand floats feather soft down into his, a gentle smile curling onto her lips as she nods.
“ i believe we both might end up in trouble for bad manners if i said no. ” her hand squeezes his lightly, as if to tell him she is only jesting, that she wouldn't agree if she hadn't wanted to. and maybe in her own way, without truly knowing it, this had been what sansa had wanted all along – though admitting to such was . . . far beyond her willingness. he was the prince, and wasn't meant for fleeting girlish thoughts and ideas.
“ is there something troubling you, prince jacaerys? ”
@petitmortes asked: Aren't you going to dance? / from sansa !
𝕵𝖆𝖈𝖊 𝖘𝖙𝖔𝖔𝖉 𝖆𝖙 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖊𝖉𝖌𝖊 𝖔𝖋 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖍𝖆𝖑𝖑, 𝖍𝖎𝖘 𝖌𝖆𝖟𝖊 𝖋𝖎𝖝𝖊𝖉 𝖔𝖓 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖘𝖜𝖎𝖗𝖑𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖉𝖆𝖓𝖈𝖊𝖗𝖘 𝖇𝖊𝖋𝖔𝖗𝖊 𝖍𝖎𝖒, yet his thoughts were far from the music or the festive atmosphere. He had avoided the dance floor all evening, his usual lively demeanor subdued by a weight he couldn't quite shake. But when a voice reached his ears, soft yet carrying a note of gentle challenge, he turned to face her.
For a moment, Jace hesitated, caught off guard by the Northern beauty's question. Sansa was poised, her auburn hair gleaming in the candlelight, and her presence exuded a calm that was both inviting and disarming. Realizing his silence had stretched too long, he offered her a smile—small, perhaps a bit strained, but genuine.
"My apologies, Lady Sansa," he said, inclining his head slightly. "I've been rather sullen tonight, haven't I? It seems I forgot my manners." His voice was warm, despite the lingering shadows in his eyes.
Extending his hand to her, Jace let the smile soften, a trace of his usual charm returning. "May I have this dance, my lady?" he asked, his tone lighter now, as if her question had sparked something within him that had been dulled by his earlier mood.
she should not have spoken, a fact that rings so painfully within her temples as she watches his attention turn to her – as she watches eyes that had forgotten about her flicker back with life at remembrance of her in the corner. it was a mistake she made often enough now, the reminder that as a bastard she was meant to be not seen nor heard, whereas the position she'd been so used to had been anything but; a lady of her standing was used to being present and in center, used to having eyes upon her . . . sansa would've given anything to slink back into the shadow of the corner of the chamber now, back into the forgottenness of her seat, to where littlefinger had told her to play her role as little mouse to listen and little else.
“ father does not wish for me to sit with you. ” she replies coolly, placid as her gaze shifts back to her embroidery. it was easier to not look at him, to not acknowledge features that held a sickening familiarity she could not explain – looking at him made her think of robb. of bran and rickon. in her trailing thoughts, she forgets the placement of her needle; forgets that which her hands know better than all else, and before sansa can stop it from happening, her needle plunges into the soft flesh of her index finger.
embroidery clatters to the floor as if it's bitten her, metal sticking from porcelain digit, before she plucks it out and sticks the pad between her lips, brows wrought together. a shake of her head, a moment – or is it several? before sansa, no, alayne, lifts blue eyes to meet maron's once more. “ my opinions hold no weight here, they are as useful as the difference between whether you choose to do something based off of your indiscrimination or your indifference, lord greyjoy. which is to say . . . not at all. ”
she shifts up from her seat, stretching long legs from where they'd been tucked so gracefully underneath her as she stands to full height before bending just as carefully to retrieve her embroidery. with it in hand once again, she sits down in the chair petyr had previously occupied. “ what has he promised you? ” no fineries, no sweet, simpering smile; she doesn't play that game anymore. “ in his letters to get you here, what deal has he offered that you found so entrancing to brave the probability that he would not simply have you thrown from the moon door? ”
HE SHOULDN'T BE HERE . far removed from all he knows and all he's comfortable with , strangely in the hands of a man he knew not to trust . what had driven him to answer Baelish's invitation , the young Salt Prince couldn't say anymore . curiosity , perhaps . the scent of a chance he'd be stupid not to take ; the scent of an offer he might benefit from . home was far behind him , usurped and out of reach , and allies were few and far between . . . and while he only vaguely remembered the man from the few times Stannis had brought him to court , he knew better than to underestimate Littlefinger . a man with a liar's tongue and the morals of a sewer rat didn't survive in the world without cleverness . and it was the clever people , one shouldn't insult .
all the way through the long and daunting conversations , he had shoved the notion from his head that nothing but thin air lay below his feet for miles upon miles . he had swallowed the unease and erased the memory of his fall , down , down into the abyss the day Robert Baratheon had laid siege to Pyke and life as he knew it had ended . to say the Eyrie unnerved him would be an understatement . and still , the Greyjoy sat , apparently calm , listening , conversing . . . breathing a sigh of relief at Baelish's laughter to his last statement and the view of his back leaving the room , to find a servant . more wine . more food . more everything .
what he had not expected , was a voice piping up from a corner of the room he had almost forgotten about .
quiet , busy with her work until now , he had initially noticed her and still looked somewhat surprised to eventually hear her speak . the name had slipped his mind , but her connection to Littlefinger had not . and that , perhaps had been the most surprising aspect of it all . brows arched , his bright , ocean - blue eyes settling on her petite form in a way most would describe as unsettling , but his voice remained a calm singsong . " ah , but indiscriminately is not quite the same as a lack of thought and care , is it ? " he tilted his head ever so lightly . " just because I'd be willing to kill anyone does not mean I wish to kill everyone . the Vale is quite safe , my lady . no worries . "
those he wished to see dead were plundering the Reach after all . far enough from the kraken's grasp , no matter how long it stretched its tentacles .
" why won't you sit with us ? take part in the conversation ? " a gesture towards one of the empty chairs at the table , and a touch of a smile in the corners of his lips . cocky , no doubt . self - assured . for but a moment , one perhaps could see the likeness between him and Theon , were it not for the fact that unlike his younger brother , Maron breathed and lived Ironborn . he smiled and spoke calmly , washing a feeling of ease and humor into these godforsaken halls , but underneath it all lingered an undercurrent and the unpredictable nature of the sea . " after all , it seems like you have some opinions yourself . "
𓉸ྀི interview with the vampire (1994) ; accepting .
@azmenka said : evil is a point of view. god kills indiscriminately, and so shall we.
the illustrious we. perhaps not a sticking point for others – a minute point not worth ruffling feathers over; but for sansa, always for sansa, did it barb and prickle. her nose wrinkles, distaste and discomfort present on the fine, porcelain features of her face as her gaze flickers up from her lap, where she'd been forcing herself to study the stitches in her gloves – forcing herself to not communicate nor involve herself in a conversation where her tongue would sooner get her into trouble than it would anything else.
she is meant to be a bastard here – she is meant to hold her tongue, and to not recognize maron greyjoy for his familiarity to his brother. alayne stone would not know him from any other ironborn, would not know that he held the same quirk of his lips as theon once had. surely, this, like all of other lord baelish's insistences, was a test; a consideration of how deep she was willing to sell his lies.
her distaste flickers away as quickly as it had presented, gone in an instant, replaced with a cool, uninterested glean as nimble gloved fingers tuck dyed black hair behind her ear.
“killing without thought or care makes you no better than a lannister, no better than cruelty reborn. the gods do as they will, that does not mean you should not hold yourself to a standard, lord greyjoy.”
cold, winter chill – held in her tone as tully blue eyes shift around the room, cursing petyr for leaving her to meet with the man; cursing theon for what he'd done to her home, cursing herself for the way her fingers flex within her gloves and then settle again into her lap. she wasn't arya, she was not strong – she had no fight within her, no capability for killing or death.
“your choices are yours alone, but do not think to act rashly within the vale, 'less you wish to find yourself at home within the skies. i hear the nightly winds oft cause men to consider jumping to save themselves the remainder of their sentences.”
𓉸ྀི kiss & tell ; accepting .
@worthyheir said : wiping away your lover’s tears as you kiss them.
she had not mean to disturb him. a fact that mattered little now, but one that she would cling to later – indefinitely. far be it from sansa to disrupt anyone choosing the sanctity of winterfell's godswood to hear their tears – had she not so often done the same? it was quiet, a calm place that enveloped and listened; offered a gentle lull of wooded branches and dribbling pond water . . . and was one of the few places one could find a moment of peace alone. she had intended to allow him his, her hand gripped tighter around the leash that held lady to her side, before the leather slipped from her gloved hand and lithe direwolf paws were bounding across the godswood.
sansa had done her best at rushing after her, but it'd been too little too late; lady nuzzled into the prince's side, there'd been little choice but to look at him. for stark grey eyes to flash across his sadness and threaten to well with tears of her own. in her head she can hear her brothers chiding her, can almost hear her father's low laugh at how easy it is to make his daughter cry; the poor, little thing. but they aren't here, they were rotting away in the wolf's den, and cregan had never said an ill word about her sensitivities.
all thoughts of grabbing lady's lead are forgotten as she sinks into the snow before him, no concern for the cold nor her dress, nimble fingers slipped from the fine leather gloves – winter chill nips at porcelain digits as sansa pulls him to her. “you don't need to face this alone.” she murmurs softly, curling arms around his shoulders, holding him as tightly as she can manage. “you aren't alone.” a beat, a gentle inhale and exhale before she shifts away just enough to curl a hand onto his cheek, brushing tears away with her thumb as she presses a kiss to his forehead. as if on cue, lady nudges up from his side, lapping away large tongue at his cheek – before sansa quietly brushes her away once more and offers jace a gentle smile.
“it would appear i have competition from my own companion for you.” a lightly cracked joke as she shifts ever closer, drying his cheeks with soft palms. “what do you need?”