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claudia + happiness (requested by anonyous)

manifest seb in imola this year for me thank you

Everyday i think about how sad Mel’s story is and shed a tear.

When we first meet Mel in Arcane its already kinda like :( because she’s been cast out of the medarda family; but her ending somehow turns out even worse as:

-her best friend was killed right before very eyes.

-she was trapped with a fake version of her brother which she has to destroy with her bare hands. this undoubtedly forces her to accept his death for a second brutal time.

-she finds out shes not fully noxian and is then forced to kill her own mother in like the span of a week.

- she came back from being kidnapped to be yelled at by her bum ex who didnt even have the decency to consider her circumstances. Said ex downplays his own agency, blames her for saving him, and then delivers a half-assed apology.

-at the end of everything, she returns to noxus WITH NO FAMILY OR FRIENDS LEFT, and is forced to take up the mantle of being head of the Medarda family. this is like the one thing she tried so hard to avoid.

It's finally done. First fullbody of my tarnished OC Quinn. 🐦‍⬛

Designed his main outfit as well as his staff.

The scorned son 🐍🩸

𝐈𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐦𝐚𝐜𝐲

This was supposed to just be a sketch, but my hand slipped.

🐍🐦‍⬛

How to stay motivated in math class👩🏻‍🍳

(I need him...carnaly.)

au where i break into the gway heaven by marc jacobs shoot and start amateurishly mucking about

Hi Maggie, I'd really like to hear you say a bit more about why you wrote Adam trying to repair the relationship with his abusive parents in the Raven King. What is the merit in salvaging a relationship such as that, and do you think it is possible for Adam's parents to truly redeem themselves? P.S. Can't wait for Call Down The Hawk, hopefully by the time it comes out I'll quit accidentally calling it Call The Hawk Down (every time I do that I'm like SHIT...was that it? That wasn't it...)

Dear courageofhorses,

I have also seen CALM DOWN THE HAWK which is a perfectly appropriate title.

Following is spoilers for TRK

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CAVEAT: I’m going to answer this with how I interpret Adam’s character, but in the end, the books live without me, so it’s what makes it on the page and into your interpretation that counts.

THAT SAID. I’m not sure I would call Adam’s final move in The Raven King an attempt to repair the relationship, because it’s not about his parents, it’s about him. It’s about what he needs to say and do in order to feel he has the moral high ground; it’s what he personally requires to allow himself freedom.

By the time we get to that final scene of his in TRK, he’s been living on his own for quite awhile, a high school senior who fled his childhood home under duress. In that time, he’s lived through a helluva lot of traumatic and brilliant events. He’s seen his mentor die, he’s fallen in love, he’s dreaded his best friend’s death, he’s learned that he can be a good friend. 

The only time he’s seen his father in that time is when he comes busting through the door of his apartment with violence and Cabeswater intervenes. 

Otherwise, it has been only Adam and his memories of his parents, and if there is anything Adam doesn’t trust throughout the series, it’s his own interpretation of events. He’s been trained his entire childhood to doubt himself. 

So him returning to TRK isn’t about him genuinely trying to repair a relationship, to accept his parents back into his life despite all the’ve done to him. Instead, it’s about him — for the first time, ever — walking back to the trailer he grew up in without fear. He’s just come from graduation, and he’s closing the books behind him. He’s choosing to be blunt with his parents, without fear, older, wiser, more powerful. He knows he can trust whatever he sees as he walks back through that door under his own steam. It will be the truth, not what his battered emotional thoughts whispered to him for 800 pages.

Adam returns to see if, now that he knows himself, these people he saw as monsters still look like monsters. He wants to see if he becomes monstrous in their presence. He wants to feel for the first time in his life the glorious glow of the absolutely certain high ground while looking at his father. 

He wants to exorcise the memory of a fearful man who controlled his life for 17 years by instead facing him with the full knowledge that he has no control over Adam whatsoever. 

And as to the rest: shit, man. Even if your parents beat the crap out of you, it can be hard to make the decision to walk away completely. The voices whisper that maybe it wasn’t that bad –

But Adam says what he came to say.

He came to see if he ever had parents. If, once he didn’t hate himself, they might be different. And guess what: he’s the only thing that changed. They didn’t. 

He fled that trailer last time he left. Like the scared kid he was. But now he just walks out, like the man he became.

So to me, that scene is about Adam coming back to the trailer to realize this about his past:

And this about his future:

And walking out as Adam Parrish, son of no one, only himself.

tl;dr: abuse is a complicated creature with many different roads to closure. Is what Adam does right? I can’t say that. Is what I think Adam did in that scene what you think he did in that scene? I can’t say that either.

But I reckon that’s what I was thinking when I walked him out that door for the last time.

urs,

Stiefvater

My favorite fictional characters fall into two categories, those being

1) I want to delicately pin them up in a display case as you would a butterfly in order to study and preserve their every feature and trait and shield them from The Horrors™️

2) I want to put them in a prescription bottle and shake them around

I drew an all-pink Miror B. for my server friends :D

Aaand afterwards I remembered that today is International Day of Pink. What a coincidence. Anyway, happy International Day of Pink!

i would kill for her and im being so serious

ohhh my god the baby... simon move over it's my turn to protect her

i want to kiss her forehead and adopt her

the apocalypse was a good thing actually bc if there was a government baby Marceline would've been arrested for the crime of being too cute

If they ever reboot Supernatural, then Cas needs to stay terrifying 100% of the time EXCEPT when he's with Dean. With Dean he becomes gentler, almost puppyish, to the point where Dean doesn't understand why everyone is so scared of him. Everyone almost has a heart attack when Dean slings an arm over Cas's shoulder and basically hangs off him - except Cas doesn't smite him, merely gives him a fondly exasperated look and holds his weight up.

It takes Sam three years of knowing Cas to get to the "clap Cas on the shoulder" level of friendship without worrying for his safety.

spottedleaf hates bluestar and she hates featherwhisker and she hates thunderclan for not doing anything about thistleclaw, she sees how they were willing to let his behavior slide because he was a respected warrior. Anytime bluestar tries talking to her she wants to vomit she wants to tear off her bandaged paws and slice into bluestar until her face looks like shredded pork bluestar has tried apologizing to her but it was so shitty it was so ass, not even about spottedleaf's own trauma it was all just "If I had known" "If I knew better", bluestar makes it all about *herself*. every apology spottedleaf has gotten by any of the older thunderclan cats, she could tell it was done to relieve their conscious and not actually make an effort to help her or mend broken bonds. She can't get mad either that is the bullshit part, she *must* be okay with what they're saying otherwise she's just being difficult. Then she will be blamed for her own abuse for lashing out, thunderclan doesn't care about her they just want to forget everything that is a detriment to their own social morale she wants to poison the food supply in camp and watch everyone die she wants to hurt them

Swap!AU Elizabeth Afton

Fly high TikTok 😭🕊️

What does it matter it's already done 😭

Omg I just remembered her ends are blonde and her hair is BROWN FUCKKKKKK

Tried to draw Naomi but I made her blonde but I’ll live..

HERES TO MY FAV BIMBO OC- NAOMIIIIII

Its lowkey messy but it adds some authentic flavor to it..

every time i think about inumaki post shibuya all i hear is a loop of

MY SHAYLAAAA

is it obvious that I'm fascinated by something incredibly specific about him?

I present you,baby alucard

So silly

Can you draw Eleven in that Goku Black outfit please?

Elllll :333

Hii!! I hc that Will after being stuck in the upside down for about a week or so would have pretty bad motion sickness and would feel dizzy sometimes for no reason,, idk if there’s a way that you could potray that in a drawing but if you could that would be really cool :))

Sick will 😢

I feel like after the mind flyer possession thing if will ever got cold and he would feel just a bit of pleasure in the coolness, he would panic and like burn himself alive, like he would turn on the radiators put on like 4+ layers or something and he would start feeling sick, nauseous or dizzy after some time. This applies to the feeling of coldness or wetness of the upside down.

I guess I didn’t really draw what you asked for but it kinda works its way there😭

can you draw st4 el in rink-o-mania outfit🙏

I love my baby El so ofc 🤭

The rink-o-mania scene was so sad from El’s pov :(

She’s such a cutie ❤️

Petition to give season 5 El the same haircut as in season 2 🤭

Still waiting for stranger things requests :)

Eleven requested by my dad :)

Will zombie boy Byers for the heart and soul

He’s so cute :3

I need an AU that’s like apocalypse bur one of byler boys gets infected and the other doesn’t 😔

Requested by @perhapsanegg

Grim headcanon

He tied up the bow himself because he saw that people put bows on pets and plushies they liked. He thought that maybe if he had a bow, soemone would find him cute and help him. Eventually he realized people saw him as nuisance and a monster no matter what he did, so he stopped trying to get help.

He still kept the bow on, to comfort himself by pretending that someone did love him.

He likes it when the prefect puts bows on him, it comforts that younger Grim, its a reminder that hes loved like he always wanted.