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this is also why i’m largely uncomfortable with the f&briz ship bc it’s like…so diminishing for me. riz’s struggles, his story, come so largely from him not having a romantic connection— it’s that fear of ‘my friends CAN and WANT and are COMFORTABLE with and in romantic relationships. i don’t. this is what sets us apart. they can’t understand me the way they all understand each other, that the world at large understands them and wants everyone to be like. our platonic connection won’t win out over their romantic ones’ and so putting him in one to me always feels so. cheap.
there’s something so much more impactful for me as someone who has tried but can’t handle romantic relationships and has the same fears as him getting to watch riz, against all the odds and amatonormativity, having just as meaningful platonic relationships without ever being in a romantic one
there’s just something so intense abt being aroace and not knowing how to rant or talk abt it properly bc ur still coming to terms with it and what it’s like for you and what’s tied to it and what isn’t and then seeing riz be the physical manifestation of all the anxieties and concerns ive felt or am currently grappling with bc im aro and knowing i can’t rant abt it to my friends bc of what those struggles stand as and are and how a lot of it isn’t anxiety but just a truth i cant deny or run from so i js get to occasionally live vicariously through him instead once every week