Experience Tumblr Like Never Before
Op i want to hug you rn you just basically described my experience to a point.
I own two cats, and I adore them, hell I display dog like behaviors and nudge against them with my snout or curl around them and lay in the sun by the window.
But real dogs? I don't hate them, but they're overstimulating often. I don't really find them actually all that cute, especially in comparison to cats, and when i see a picture of my theriotype, the joyful feeling i get isn't from the cuteness of the dogs its like.... "Wow thats me!" "That really looks like me!". And the idea of being with other dog therians or dogkins makes me feel excited, but not the idea of being with real dogs.
Being called a cat, the idea of being a cat, makes me so so so uncomfortable.
Something I wanted to share about my feelings with therianthropy...
I am a dog.
I don't like dogs, I don't like being around real life dogs that much, they kinda tend to annoy me most of the time. I don't really feel myself having any affinity for dogs in general, even fictional dogs are just sort of "okay" to me. There are some cartoon dogs I can think "yeah he's cool or chill" but it doesn't really go any further than that.
I dont even see myself in dogs, but I see myself AS A DOG.
And I've never been able to change this.
I prefer cats, I feel more affinity for cats, I communicate better with them IRL, I've lived with cats all my life (my family never had dogs as pets) and in general I think cats are aesthetically more pleasing to look at than dogs, not that that's the dog's fault or anything.
I wish I could be a cat sometimes, I even tried to call myself a cat, draw myself as a cat, mimic cat behaviour, all that stuff where you try it on and see if it fits, makes you feel comfortable...
But I still feel like I'm a dog.
I've talked about this occasionally with friends and in some furry fandom spaces, which all of them said about the same thing. "Well why don't you just BE a cat then?"
To which my answer, with sadness and longing, is only "I don't know."